scorpius malfoy (scorpi) wrote in paddedrooms,
@ 2013-01-03 14:46:00

Scorpius left Rex's flat feeling pretty stable. He got into a cab and then made the mistake of checking his phone, of seeing all the texts from Albus and watching the video of him singing, and had fallen apart again and terrified the cab driver. Scorpius stopped at his dads' place to change clothes and then got another ride to the coffee shop where they were supposed to meet, careful to avoid his parents or Martin or his sisters, who would probably have seen the article about him and Rex.

He still felt shakey and he wasn't at all sure what was going to come of him and Albus meeting, now that Albus knew everything. He could text that he loved Scorpius all he wanted, but to Scorpius it was hard to believe he didn't mean as a friend. He needed that wall of protection up or hope would creep in and destroy him. He found Albus sitting with two coffees and slid into the seat across from him, wrapping his arms around himself and sort of wishing he had Cepheus there for added protection. "Hey."

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alboos
2013-01-03 09:03 pm UTC (link)

Albus felt awful. He hadn't been able to sleep or eat since discovering the truth about what was going on between he and Scorpius. There had always been a little tingle of want for Scorpius in the back of his mind, but he'd had no idea that the other boy wanted him back.

It had taken him a couple of years to even stop feeling it. And then it was back. Even if Albus knew he loved Kit as well, this was Scorpius. His Scorpius. He stared back at him when he sat across from him, a little frozen and unsure of what to say. All he could do was stare and tear up.

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scorpi
2013-01-03 09:11 pm UTC (link)

Scorpius hated, really hated, watching Albus start to cry. He looked down at his hands, throat tight. He wasn't sure what to say either. How to make things feel all right again. How things were going to change.

There were things to establish first, and talking about this would hurt, but there didn't seem to be a way for either of them to get out of this conversation without crying at least once. "How did you trip go?" he asked, voice soft. "Was it... were you okay?"

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alboos
2013-01-03 09:17 pm UTC (link)

Albus looked down at his cup and shook his head. "I'm alright." He told him quietly, not meeting his gaze. "I only went because I thought that after two years, finding out someone cheated on you via text message was probably a dick move."

His voice was strained. "So I came home. Got beat up by Xavier because of Cepheus sleeping with my brother. Still bruised." He turned his face. "And I've been sitting in the flat ever since."

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scorpi
2013-01-03 09:39 pm UTC (link)

Scorpius frowned, reaching out and touching Albus's cheek, just beside the bruise. "You -- I can't believe Xavier did that to you," he said, fingers brushing over it as gently as possible.

He pulled back after a moment, putting his hand back in his lap. "Sorry," Scorpius said, running a hand through his hair. "I'm glad you're okay. I guess you saw the article, then."

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	alboos 2013-01-03 09:42 pm UTC (link)
	"Yeah. I saw the article." Albus's voice nearly cracked from admitting it. It hurt to think that Scorpius had gotten over him so quickly. That he could go out and sleep with a porn star and forget him. "I..." His eyes met Scorpius's. "I suppose I'm too late." He told him quietly. "You don't want me now. And I understand why. I'm sorry that I was so blind." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

scorpi
2013-01-03 09:55 pm UTC (link)

Scorpius gave Albus a hurt look. "Do you really think it's that easy?" he asked. "I've been in love with you since we were thirteen. If it were that easy I would have made myself get over you... just... years ago. I am so in love with you, Albus."

He squeezed his eyes shut as he started to tear up, pressing the heels of his hands against them to try and calm himself down. "You -- it's not your fault. I know I didn't say anything. I thought -- I mean, we snogged and then you left and I kept thinking about it. Thinking about you. But you never brought it up again so I told myself it would be okay and we could just be friends." Scorpius lowered his hands, looking at Albus again. "Cepheus found out and he kept teasing me and telling me I should ask you out, so I had these big plans to take you to see West Side Story and then tell you I loved you, but then you told me you liked Kit. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I just... I just decided to spend two years watching you be happy with someone else."

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alboos
2013-01-03 10:02 pm UTC (link)

Albus shook his head. "I liked you when we were thirteen. I wanted you and I only stopped what we were doing because I was afraid you didn't want me too. And I didn't want to mess up our friendship by falling for you and not being able to have you. I'm not good enough for you. James told me that for years."

