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[Apr. 7th, 2008|06:02 pm] |
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Saturday night was a good night from what I remember... Jess & her friend Devin came over and we started watching Dan in Real Life & drinking some wine. Then my love came home with Big Mike, with some Absinthe. That was my first time to try it. Jess was right it did taste like licorice. Will & his woman came over and I don't think anyone really enjoyed them being over. Hah. And actually I don't remember much after that. But apparently I woke up at 6am when my alarm went off for work & threw up all in the bed. So, Hunter called in sick for me. I really don't remember any of that so when I woke up at 10:30. I was freaking out. I walked out into the living room & everyone looked so miserable. Horrible hangover. I felt like death the whole day. Ew.
Today, Hunter & I woke up at eight so he could study all day and I could try and help him. I feel so bad. I'm an awful study partner. I can't pronounce half the medical terms. I feel so useless. I made some grilled ham & cheese sandwiches and we went to the reservoir and had a picnic. :] It was really nice & pretty outside. We can home and had amazing sex. Jesus Christ. Then he left for school & I've been cleaning the house to surprise him when he gets home. I started with the kitchen & forgot our disposal doesn't work and it was all stopped up and almost went over the edge on to the floor. I was panicking. I stopped it anyhow though. I just have the rest of the kitchen and I'm done. There is no use cleaning our room cause I know within thirty minutes of Hunter being home it will be a mess.
I keep worrying about bills now that they cut everyone's hours. Jesus. I never had to worry before. But Hunter did bring home $359 this weekend from tips. I'll just have to cross my fingers and hope we have all the money we need for awhile. It will be amazing if Hunter gets signed on this summer for an EMT positions because he gets a $3,000 sign on bonus.
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[Apr. 5th, 2008|06:15 pm] |
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Yesterday as I was getting ready for work the tornado alarms went off & the electricity. I started freaking out & woke Hunter up. So, we watched the crazy storm. Then we started arguing because I didn't want to go to work cause I was scared as hell. But whatever. I went & it was super easy like there was no one in there for like the three first hours. Then all I did was bag groceries for the other cashiers. We didn't get power back until like this morning.
Today! Goodness. We were SO damn busy due to other brookshire's being closed and a walmart cause they had no electricity. They even brought people from louisiana. Around four we had E VERYONE bagging. Like people from produce, bakery & deli. It was insane.
I need to go take a shower... Maybe more later. |
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[Mar. 31st, 2008|08:51 pm] |
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Today was poop. I swear none of the office cashiers or managers beside Mrs. Naomi actually like me. & I'm not even sure why they doesn't like me. I work fucking hard. Probably one of the hardest working cashiers there beside Lashay. God, they piss me off. I never get my lunches on time or even get a break. Which really kills my knees & back. It hurts my back SO bad to bend over. It's really sad since I'm only 19. Haha. I'm pathetic. Also I had the WORST cramps I've had in like two years during work. Ew.
Well, I made it to 106. I'm a gym freak. It's weird.
I talked to my mom tonight. it's been awhile. Well since like the 12th. God, I miss her way too much. She might own a bagel shop soon if the people she works for can get ahold of the people who are selling a building. That would be so awesome for her. It makes me so happy that she is actually happy now and enjoys her job and has friends. Even though I miss her more and more everyday. I wish I could convice Hunter to move to Florida and be an EMT. :[ I'm just so scared to bring it up because he is the biggest momma's boy. I don't think they would stand even living in a different city from each other. I mean we live RIGHT across from her subdivision. And they talk on the phone every day! Haha.
Oh well. |
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[Mar. 29th, 2008|06:49 am] |
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I've had the past three days off. Oh man it was so nice. I dread going back to work today. But I have four days where I work then three off. It's really weird. I used to work like 6 days a week. I guess since they hired two new people and some other people aren't at school so much they don't need me as bad. I just wish they put it where I got Saturday off. I HATE working Saturday. Everyone gets groceries on Saturday. Hunter is at his last clinical today for school until he passes the test in May. I feel so bad because we didn't get to sleep until like three and he had to wake up at 5:30. We just couldn't sleep last night. We finished the Dexter dvd. He really enjoyed it. :] Then we took a bath and went to bed.
He went to Walmart last night after work and bought us a knife set, pots & pans set, pizza pans & a cutting board. Which we needed badly. It's crazy to realize you actually use these things. Haha. All we really need is regular cups. All we have are like 203948 coffee cups since that's all my mom gave us.
