i'm really at a loss right now as to what exactly is bothering me. maybe i feel betrayed.
no, that's not quite right.
perhaps it's that i feel cast aside by everyone i thought i knew.
maybe it's cause this year marks the first time my parents have attacked me and kicked me out at the same time. i've never before had them come at me without being able to hide under my own blankets in my own bed after it was all over.
i think i'm over-sensitive to this sort of thing.
maybe i'm so negative all the time because i'm so insecure all the time. being mean to other people doesn't make me feel any better; that's not my motivation.
could be because things don't seem to go right, ever.
it's not like i complain all the time to complain. i do it because i don't know how else to converse. try growing up with parents like mine and being any other way. the fact is that i'm extremely awkward. and the fact is, it's because my parents never taught me the right way to act socially.
but now i just plain don't feel right. something's wrong about everything.
i'm having a lot of trouble sleeping lately.
(Read comments)
Post a comment in response:
scribbld is part of the horse.13 network
Design by Jimmy B.
Logo created by 
hitsuzen.
Scribbld System Status
