crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2010-02-22 05:43:00

open to Jacob
Things with Vaughn had been hectic and busy. Since the arrival of Coby, a little boy around Julian's age from another pack who's father had died, he'd seem to become a foster parent overnight. Coby's pack as tiny, and no one knew how to properly care for the little boy, so they'd contacted Loren since he'd been through their way a few times on his travels. Soon enough, after speaking with Hunter, Loren was on his way to bring Coby back with him. Vaughn looked a lot like Coby's father, and initially the boy had been upset and confused, but now he was attached at Vaughn's hip. It had been awkward for him at first, but he was getting use to it and had grown very attached to the little boy.

Not only had he been busy with Coby, but he'd been busy with work. He'd gotten a lot of his photographs sold to print companies, and a magazine he'd done some work for had called and wanted him to shoot their next cover. He was pretty exhausted, but happy to be feeling pretty much back to normal. His hair, which was a bit long and shaggy, he'd colored blond. Everett had liked it, he could tell, but he hadn't said a word because he was afraid if he did that Jacob would find out and hate the blond hair just because Ever loved it.

At the moment, Vaughn was busy editing some photos he'd taken with Coby as he sat curled up on his couch. He was usually at Everett's, but today he felt like staying in at his father's old house.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 08:54 pm UTC (link)

As Jacob's life settled into the routine of fatherhood, it grew separate from Everett and Vaughn. He knew how much time they spent together and he really just couldn't be a part of it. Instead, he was focusing on Kinley and their son. It wasn't as if he was going to tell either of them, or let on that that was what he was doing. For once in his life, he didn't feel like starting shit or making either of them unhappy. He just accepted that they were in this together. He had other things now, real things that were moving him forward and making him grow up.

But it had been awhile, and Jacob found himself at Vaughn's place, walking inside with a fair amount of entitlement. "Hello?" He knew he was there, but felt the need to greet him with a question rather than certainty.

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crucio
2010-02-22 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Vaughn sensed Jacob the second the wolf stepped on the porch, and he was all ready to his feet by the time Jacob was inside. He went over to the door and reached out to hook a finger into the beltloop of the other's jeans so that he could tug him in close and Vaughn could dip his head down to press a hungry kiss to Jacob's mouth. It wasn't the greeting he'd meant to give, but the second he'd caught Jacob's scent and had him in his sights, Vaughn just couldn't help himself. He'd been missing Jacob a lot lately, Everett too, and it was good to have Jacob close.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 10:31 pm UTC (link)

Jacob didn't pull back, accepting the kiss and returning it with proficiency. Vaughn always tasted good, felt good. He pressed his hands to either side of the other's face, enjoying the heat of his cheeks. When he finally leaned back, he smiled. "How is Coby?" He hadn't been able to spend much time with the little boy. "Seems like a surge of the younger generation lately. I was beginning to think Shane would be the only one having kids around here."

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crucio
2010-02-22 11:04 pm UTC (link)

Vaughn backed Jacob up against the wall and pressed a few kisses down along the other's jaw. He breathed in the familiar scent of the other, smiling at the faint hint of baby powder and even Kinley's shampoo. He wasn't jealous, he'd learned to accept things for how they were.

"I know, huh?" he mumbled softly. "Coby's doing all right. Still a little quiet, buy better than before."

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	impotentwaffle 2010-02-23 01:05 am UTC (link)
	He laughed a little as his back hit the wall. Sometimes, Jacob would battle for the upper hand, but he wasn't going to right now. He simply enjoyed the sensation of Vaughn kissing his jaw. "And Vance?" He inquired softly, seeming intent on chit chat. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2010-02-23 01:14 am UTC (link)
	"He's good, he's mostly with Pirate," Vaughn said as he nipped gently at the side of Jacob's throat before he pulled back. He took a hold of the other wolf's hands and led him over to the couch so that they could sit together. "How's Parker and Kinley?" he asked as he leaned in for another kiss. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-23 03:11 am UTC (link)

Jacob sunk comfortably into the couch and slipped his arm around Vaughn. He was very good at being casual and he was putting that to the test now. He tried to see Vaughn as something outside of himself. Something that felt good that he wouldn't deny. "They're fine. Kinley hasn't killed me yet, so I suppose we're doing all right." It was a small miracle that he was still alive.

