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Cepheus Malfoy ([info]pheus) wrote in [info]paddedrooms,
@ 2013-02-12 23:18:00


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Cepheus could not stop crying. He didn't think anything had ever hurt this bad. There had been a mention in a paper that James may be transferred to an American team to play. Which meant he'd be leaving. He'd be leaving and Cepheus wouldn't be going with him. It was one more way for them to not be together and Cepheus felt like James wanted it to be that way. If he was willing to move, to leave, he didn't want him.

He closed his eyes as he showed up at Xavier's flat, knocking on the door, his hands shaking. Xavier was the only friend he had when Scorpius was busy like he'd been.

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 02:11 am UTC (link)
Xavier wasn't expecting the visit from Cepheus. He opened his door and frowned at the other boy for a moment. "Phe? You -- what's wrong?" Cepheus was definitely trembling and definitely way too upset for him to not invite in, even if Caspar probably wouldn't like it much. "Come here."

He wrapped his arms around the other boy, pulling him close and shutting thed door. "Did something happen? What happened? What can I do?"

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 02:54 am UTC (link)
Cepheus leaned into Xavier and closed his eyes. "I'm sorry. You're my only friend and I didn't know who else I could talk to. I'm sorry. I don't want to get you into trouble." He told him, then looked up at Xavier with big, teary grey eyes.

"James promised he'd never leave me. He said he'd always be there." Cepheus whispered. "And now he's leaving."

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 02:59 am UTC (link)
"Don't apologise, Cepheus. You can talk to me about whatever you want," Xavier promised, pulling Cepheus close to his chest and helping him into the flat. He couldn't resist Cepheus's big eyes even when he wasn't crying. "You're not getting me into trouble, I promise."

He walked Cepheus over to the couch, taking a seat with him. "He didn't ask you to go with him?" Xavier pet at Cepheus's hair. "What did he say when he told you he was going?"

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 03:53 am UTC (link)
"Tell me?" It hadn't even ocurred to Cepheus that James should have asked him. He shook his head and wiped at his eyes. "He didn't say anything to me about it. I had to read it on a news site about him going to play on another team in America."

He took a deep breath, tears slipping down his cheek. "I love him." He told Xavier, shaking his head. "He broke my heart by sleeping with my brother, so I left. But, he kept talking about how much he wanted me back. Sent me all these presents. And when I was there and we were making love, he said he'd never leave me. And now he is. And he didn't even tell me about it. He had to have known."

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 04:02 am UTC (link)
Xavier was not sure what to say to Cepheus. He'd known Cepheus fancied James when they had goodbye sex, but he hadn't known it was so serious between them. He touched Cepheus's shoulder. "If you love him, then you need to talk to him, Cepheus."

He kissed the other boy's forehead. "Look, I'm not sure I trust him completely. I know I'm the last person who can criticize, but he did cheat on you. But if he's really been saying that kind of thing to you, then you should go speak to him. Maybe it's not true. Maybe it's just a rumour."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 04:11 am UTC (link)
"I do feel that way about him. I just..." Cepheus shook his head and closed his eyes. "I don't want to deal with him right now. I don't think I can face him and not break into a thousand little pieces."

He ran a hand through his hair and pulled back from Xavier so he didn't kiss him. "I just want to be happy. Just once." He told him quietly. "I deserve to be happy at least once."

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 04:15 am UTC (link)
"Of course you do," Xavier agreed, sighing and letting Cepheus pull away. "If you think you stand a shot at being happy with James, you need to go to him. Forget about all the other feelings. You have to go after what you want."

He reached out, ruffling Cepheus's hair. "I want you to be happy, Phe. Don't just sit around waiting for it to happen to you. Go out and take it. You're gorgeous and smart and funny. You deserve it."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 04:58 am UTC (link)
"I want to go after what I want. I really do." Cepheus told him, shaking his head. "I'm just... I don't want to be hurt again. I'm avoiding being hurt right now."

He brought his knees up beneath his chin and grumbled. "What if he's just been playing me this entire time?"

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 05:04 am UTC (link)
"Even the worst person in the world wouldn't say some of the shit James has said to you when they were playing someone, Cepheus," Xavier said, shaking his head. "Look, did he tell you this stuff during sex? After?"

