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[Feb. 2nd, 2010|04:39 pm] |
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| | 'Happy Now?' - No Doubt | ] |
I feel like I'm fighting myself all the time.
I know it's probably just the return of my old friend, Self-Sabotage (we go way back), but it's harder now.
Because this time it counts.
It matters.
It's like:
I've been crusing through school for so long and now I can't - a PhD just won't let you - and I have to undo the way I do everything and start again.
And I don't know if I can do it.
I mean, if I try - if I actually try ... what if it isn't good enough? It might not be. It really might not be.
That's -
it's terrifying.
And I feel like I'm stuck in this place between doing and not-doing, knowing and not-knowing. |
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