i felt so shitty yesterday so i wasdriving around not really knowing where i was going. i feel so fat lately and ugh i need to just get motivated. summer is coming up so soon. and it sucks bc alex can never hang out cuz hes working or too busy or im working..we get to hang out maybe once this week..and when my boyfriends actually live in my state im used to hanging out with them everday. maybe its heathier this way but it still sucks never bein with him. and once baseball starts ill never see him ugh!