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	crucio 2010-02-23 04:11 am UTC (link)
	Vaughn pulled back a little bit and rubbed at the side of his jaw a little bit. He hadn't shaved in the past few days, and it showed. With blonde hair, Felix had called him Kurt Cobain, but Vaughn didn't seem to mind. "Good," he said softly with a sigh, "It's been a while since I've seen you, I was starting to worry you forgot about me." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-23 04:45 am UTC (link)

"I'm never going to forget about you, no matter how mich I might try." He regarded him for a few moments. He'd noticed the hair but hadn't mentioned it. At the moment, he was gathering his thoughts about it. "What brought that on?" He asked instead of giving his opinion and reached out to tug a strand of the blond locks that contrasted so sharply with the scruff of his beardy shadow.

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	crucio 2010-02-23 04:55 am UTC (link)
	Vaughn smiled faintly and he offered a roll of his shoulders as Jacob tugged at a strand of his hair. Honestly, he wasn't sure what had made him think to get it. "Just a spur of the moment thing when I was away a few weeks ago," he answered, "Just a little change for a bit, I guess." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2010-02-23 05:31 am UTC (link)
	The tug turned into Jacob's hands slipping up through the yellow hair as he examined it some more. "And what if I said you should dye it back?" he tested with a raise of his brow. In truth, he thought it was nice, a vibrant change that made him look quite different. "Kissing you feels like cheating," he smirked at the preposterous notion. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2010-02-23 05:36 am UTC (link)
	"I'd say it'll go back when it goes back," he replied with a grin. He let his hands settle on Jacob's hips, and he gave the narrow curves a playful squeeze as he settled back against the couch. "You can pretend I'm Kurt Cobain if you want," he added with a smirk. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2010-02-24 12:04 am UTC (link)
	"That mumbling complainer? Would that make Everett Courtney Love?" The woman's outbursts and bad history were more akin to Jacob's past, but the moody bouts of depression were right up Ever's ally. Jacob put one leg over Vaughn's lap, sliding his calf between the man's knees so that he could hook their legs together. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2010-02-24 12:39 am UTC (link)

Vaughn laughed softly as he dipped his head over and nuzzled his face against Jacob's jaw. It was strange how comfortable they were with affection now, considering how emotionally unavailable they'd always been. Buy Vaughn was actually happy for once in his life, in all aspects of things, and it showed.

"I'm not sure," he said quietly. "Ever wants us to move in with him. He knows you have Parker and Kinley, but he wants you to know that you're wanted. Even if you can't or decide to stay with Kinley, we both want you to know you're wanted."

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-24 12:50 am UTC (link)

"Are you moving in with him? And you're carrying messages for him now?" Jacob unwound himself from Vaughn and quirked a brow. He'd thought it was a good idea for all three of them to live together, to really be together, but it wasn't possible for him now. He kept himself calm, casual, elbow resting against the back of the couch, cheek leaning against the palm of his hand as he looked at Vaughn.

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crucio
2010-02-24 12:58 am UTC (link)

"No, I'm not carrying messages for him," Vaughn said softly as he reached out to let his fingers sweep against Jacob's jaw. "It's just all I can think about now, I don't like being away from either of you. He doesn't like being away from either of us. I'd like to think you don't like being away, either," he added before he smiled softly. "It's nice to think of us all sharing one bed."

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-24 01:45 am UTC (link)

Jacob nodded silently, glancing away from the other man. It was a nice thought and he wished he could be in two places at once. It came down to the fact that his plate was full and not all of the food exactly went together. There was something comforting about sleeping in the same bed with Kinley and Parker when she let him.