Xavier reached over, rubbing Cepheus's back since he'd become a ball of sad on his couch. "If he told you during or after sex, it was probably the truth. Before... maybe some guys say stuff so that they can get laid. And if he makes it always turn into sex instead of just hanging out and kissing sometimes. That could be a sign. That's the best advice I can give you."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 05:07 am UTC (link)
"He tells me it all the time." Cepheus told Xavier quietly, looking up at Xavier. He sighed heavily to himself, still feeling stupid, even if Xavier had given him some reassurance.

"I just... Okay." Cepheus nodded, standing up. "I'll go talk to him. See if he's really leaving. Try not to break down."

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[info]xav
2013-02-13 05:12 am UTC (link)
"Hey." Xavier reached out, taking Cepheus's hand in his own and squeezing it gently. "I know things have been shitty for you lately and I was a big part of that, but if things with James don't work out, don't let it destroy you."

He leaned out, kissing Cepheus softly before pulling back. "You are great, Phe. You're a catch. If James Potter can't see that, then fuck him. You're going to find someone who makes you feel better than he ever could. You're going to find someone who really appreciates you and loves you and doesn't fuck around with your heart because you've put up with a lot of bullshit and that's what you deserve."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 05:23 am UTC (link)
Cepheus gave Xavier a small smile, then reached up and touched his hair. Xavier had never gotten mad when he touched it. He kissed his cheek and pulled back. "Thank you."

***

Cepheus was standing outside of James's flat, fidgeting with his fingers. He didn't want to go in and yell at him, but then again, he did. He took a deep breath and rang the buzzer.

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 05:29 am UTC (link)
James had been waiting since he'd leaked the fake news story about him being traded. He'd made biscuits and a cheesecake and roasted a chicken for dinner. Everything was all set. He just needed Cepheus to come in and yell at him or at least... ask him about it. He was putting the large amount of time it was taking Cepheus to show up at his house down to him not seeing the story yet, because of course he'd come right over and freak out, right?

When the buzzer rang, James took a moment to gather himself, then walked to the door and pulled it open, smiling at Cepheus. "Hey."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 05:38 am UTC (link)
And his plans were failing. The smile of James's face made him burst into tears again, but he was angry enough that he was able to look at him. He shook his head, feeling sick to his stomach.

"How could you do this to me?" Cepheus asked, starting to visibly shake again. "After everything? You promised me you'd never leave me. Everyone always leaves me or wants something else. I'm just..." He shook his head and turned away, starting down the hallway again.

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 05:44 am UTC (link)
"I --" This wasn't how it was supposed to go. James just felt guilty now. He chased Cepheus down the hall and pushed him against the wall. "No," he said. "You're not going anywhere. I'm not going anywhere."

James leaned down, kissing Cepheus deeply, trying to comfort him. "I'll never leave you. I don't want anything else," he whispered. "Nobody is sending me anywhere. I'm not being traded. Even if I was, I'd ask you to come with me. I'd kidnap you if I had to."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 05:49 am UTC (link)
Cepheus looked up at James. He didn't understand what was going on. He frowned for a moment as he looked back up at him, squirming beneath him a bit. What was he saying?

"You-" He shook his head. "The papers said you're moving to America." He told him quietly. "Is it not true? Why would they say it?"

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 05:55 am UTC (link)
"It's not true," James said firmly, pulling back a bit since Cepheus was squirming. Now he felt like he was maybe going to get in trouble. "I... may have said something to them, but I was never being traded."

He gave Cepheus a slightly guilty look. "I thought you'd just get mad at me. Al thought you'd come over and give me a big lecture so I had this whole dinner planned out. I baked a cheesecake for us."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 05:59 am UTC (link)
Cepheus stared up at James. He wanted to punch him in the face for what he'd done. He looked away from him and closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face. James had done this to scare him. To hurt him.

"How could you do this?" Cepheus asked him quietly, trying not to cry too hard. "How am I supposed to trust you after this? You thought it was a good idea to tell me you'd never leave me and that you loved me, then make up a story about how you were going to leave me? I spent all day crying. I only came here because Xavier convinced me it was a good idea."

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 06:11 am UTC (link)
"I -- Fuck, Cepheus I hadn't connected those things," James said, shaking his head and reaching out to grab his hand away. "You can punch me. You can hit me all you want. I just wanted to see you again. I made the whole stupid plan up before you came over. I just wanted to make you come up here so I could show you that I loved you."

He wiped at the tears on Cepheus's face, leaning in and trying to kiss them away. "I do love you. I won't ever leave you. I just want us to be together. I just want to be happy with you, Phe. I want to make you happy. I'm so sorry."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 06:30 am UTC (link)
Cepheus looked up at James. "I hate you." He told him, shaking his head. "I hate you and love you. I want to strangle you and kiss you almost all the time and I just... God. I hate you."

