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o2. You know that attention thing? It kind of threads into this as well. Negative is bad. SO VERY BAD. It chases people away and he'd like to think that anyone who has disappeared in his life hadn't done so by his hand. Even though he does blame himself. A lot.

So here's Sakura. Someone he has JUST come back in contact with after not seeing her for so long and not exactly being able to pinpoint when she had vanished from his life. He wants to be so angry at her for going away and he wants to just scream at her to never do it again because fuck he was terrified all by himself. Yet there's nothing there to tell him it was her fault. He can only accept that the letters stopped, she stopped, Sakura vanished. And now she's back. With him. And now it will be alright.

THEN. SHE GOES AND RUINS THE PERFECT by disappearing again. He already went and turned off the anger switch once for her and this time it was so much worse because it wasn't just the fear of losing her. He was actually smart enough to go 'FUCK. SHE COULD BE HURT. OR DEAD. OR STARVING'. The starving one being very important. Food is love, btw.

So when she comes back from her parents as if that's all and doesn't show the tiniest bit of consideration to someone who might have just gave more than enough shit about her to worry it comes down a little hard. He should be so angry right now and I'll give that to him. He so is. He's outright pissed. He doesn't like feeling inferior or small or out of control of any situation.

But... if he yells she might go away again. If he stays angry then nothing will change. So it's better to cool himself off for her and not yell or scream and not act so angry like he really fucking is. He'll forgive her because she's back and safe and that's all that matters. At least to him. He knows he's stupid, but it's a stupidity that has been steadily growing since he was a kid. It can stay put for the moment.