mmmbeards (mmmbeards) wrote,
@ 2008-11-02 21:26:00

HELLLOOOOOOO WEBSITE THAT IS LIKE LIVEJOURNAL BUT NOT QUITE

I AM OVERWHELMED WITH FLEM AND I WANT TO DIE

	(Anonymous) 2008-11-15 02:14 am UTC (link)
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	61_keys_to_play 2008-11-16 01:49 am UTC (link)
	I was your mystery anon from honorcup. Adding you. :) (Reply to this)(Thread)

	mmmbeards 2008-11-16 09:04 am UTC (link)
	i'm glad that was you because you are so awesome. :) (Reply to this)(Parent)

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	(Anonymous) 2009-01-13 04:14 am UTC (link)
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4chan
2009-02-10 09:12 pm UTC (link)

Hey, dear. I'm writing here in response to your most recent post in Equations. About 2 years ago, I was date raped at a party. In fact, its how I lost my virginity (very romantic, eh?). It remains one of the most pivotal moments in my life. At the time, I felt completely hopeless. Instead of getting help, I decided not to tell a soul. I tried to pretend like it didn't even happen, because every time I thought about it, I felt dirty and disgusting. I kept all my emotions locked up and started blaming myself for what happened. The next 3 months were pretty much a downward spiral, filled with self-loathing. I just didn't care about anything.

It wasn't until well over a year after it happened that I finally told someone. To this day, only 2 people know. (The reason why I am responding here is because one of my best friends is in Equations and I have never told her). I still hate talking about it - it makes me feel vulnerable. But I now know that while we had no control over what has happened to us, we do have control over how we react to it. Do not follow my footsteps. Don't feel like you need to share your experience with all your friends. Its personal, and somethings are better if they remain somewhat secretive. But I do urge you to keep talking the friend you told, she will be able to help you TONS.

The most important thing to remember is that its not your fault. For a very long time, I associated sex with vulnerability. I hated myself when I had sex and I felt like I was letting part of myself go. It wasn't until about 3 months ago when I started dating my boyfriend that I was finally able to get over that aspect. I won't lie - its going to take a lot of time to fully heal. But if you react smarter and healthier than I did, you'll be fine much faster. Please just remember that it is not your fault. Nothing you could have done would've stopped it from happening. Whoever did this to you is a pathetic and horrible excuse of a human being who will surely pay for his action later in life. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this. It seriously breaks my heart. If you ever want to talk about it, know that I'll be here, more than willing. Good luck <3.

And sorry for the novel!

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mmmbeards
2009-02-12 07:14 am UTC (link)

i'm so sorry that you had to have this absolutely shitty experience as well. i feel like i can't tell anyone too, even my closest friends. i don't want to be the Gurl Who Got Raped so i totally understand why you never told anyone for a year. I feel like my entire perspective on life has changed over the weekend (this and the fact that my cat died and chris brown fucking beat up rihanna?!????? worst weekend of my LIFE)

i'm so thankful you opened yourself up about this, it really helps to know that there are strong individuals out there who can get past these fucked up experiences. i think i'm going to move to australia and get away from this city for a while. i don't know how to cope with this, honestly. even being at home is reminiscent of something i can't even remember really.

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4chan
2009-02-15 11:52 pm UTC (link)

I definitely know how you feel. It is an extremely personal topic and people act differently around you once they find out, even if they don't mean to. And can I just say that if this happened the same week my cat died... I'd probably have to be institutionalized. Not even kidding, meng.

Yeah, I think getting away for a little bit would be good. I know how it is when every tiny thing reminds you of that one incident, so having a change of pace & scenery would at least allow you to concentrate on something else. Unfortunately, this kind of stuff happens a lot more than anyone would think or hope. You'll be able to pull through it, it just takes time.

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