He slapped James hard across the face, then leaned in and kissed him deeply, wrapping his arms around his neck. "Marry me."

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 06:37 am UTC (link)
James's face was still stinging from the slap when Cepheus wrapped his arms around his neck and then they were kissing and then Cepheus was asking him to marry him. James stared at Cepheus for a long moment, speechless, and then found himself nodding.

"Yes," he said, picking Cepheus up and kissing him again as he carried him towards their flat. "I love you. Even when you hate me, I love you. I want to hang your fairy lights in my room and take showers together and show you off all the fucking time. I want to eat your bad cooking and introduce you to my entire family tree."

He kicked the door shut behind himself and set Cepheus down on the kitchen counter. "You're serious? You want to marry me even though I'm a twat?" he asked, just to be sure.

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 06:43 am UTC (link)
Cepheus pressed close to James when he was sat on the counter and nodded. "Yes. I want to marry you. I never want you to even pretend like you're leaving me again. Because we'll be married and you won't be able to get away from me."

He kissed him again, running his fingers through James's hair. "Because I love you. And I hate you. And I want to feed you my bad coking and hang all my fairy lights in your room and meet everyone on your family tree." He bit at his neck. "And have your babies. Which is difficult, but still wanted."

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 06:48 am UTC (link)
"I don't ever want to get away from you," James promised, burying his hand in Cepheus's hair. "I want you to have my babies. We'll fuck so much they'll find a way to come into the world anyway. God, I want to have babies with you."

He kissed Cepheus again. "You'll design us the best fucking place ever to live and I'll take you on all my road trips. How long do we have to wait to get married? I want to do it right now. I made chicken and cheesecake. We have everything we need for a wedding."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 06:52 am UTC (link)
Cepheus laughed at that and ruffled his fingers through James's hair, then kissed him deeply for a long moment. "I fear your grandmother may get very angry if we don't throw a proper wedding for us. We'll have to do the whole big thing of it."

He kissed James again. "You should call her and tell her. And then we'll eat dinner after I text Scorpius."

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 06:57 am UTC (link)
"Good point," James said, laughing against Cepheus's lips. "Okay. We won't get married right now. We'll have a real wedding. I want to give you a real wedding anyway. Something nice."

He kissed Cepheus one last time, then picked him up again, walking over to the phone. "I don't want to let you go. You text Scorpius while I call Grandma and we'll just keep close while we do it."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 07:01 am UTC (link)
Cepheus laughed as he was carried around, but slipped out of James's arms. "I'm not a toddler. I'm almost as tall as you." He told him, then kissed him again as he pulled out his own phone, sending his brother a text.

"My parents are going to think I'm mental." He told him, waiting to see if he could hear Molly when she picked up.

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 07:11 am UTC (link)
"I like carrying you," James said, grinning at Cepheus and watching him send his text. "Mine are going to think you're mental too, wanting to marry me."

He picked up the phone, leaning over to steal another kiss as he called his grandmother's number. James pulled back when she answered. "Grandmum? It's James," he said. "I have news about me and Cepheus. We're back together again and... we're getting married."

Molly had not been expecting marriage. She stared at the old clock in her kitchen for a long moment, then let out a joyful sound, clapping her hands together. "Married!" she repeated. "I knew I liked him. Such a sweet boy. You be good to him, Jamie."

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[info]pheus
2013-02-13 07:14 am UTC (link)
Cepheus could hear her and he let out a laugh when she squealed. He was happy that she wasn't yelling and complaining that James could do better than him. He smiled up at James and kissed his cheek. He couldn't believe this was happening.

But, it made him more happy than he could ever remember feeling. "I love you." He whispered, then pulled back to text everyone.

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[info]siriuslyjames
2013-02-13 07:47 am UTC (link)
James grinned at Cepheus, listening to his grandmother tell him how happy she was, and waved a hand at him when he pulled back. "Don't text Al yet," he said. "I want to be the one who tells him. No, I'm listening, Grandmum. Pha is just texting people to let them know."

He grinned to himself, feeling very warm and fuzzy about everything that was happening to them. "I should tell Mum and Dad, Grandmum. I'll talk to you about the details soon, okay? Once we figure everything out. Love you." He hung up and then wrapped his arms around Cepheus, kissing at his neck. "Mine, mine, mine."

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