I need to go to the gym this morning. I just wish these chest pains would go the hell away. :[ |
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[Mar. 27th, 2008|06:42 pm] |
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Went to Books A Million today and got -
Darkly Dreaming Dexter
Dearly Devoted Dexter.
I'm slightly obsessed with the whole Dexter series stuff. Whatever.
Went out to see at Chili's with Hunter since I got paid today.
& walked around the mall. Which sucked cause Hunter didn't feel well.
His blood sugar level stuff keeps getting really low. :[
Makes me worry a lot about him.
Just got back from working out.
& I smell like ass so I really need to go shower.
Tonight should be a good night since we bought some beer. Yum <3 |
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[Mar. 26th, 2008|04:37 pm] |
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I don't know what to do. Today made me feel like we are falling apart. I just hope he was cranky cause he was up all night & was just super tired. This can not & will not happen. I hope he realizes that he really hurt my feelings today & will make it up to me later. My heart is literally aching right now. Blah!
Anyway. I cleaned the kitchen, finally! I just really need to start on the laundry. I only have enough quarters for three loads though & those washers don't hold very much. Kinda sucks. I'm gonna head up to the gym in a bit since it's right beside the laundry mat. I really wish our pool would hurry about open up. I need to get some color. :]
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he came home early and found me crying so i told him how i've felt about everything.
everything is figured out & i was just over reacting.
we are perfectly fine, he is happy with me. he wants to be with me.
we went out to eat at sweet peppers deli. it was pretty good.
everyone there was super friendly.
went to barnes & noble and couldn't find my dumb book i wanted.
so came home watched two episodes of Dexter then made love.
It's been awhile.
then we fell asleep in each other arms. :D |
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[Mar. 25th, 2008|01:04 pm] |
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I stepped on the scale today & it said 111.
I NEED to go to our gym today.
I'm getting so gross.
I have a gut from so much beer. Ew.
I really don't eat healthy anymore either.
That reaaaaaaally needs to change.
The house is a huge fucking mess.
Like it looks like a tornado came through.
All our dirty clothes are in the dining room because we thought
we were gonna do laundry but we don't have any quarters.
The kitchen smells so bad. Dishes everywhere.
& the living room looks like someone had a damn party.
I'm going on a hardcore cleaning spree tonight since I
really have nothing else to do.
Also I have the next three
days off. Thank goooooodness.
I just want to sit outside and enjoy the weather
& cuddle with Hunter.
Hunter has another EMT ambulance ride along tonight from 5 pm - 5am.
Sigh. Atleast it's at night so I can sleep until he gets home.
Today it has been three years since he commited suicide.
God, I hate today. |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2008|04:04 pm] |
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Last night I got so upset with Hunter.He just doesn't realize that WE have to pay the bills, not his mommy anymore. He went and got another tattoo. :[ Granted it's for me & all.. It just upsets me that we could use that money for food. I was so upset that when he asked me if I loved him I told him 'I didn't know.' I feel so awful for saying it because he means the world to me. I'm such a little brat sometimes. =/
Today we were suppose to go eat at his parent's house but I've been really sick today & threw up. So, he went alone. I bet they think I'm avoiding them or something cause I haven't seen them in forever because of work. I need to buy them something for Easter. I just don't know what...
<3
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[Mar. 16th, 2008|09:12 am] |
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I really do hate my downstairs neighbor.
Okay, I understand playing the drums to rockband might bother you.
so...she bangs on her ceiling.
Now we can't make love?
Ugh. Last night during sex she started banging on her ceiling.
I understand that we might have been a little loud.
So we quieted it down & STILL she banged on it.
God, I hate her. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2008|05:38 am] |
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I get upset over nothing all the time.
I just get frustrated with him because he
doesn't understand that I do not have
friends that I can stay the night with like
he can. So, I hate it when he does cause
I hate being left at our apartment alone.
So I feel like I'm being a dick & keeping him from
having fun so I give in & spend my night sulking.
& it's so hard explaining myself to him sometimes.
like that I have no one here in Mississippi really.
Anyone I do have is at college a couple hours away.
Both my parents & siblings live in other states.
He's all I have.
Hunter's job is going to kill me once he truly finishes
school & becomes a paramedic thingy.
6am - 10pm. Today.. God, I miss him so much.
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