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s f м ([info]mullets) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2014-05-04 22:35:00


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Entry tags:howell williams, saoirse mullet

Another long day, another sleepless night on holiday.

Exhausted, Saoirse rested her chin between her knees, hugging her own legs close to her chest while slowly lighting the couple of small candles on the table before her. It was late, and this impromptu holiday spearheaded by Penelope was coming to a close, but she felt no different than prior to their grand departure two days earlier.

No in fact, Saoirse thought darkly as she coiled to the back of the chair, she indeed felt different; she felt worse. No closer to making any resemblance of a certain important decision, and actually, even less equipped to do so five days ago. Because upon arrival to this beautiful home, she had discovered many unfortunate twists of fate, the two most significant being that this almost-palace belonged to Oliver Comstock, a wizard that seemed determined to confound her at every turn, and that Howell was here.

How white she had turned upon seeing her estranged inamorato there was no way to tell, but Nona had quite helpfully commented if Saoirse so desired, she would have surely encountered no problem fooling a Venetian ghost of her current undead status.

After that, Saoirse had done her very best to stay busy and away from the house at all costs, but even wizards and witches driven to continue sight-seeing and walking nonstop needed to sleep. So, for the third time in a row, Saoirse found herself restless and unable to do much else than wait for the sun to rise into a new day in the downstairs living room as everyone else she knew slept peacefully in the floors above.

She had been doing a marvelous job at staring blankly at the pile of contracts that either needed to be signed or ripped up within the next twenty-four hours when a soft creak of a door from the other side of the room caught her ears, and she looked up guiltily at the room's new occupant. There were so many faces residing within these walls it seemed, she had lost track at this but, but her luck would have no such strength here.

Brow burrowing and the hair on the back of her neck springing up, Saoirse watched as Howell, candle in hand, stopped gliding across the room upon seeing who it was that occupied the lone couch near the window. She swallowed, and blinked quickly, wishing very much that she could think of anything to say at all. When nothing came to her and the growing silence began to be too much to bear, Saoirse, without much thought or notice, suddenly asked, "Will you help me?"



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[info]mullets
2014-05-30 12:08 am UTC (link)
Her shoulders sagged, and Saoirse felt her heart warp within itself. Howell thought she should trust her instincts? Well, that was poor advice. Relying on her instincts had gotten her here, desperate, confused, and alone. Which, she supposed, was what left her feeling so overwhelmed and unprepared about what to do.

Why was this so difficult? Why did everything, now, feel like she was uselessly combing through an endless swamp full of knee-deep mud? Where was the magic solution, magic always had an easy solution!

The hair on the back of her neck and her arms stood on end as Howell fidgeted in his seat beside her. His weight, a hair's breath away, set her senses alive as it always did. But instead of being able to touch his face, brush her fingers through his hair and kiss his skin, Saoirse kept her hands clutched tightly to her own knees where they belonged. A deep sadness filled her, and against her better self control, tears began to prickle her eyes.

Not wanting him to see her tears (for he was most certainly no longer obligated to endure that), Saoirse quickly sought to evacuate herself from the room completely. The house was big, she was sure there would be another unoccupied room fit to house her pathetic self for one more night. Standing up suddenly, she kept her head down and gaze averted.

"Thank you," Saoirse managed, blindly collecting anything before her within arm's reach. Undoubtedly some parchments and select things would get left behind, but at this point she couldn't care less about anything, really, except distancing herself from this excruciating feeling.

"That is very thoughtful advice. I should go now." Clutching whatever she had grabbed close to her chest, in a subtle motion while she turned away to retreat from him, she pushed her palm toward her eye to brush away any water threatening to turn into tears.

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[info]howl
2014-06-13 08:08 pm UTC (link)
Were those… Was she crying?

Howell's brow crinkled as he tried to remember everything he had just said. Surely it wasn't because he hadn't explicitly said whether or not he wanted her on the Falcons? Hopefully… very likely, even, her tears had nothing to do with him… right? Perhaps she just found the whole process too overwhelming.

He cursed to himself.

Once again, he was faced with the uncomfortable task of trying to parse of how much, if at all, this was about him. As well-versed in reading saoirse as Howell thought he had gotten to be, he often had no idea if her reactions were caused by him or not, which had gotten him into hot water on more than one occasion.

For a moment, he thought about letting her walk away, tears or not. It wasn't his place any more, it wasn't his responsibility. Saoirse had made that clear enough on the night they ceased to be.

But Howell could never reason himself into being that kind of person, not when the girl he still loved so dearly felt so much pain.

"Wait," he began, standing up and letting the papers she had failed to collect from him fall from his lap heedlessly. "Saoirse, why are you—"

He hurried after her, before she could leave the room, and asked, "What's wrong?"

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[info]mullets
2014-06-16 12:43 am UTC (link)
She clutched her contracts and things tightly in hopes that her solid grip would help ease the painful drop her stomach made at the sound of his voice. As her hair stood up on all ends, she wanted to stop. Stop time, stop her heart, stop all these feelings that made her feel suffocated, stop this trajectory it felt like her life was spinning out of control on...

Saoirse turned quickly to face Howell, surprised only momentarily by how near to her he actually was. His closeness did not deter her angry face, however, and she frowned deeply at him. Did he really have no idea? Was he really so oblivious to the effect he had on her? How was this not difficult for him? She thought of him everyday, wished for him everyday, felt a great chasm in her life due to his absence everyday, and he wanted to know what was wrong?! Her hands turned into fists, crinkling the parchments within them but she paid that no mind.

The word 'You!' had been at the tip of her tongue, ready to be struck out in a wave of tired anguish, followed by all the reasons why he made her life difficult. Some were extensive (he had made her feel again) while the others not so much (she supposed nicking things that belonged to other people was bad). But, as so many times before, the presence of his soft face lulled Saoirse into a completely different set of actions that she rather had little control over.

Dropping her belongings to the ground, Saoirse stared at Howell for a beat in silence before reaching for his front. Grabbing his collar, and grabbling for the side of his neck, she quickly, in a very rushed manner close to how they had first met, kissed him. She closed her eyes to stop any further tears from falling and hoped that, if anything, this would help him understand what was wrong.

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