Things have been going well lately. I have found a wonderful counseling center and have a wonderful counselor named Leslie. She is super-nice and doesn't make me feel on edge and it is nice to have someone to just talk to. I'll see her again June 15th and then I'll see the psychiatrist July 7th and I'm hoping to get my counseling appointments every other week and I am wondering if I'll need the medication. I felt good after talking to her the first day but I didn't feel good enough...maybe I do need the anti-depressants. I didn't like Prozac because it made me feel neutral not bad but not good either. So if I do need the anti-depressants than I am hoping I'll be able to discuss what medications I'd like to try.

Got a surprise from Matt today: He's coming up in the next 2 weeks for Father's Day and he'll be in town for a week and then he'll be back up in August for 2 weeks. I've gotta be honest: I am deathly nervous and nerve-racked about seeing him and I don't know why either. He has had always had some kind of hold on me and I'm just stoked about seeing him and hanging out at like the mall or something. He's gonna meet my family so this is gonna be interesting to say the least...let's see there is Tia, Joe, Kaiden, Pookie, Crystal, Fuzz, Jonell, Taven, and Alexa. Oh yeah and my dad again....oh boy. He wants me to make him M&M cookies so I gotta ask him what day for sure he'll be in so that I know when to make them...that way I can do my Pumpkin Raisin cookies and his M&M cookies in all one shot.

My brother Joe got a baby ball python, a female named Pookie, and I am the first to run at the word "snake" but I love this little girl to death. I am not worried about being struck or anything by her and she normally just stays curled up in the palm of my hand and she is so sweet. I feel like I have accomplished something huge in my life....I am not afraid of snakes or at least baby ones and I don't know how big she'll be in the next few weeks when Matt comes in...I sure hope that he isn't afraid of snakes LOL. I wanna try and get some pictures of her and then post them on my Photobucket.

I got bored and am dying my hair pink again. Yeah I have no life but getting a job sucks as is so might as well look damn good if I'm going to get rejected by people. Dad probably won't be too happy but he knows how I am and in a few weeks I'll go to black or burgundy or something. Toby and I are doing ok I plan on going down next Tuesday to see him for his birthday: which reminds me I still need to find his Top hat and get everything else gathered up that he asked for. I finally got my own Xbox 360 with 120 gig hard drive and it's only costing me $200....well now $190 since I gave Trenton, Tia's brother, $10 for it and now I can't give him the $50 like I wanted so I'll have to give him $25 and go from there. But it should be paid off before the end of the year and I'll own my baby forever. Yeah I truly have no life lol.

Alright I gotta go wash my hair and see what it looks like and see if I need to apply more. Ta.