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The bats vs. robots bit gets a small smile out of him which fades as the discussion turns. It'd be a lie to say he didn't consider bolting, some small part of him, there are times still when things get bad and the reflex kicks in. Run.

But just because he could run, fast, far, free and untouchable for the moment, didn't mean he should. He'd been doing too much running away recently. Sometimes you had to stop and face things.

He lets Din say his bit and takes a deep breath. "Look I...I know death isn't as permanent as it should be in this job, but I was dead. And no, I didn't die how I wanted to, or how maybe I should have, but I did. And it's...I can accept that, death is a part of life and an everyday thing with this job. But I...I know it sounds terrible, but I sometimes, well often now, wish that I...stayed that way you know? It's that if I was going to die, let it stay that way, let everyone remember me as I was and not...what they used me as."

He took a deep breath. "I'm not 'freaked out' about it like you put it, it happened, it's done, and it can't be changed. That I can deal with, but it's that I-" he amended his wording now, "they made me kill you, and do all those other terrible things. And it's not even really what they made me do, it is but, it's more that now I have to see the consequences of it, and what it's done to everyone and know that they used me to do all that harm."

This time he grabs his friend's arm, the one that's holding him from bolting. "Look Din, I know I've been withdrawing but...you're doing it too. You're spending less and less time up here, more time in New Morlaidh. And it's not just focusing on the royal stuff, we both know it. I don't know what it is, but you're slowly cutting ties. And...I'll live with not having you as a friend and that my body was used to kill you...but I don't want you to disappear on everyone because of something I did. You can't do that, Din."