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All my life I've been taught to put business first, and that to do so I need to control my emotions, even ignore them for the greater good, especially because of my profession. I believed that, but I had only understood why in theory.

Online, being anonymous, it's easy to be more like who I feel I am inside. And with you, for the first time, I was sharing that part of me and it felt great. I was learning how to feel, and feel very good. But that doesn't come without cost, and I guess I began to fall in love with you, if that's the phrase.

This wouldn't be okay even if you were blonde, but you being a brunette complicates it more. I've realized that embracing this and investing more and more into these feelings would undo everything I've tried hard to achieve. I understand now that emotions make it difficult to place work and business as the first priority. And that me liking you was having an effect on how I saw other brunets. The law needs to be my guideline, not my morals.

I know you said you understand already, but I owe you that explanation. As a brunette you might find it insulting for someone to choose their job over you, but that's what I have to do as a blond.