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g r a c i e l a ([info]aheavenlycause) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2008-03-31 20:55:00


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Entry tags:alexandrakis smith, graciela pennifold

Alexandrakis!
The rubber of the gloves she had to wear to touch her son---it was the most painful thing Graciela had ever felt. He looked so small, and it was so completely mind-blowing that just earlier this week they'd been cooing about how big he was getting. Such a big boy! He could almost roll over, he was just about getting there, and then one night he had just...he had just started crying, and crying. At first Graciela had treated it like a normal night, trying to feed him, coddle him, sing to him---after nearly two hours, it was obvious that it was something more. His fever hadn't been that bad, but---deus, if she had just taken his temperature earlier, maybe the healers could have stopped it, or---or maybe the milk wasn't at the right temperature, or it could have been...it could have been...

Her chin slipped from her hand and the sudden movement jolted her awake. Graciela was sure neither she or Alex had slept since coming to the hospital, and her eyes wearily looked around the small room they'd warded off for Zacharias--they didn't want to put him with the other patients with the same symptoms, but they couldn't have him in the nursery. She was sure Santiago had lent a big hand in giving them privacy, but it was still daunting to have all the large room for such a tiny person.

She pouted lightly when she finally caught Alex's eye, the gloved hand inside the...what was the word, she supposed it was an incubator of sorts...her fingers gently brushed along Zac's arm, and the lack of actually feeling his skin made her chest ache.

"When are they supposed to be back? The healers?" She couldn't remember if it had been five minutes or five hours since they'd last poked and prodded her son, it seemed like they'd been there a millennium.



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[info]alexandrakis
2008-04-03 12:25 am UTC (link)
The tentative, uncertain carriage of his body relaxed itself the instant she responded to his hold. She was admitting now, too, what the real reason for her tears were, and that relaxed him too, because now he could relate, he could--fuck, well, he didn't want to cry with her and he had to force away the stinging in his eyes and tell himself that he was going to be there and not upset her more, but... he related.

And she was talking about what was going on, a far cry from the idle, sparse conversation they had been having throughout the rest of their time in this room, and somehow that made him feel a little better. It shouldn't, talking about the way that their son was laying there all fragile and sick and on the edge of death, but it did. Somehow, that was so much better than avoiding it, and now Alex, for the first time in several hours, brought his head down to gaze upon Zacharias.

He locked his eyes upon the baby over the crown of Graciela's head and watched his chest shakily rise and fall and wondered what he had been so afraid of. Seeing him alive was much better than staring at the ceiling and imagining him dead.

"You didn't do anything wrong," he spoke, eyes still on Zac even as he tried to console Gracie. "Neither of us did anything wrong. There was nothing we could have done to stop the fever, that's that Santiago and the other healers said, and---we brought him in, didn't we? Instead of trying to just let it pass for a couple days? Don't feel like it's your fault, I bet you Zac doesn't blame you."

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[info]aheavenlycause
2008-04-03 08:22 pm UTC (link)
He struck a chord; Graciela's chest tightened as Alex told her that Zac didn't blame her. She didn't know what caused her to suddenly believe his words when she was condemning herself to hell just a few moments before, but Alex was Zacharias' father, he would know. At least, that's how it felt, and she somehow managed to hug her husband even tighter than she had been before. Ay, yes, she was already feeling much better now that he was beside her and not so far away, how had she allowed him to be out of her reach for so long?

Graciela shut her eyes and pressed her forehead to Alex's chest, trying to calm her breaths and relax some. It couldn't do any good to create a tension filled room, sim? That if the mood around Zac was better, then maybe he could feel the good feelings vibrating off of them and...well, yes, that made sense---if she started to believe that he'd be okay, and hope and pray...okay, it was coming back, see---only a very short, insignificant lapse in faith, perdoname deus--

"Do you think he is going to be okay?"

She whispered it softly, not pulling back, but her eyes opened as she awaited his answer. If Alex didn't believe Zacharias would make it, Graciela prayed that he would lie to her and tell her that he would. She hoped that he lied to her until the last possible moment, because then she could truly find it in herself to keep up the faith in her infant son.

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