"You're zen optimistic today," he said with a mild amount of fondness. "You'll move in together and I'll stay with Kinley. It's not ideal, I guess, but I don't see any other way." Not that Kinley was his second choice--that was exactly the problem.

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crucio
2010-02-24 01:59 am UTC (link)

It wasn't ideal, and it wasn't what Vaughn or Everett wanted, but they'd prepared themselves for Jacob's answer. They understood why things had to be the way they were, even if it wasn't what they wanted. It was important that Jacob do what he needed to do, and they respected that. Even if it kind of sucked.

Vaughn nodded his head a little and moved to pull Jacob towards him, more onto his lap, and he pressed a kiss to the other's mouth. He didn't want Jacob to feel like he was choosing.

"It's still our bed, and we want you in it whenever you can or want to be there," he said softly.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-24 02:10 am UTC (link)

He just shrugged, unable to say anything else about it. He knew this wasn't going to work, knew himself well enough to know that he wouldn't be able to handle the arrangement in the long run. As much as he'd grown over the years, he hadn't grown enough to be able to watch Vaughn and Everett live together without him. It wasn't like they were far away, but it was different. He was going to be a visitor. It was made even more difficult by the fact that he feared growing to resent his life with Kinley and Parker as the one that was chosen for him.

But at least he wasn't reacting angrily, lashing out at anyone, or running way to go get himself drunk and fuck around with even more people. Maybe it wasn't perfect growth, but it was better than before.

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crucio
2010-02-24 02:23 am UTC (link)

Vaughn shifted to lay down on the couch, and he wrapped his arms around Jacob's waist to keep him from getting up and leaving, because that was really what he was afraid the other wolf might do. He didn't want Jacob to go anywhere.

"We don't have to live together, we can just keep it the way it is," he said softly. Anything to keep Jacob from feeling like the odd man out, because he was anything but. "It doesn't feel right without you."

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	impotentwaffle 2010-02-24 03:29 am UTC (link)
	"No," Jacob said easily with a shake of his head. "It'll be easier to visit you if you're both in the same place." There were benefits, to be sure. Jacob was getting better about staying, and he smiled a little that Vaughn was so clearly trying to keep him there in anticipation of his typical flight response. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2010-02-24 03:49 am UTC (link)

Vaughn pressed his lips to one of Jacob's temples as they laid there together, and he let one of his hands drift up and down along Jacob's back. He liked having the other close, and he was happy that Jacob wasn't fighting him to walk away.

"I like to think of it as you coming home," he mumbled. "You know how parents who are divorcing tell their kids they'll have two homes? It's like that. We have to share you because we all love you so much."

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	impotentwaffle 2010-02-24 04:29 am UTC (link)
	"Do you know the rate of totally fucked up kids from divorced homes?" He smirked and shifted a little underneath Vaughn. "I'm not going to run," he reassured the man, angling his chin forward so that he could kiss Vaughn's neck. The man was handling Jacob's fears rather beautifully, but it still surprised him how much both of them had changed. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2010-02-24 04:38 am UTC (link)

There was a time when he and Jacob wouldn't say a word to eachother, and they'd just fuck and still not say a word. It was so much different to hold actual conversations, but Vaughn liked it. When Jacob kissed at his neck, Vaughn tipped his head to the side, offering more of his throat up to the other as a soft sigh escaped him.

"Usually we both run," he said quietly. "It's nice not to run."

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-24 04:45 am UTC (link)

Part of Jacob kind of missed the tumult of not talking, not being sane in the least. But he realized that most of the time he was just miserable and making everyone else miserable too. "What will you do if I decide that I'm jealous and I can't do it anymore?" Instead of holding it in, he let it out in the open. The admission made his heartrate pick up suddenly and he spoke the words against Vaughn's throat, terrified that they would actually be heard.