LJ-SEC: (ORIGINALLY POSTED BY inthefreakdom)

Dear Curtis,

I miss you so much at times it hurts. I was willing to give up everything for you. I very nearly did give up everything for you. I don't understand why you left without a word, but then I don't really believe that you'd do that to me.

Jasper, maybe. I opened my heart to trust again and it turns out he was just passing time. But you, you were different Curtis. You had my heart and you gave me yours.

I still feel it, sometimes late at night, lying in bed with some stranger who's paid me to make them feel whole again. I can feel your arms around me, your heart beating so close to my chest that I wake up with tears on my skin. I don't think you would do this to me and I fear that something horrible happened.

Just like your brother David who disappeared to never return. I'm so terrified that you'll never come back to me. I can't even send this; I wouldn't know where. I just need you to know that there's a hole in my life where you used to fit and no one else will be able to fill it.

Yours, if you ever return,

Janeane

LJ-SEC: (ORIGINALLY POSTED BY inthefreakdom)

Dear Harper,

I feel, like maybe for the first time in my life, like I'm getting my shit together. I'm not terrified by the night so much anymore, not when Gray is holding me. PMHF has grown on me and there are some patients there that I can really help. The only thing that's missing is my old pal Harper. I feel like I never get to see you anymore, what with work and blah, blah, blah.

I wonder if this is what it feels like to grow old. Or maybe just finally accept life as it unfolds.

Miss you like crazy,

XOXO,

Angel

PS- Tell Jon I miss him too!

LJ-SEC: (ORIGINALLY POSTED BY inthefreakdom)

Who: Jane Carter, Jack Swann
When: Saturday, July 18th
Where: Pleasantview, Jack's basement apartment
What: Jane comes home and finds Jack in his worst depression yet
Bingo: Life's a Bitch


Jane had finally come home for the summer. She spent the last month in her dorm room, working the terrible job she had in the city. It was probably about time she put in a little time in Pleasantview anyway. She'd spend the rest of the summer hanging around Jack, maybe volunteering some of her time in the kitchen at PMHF.

What she didn't know was that her best friend Jack had been neglecting work and himself. He hadn't left his mother's basement in three days, had barely been able to drag himself to work for two weeks now and had pretty much given up these past few days. By the time she arrived at Jack's bedroom door she had determined that he was in the same pajamas he'd been in three days prior and had been eating cereal by the fistful out of a box, jammed on the couch and watching infomercials all night long until he passed out.

( She could practically smell him from the other side of the door, the hum of the tv was clearly audible. )

LJ-SEC: (ORIGINALLY POSTED BY agent_anarchy)

Couldn't sleep. Felt industrious.

Updated the off-site archives to include our brief stint on Insane Journal.

I didn't actually sort out what was what, it all just got tacked onto the end of the subverted portion of the archives, but it's done for now. So yay!

LJ-SEC: (ORIGINALLY POSTED BY inthefreakdom)

Who: Gray Stone, Evangeline Rothschild
When: Saturday, July 18th
Where: Pleasantview, Gray's house
What: A typical Saturday morning conversation takes an unexpected turn
Bingo: Favorite theorist/philosopher


Gray knew things about Evangeline that even Harper Grace didn't know. He knew her guilty pleasure was watching All My Children while eating Ben & Jerry's straight from the carton. She only ever got to watch it on her Friday's off; she said it was best that way, the week's storylines were all exposed on Friday and they had the best cliffhangers.

He knew that Angel washed her pantyhose in the sink and hung them over the shower rod to dry if she had an important meeting the next day. Otherwise she'd just toss them in a special bag and wash them with the normal laundry. He insisted that it didn't take that long to wash in the bag if she knew the night before, but Angel always explained that with her luck they'd all run in the washer and she'd be hosiery-less.

( One of Gray's favorite little secrets about Angel was her favorite philosopher. )