He rubbed at his temples for a moment. "I pushed my feelings away when you told me to date Kit. I did like him. But, I wanted you. I just... I didn't know how to tell you that. And when you told me to date him, I felt like that was the confirmation that I needed. That you didn't want me too."

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scorpi
2013-01-03 10:08 pm UTC (link)

"We're both idiots," Scorpius said, looking up at Albus. "And James is worth that either of us if he really thinks you're the one who's not good enough. You are so perfect, Albus. You're talented and smart and handsome and all I've ever wanted is for you to be happy, even if you weren't happy with me."

He squeezed his hands together in his lap. "I know I... I probably messed everything up. I slept with someone else and I -- I should have waited. I just hurt so bad, thinking it didn't matter to you. That I was just a mistake. But I love you, Albus. I want to love you. If you'll let me."

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	alboos 2013-01-03 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	Albus looked back at Scorpius. Was he giving him another chance? A chance to actually be his boyfriend. A small smile broke out from behind the tears and his chest tightened in hope that Scorpius really wanted that. He looked at him for a moment, then leaned over the table and brought their lips together. He touched his cheek, eyes slipping shut. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

scorpi
2013-01-03 10:17 pm UTC (link)

Scorpius made a surprised, eager sound against Albus's mouth, leaning in and deepening the kiss. His hand cupped the back of Albus's neck and he smiled against the other boy's lips, feeling like an incredible weight had been lifted from his chest.

"I love you," he whispered, pulling back just a little. He kissed the bruise on Albus's cheek, fingers playing with the hair on the nape of his neck. "I promise I won't be stupid this time. Albus Potter, will you be my boyfriend?"

	alboos 2013-01-03 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	Albus looked down at the menus and then held the phone out to Scorpius. "You order whatever you want. You know what I'll eat and what I won't." He told him, then sat down on the couch. "I just thought you wanted to do something different." Albus told him. "You used to talk about wanting to be a doctor." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 12:08 am UTC (link)
	"Cepheus never wanted to go, though." Albus told him as he pressed close to Scorpius's side, wrapping an arm around him. He kissed him softly, lips trailing down his neck. "He's never been interested." He sighed. "I just worry about you. That's all. Have you ever thought about what you like to do?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 12:22 am UTC (link)
	"A coffee shop?" Albus asked as he leaned into the petting, shaking his head. "You can't work in a coffee shop. You are definitely too good for that." He kissed him softly, pressing him back against the couch. He crawled on top of him, looking down at him. "You have to think bigger." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 12:46 am UTC (link)
	"God. I'd pay you to keep touching me like that." Albus told him quietly, then pressed their hips together. He smiled at him, then kissed down his neck. "I don't know what you could do. But, I don't think you should be a barista." He looked down at him. "You could buy a coffee shop." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	scorpi 2013-01-04 02:15 am UTC (link)
	Scorpius let out a whimpered, eyes drifting shut for a moment. "That -- okay," he agreed, breathless. He smiled at Albus, pushing into his hand. "I think I can handle coming for you." He leaned in and kissed Albus again, resting a hand on the back of his neck. "I don't think it'll take you long," Scorpius warned. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 02:21 am UTC (link)
	Albus grinned at that. "I'll make sure of it." He promised, then nipped at Scorpius's bottom lip. He leaned lower and looked at his cock, then took it into his mouth, sucking at him slowly. His tongue swirled around the base and he hummed, beginning to bob his head. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Albus was doing his best to make Scorpius come. He took him all the way into his mouth, sucking at him hard as he bobbed his head, hand moving up and down Scorpius's thigh. He needed him to come. So he would know how much he needed him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	scorpi 2013-01-04 04:24 am UTC (link)
	Scorpius couldn't take it much longer. He was crying out, hips jerking into Albus's mouth a little as his hand tightened on the other boy's hair. Today had turned into a really good day. "Fuck, you're going to have to teach me how to do that for you," Scorpius said, trying to catch his breath. "You're brilliant." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	alboos 2013-01-04 06:31 am UTC (link)
	"You spent the night with a porn star and you didn't learn? I'm disappointed." Albus smirked at Scorpius and then kissed him deeply. He ran his fingers through his hair and pulled back. "We should eat." He told him. "You're going to need your strength." (Reply to this)(Parent)