J'anna J'onzz (burningmartian) wrote in dc_nextgen,
@ 2011-06-19 16:34:00

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I didn't exactly get you a card...
J'anna didn't call ahead and it chewed at her as she made her way over to her father's residence. What if he was hanging out on Mars? What if he and her mom were, uh, busy? What if (and this was the big one) he was choosing to spend Father's Day with Jenn? It'd happened once before, a memory that was still too sharp to touch for long in remembering. She didn't call ahead because it gave her an out. If J'onn didn't know she was coming she still had a chance to bail out and that was what she most wanted to do. Everyone was on her to reach out--Tim, Cerdian, Ruth--but not reaching out was more comfortable. She'd said some awful things and meant them all. There was no taking them back, but she could just not do this. She could just go home, drink a pint of half-and-half, and drown her accumulated sorrows with a few dozen boxes of Chocos. But, by the time she worked up the nerve to flee...she was standing on J'onn J'onnz's doorstep.

"Damnit," she whispered before swallowing hard and knocking.

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	dc_parent 2011-06-19 09:26 pm UTC (link)
	As a standard precaution, J'onn rarely answered the door without doing a subtle telepathic check, just on the off chance it might be super-villains or Ivo robots or something like that. Fortunately, it was not. What it was, in fact, as a pleasant surprise. He opened the door. "J'anna?" he asked. "It is good to see you. Come in, my daughter." (Reply to this)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	"Um. Hi." She walked inside. "I hope I'm not interrupting anything." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	He shook his head. "No, not at all," he assured her. "May I get you anything? Chocos?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	"No, thank you. I ate a lot of Chocos earlier. My boyfriend owns stock." She fidgeted with the hem of her shirt. "So, um. How are you?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	"I am well," J'onn said. His eyes flickered. "A boyfriend?" he asked. "I do not recall you mentioning this before..." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	"With fairness, you never asked before. We haven't spoken much for some time." She frowned. "Tim Drake." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	He nods, both in recognition of the name and the situation. A man most worthy of her. "No, we have not," he said, sadly. "That is... my fault." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

burningmartian
2011-06-19 10:03 pm UTC (link)

J'anna literally had to bite her tongue to keep from agreeing with him. It was his fault. He'd thrown her away! Just passed her off to others and left. Had he any idea of what it was like for her the first time she really understood she was half-Martian? Or when she couldn't hold a stable form or figure out what she really looked like because she busy having some sort freakish alien puberty? She wanted to yell at him, but she'd done that already. Instead she just shook her head.

"I said some cold things."

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dc_parent
2011-06-19 10:13 pm UTC (link)

J'onn, it could be said, never properly recovered from the death of his wife and his first daughter. He had been so hurt by that, so scarred, that when he discovered he had a new daughter, perhaps he purposefully kept her at arms length, lest he grow too close, and feel the pain of losing her again.

And yet he had all the same.

"You did not mean them," he told her. "Not all of it."

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	burningmartian 2011-06-19 10:15 pm UTC (link)
	"Yeah, I actually did. That's what makes this weird and embarrassing. Look, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I came to apologize for it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	Another slow nod. "There is... little to apologize for," he said. "Precious little of your accusations were baseless. I deserved them all and more." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	"So anyway I'm sorry and I'll let you get back to...wha?" She hadn't expected that. "I'm sorry, did you just say you deserved them?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	"I did." J'onn let out a breath. "If anyone should be apologizing, J'anna, it is I. I have... not been the father I should." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	"Well." J'anna just looked at him with absolutely no idea of what to say. "I managed okay. I'm not a hooligan or anything." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 11:14 pm UTC (link)
	He allows himself a small smile. "You have turned out remarkably. A father could not be prouder." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	"Thanks." She nods. "I don't hate you. I just don't know you, you understand." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-19 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	"I do," he replied. "I would... like to change that." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-19 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	"...how?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-20 12:14 am UTC (link)
	"I do not believe it would be easy," J'onn began, "but I want to make up for the time we lost. To truly be the father I was not. I will... understand, if you do not wish this." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-21 07:11 am UTC (link)
	"I'm just kind of surprised right now. And...I'm scared." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-21 10:31 pm UTC (link)
	"This is... uncharted sands for me as well, J'anna. But they are sands I wish to sail." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-22 08:46 am UTC (link)
	"So how do we even do this? I know next to nothing about being Martian." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	dc_parent 2011-06-22 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	"That, I can help with. But first... I am certain your mother would like to see you." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	burningmartian 2011-06-24 11:22 pm UTC (link)
	"That's...yeah, you're probably right about that. I haven't really seen her much." (Reply to this)(Parent)

	burningmartian 2011-07-05 10:51 pm UTC (link)
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