From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 2nd, 2011 10:07 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Au contraire, mon frere! What else is in it for me?

[Private to Rath]
NO! Like, no way. I mean like, he is cute. For like, a boy. And he is a really good friend but like.. how can I try to get with him and mack on him and then be like 'by the way I just want you around to hang out with me and coincidentally keep the girls away'? People don't usually get down with that kind of thing.

It was so much easier with Colin. He was like, your friend so I didn't care as much.. no offense. I mean, he was nice too, and having a boyfriend from Maine was convenient.. I wish mom never told Sera we broke up. I guess we know where she gets her big mouth.

From: reticently	Date: November 3rd, 2011 12:34 pm (UTC)		(Link)

My undying gratitude? What else do you need?

[Private to Tatum]
Lol you have a point. Don't mack on him? Pull the Catholic card or some shit. Or if you think you can trust him and he's a good enough friend, he might be down with it. Just saying.

No offense taken. You know you can always pretend to date another one of my friends from Maine, if that would help out the situation.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 3rd, 2011 01:00 pm (UTC)		(Link)

I guess that's enough. That, and cheesecake.. don't ever forget the cheesecake.

We should scoot home and grab some green and make a weed cheesecake oh my god!!

[Private to Rath]
All I ever do is pull the Catholic card. You can like, only escape to the popemobile so many times. Anyway, I can trust him, I can like definitely trust him, he's like.. my boy. And that's what sucks. I think he really does genuinely want to be my boyfriend, and I'm like.. it's convenient. You saw him stand up to Mack at homecoming, and I mean.. he's handsome, right? I think?

It so wasn't even pretend! I like that idiot feel my boob kiss me like every summer just to make dad happy and then he just like, breaks up with me. And told his mom! If I'm ever using one of our Maine friends for a boyfriend again, I'm picking a smarter one. He did take me to that concert though..

From: reticently	Date: November 3rd, 2011 01:31 pm (UTC)		(Link)

I figure that goes without saying.

And fuck yes! You get the green, I'll get the cheesecake shit.

[Private to Tatum]
That really sucks sis. Look, you should just tell him. The longer you wait, the more you'll hurt him, and that dude deserves better.

Colin had his reasons. And you know dad is only happy when we're happy, so don't force yourself to eat face with my friends for his sake. That's just gross.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 3rd, 2011 01:46 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Kay deal. 5g or 10g, my man?

[Private to Rath]
It does suck. It's kinda late to be like.. just kidding, let's be friends. But I don't wanna hurt him. I love him just not like.. love him. I know you've heard this same song and dance before but I have never been so scared of fucking up never really dated like, one of my reeeeeally good friends before.. except Shelby and he's a goof. I just need to do.. something idk. Sorry, I'm being whiny.

I guess. It's not like he'd be happy if I was sucking face with who I wanna suck face with. Might as well choose the cutest boys if I'm gonna have to kiss 'em.. but Sera says I'm a bad judge of how cute boys are anyway.

From: reticently	Date: November 3rd, 2011 02:01 pm (UTC)		(Link)

10g. I wanna get fucked up, and I need to clean out my fridge.

[Private to Tatum]
Little sis, relationships don't work out all the time. If you were really good friends before, he should understand. I know this is hard, but you should do the right thing. Don't hurt the people you care about.

You could always do what Sera does, you know. Suck face with girls and not tell dad. And hey, if you need me to take the heat for you, I'll tell him I'm a gay prostitute or some shit.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 3rd, 2011 02:24 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Your wish is my command!

[Private to Rath]
I know I just.. I thought it'd be okay. He's so nice and funny but it's just like.. I dunno. You know how people talk about kisses and how it's supposed to make you all tingly and amazed? No matter how much I try, just nothing. And if Mack is going to keep acting like such an asshole, I can't let her take it out on him. I hate this.

So he can cut your head off instead? No thanks! I just.. Sera's bad enough. If he found out that both of us were.. like that, he'd go off hard. I need to just, suck it up and be normal. Right.

From: reticently	Date: November 3rd, 2011 05:52 pm (UTC)		(Link)

[Private to Tatum]
If you're not attracted to him, you can't help it. You can't force that sort of thing. But I think that Sam isn't the only person hurting here, so you need to decide what you want to do.

You are normal. Forcing yourself to do what you think dad wants isn't making anyone happy. He'd get over it eventually, and even if he didn't, you know you'd have everyone else backing you up.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 3rd, 2011 08:57 pm (UTC)		(Link)

[Private to Rath]
I just hurt everybody I guess! I dunno. Whether it's me or Sam or dad or Frankie like it's always something, right? I can't be happy and make everybody else happy. I'm like, where do you even begin, you know? I'm so like.. ugh, idek man seriously.

Even if he kicked me out? Like didn't even want me around? He might. He overreacts a lot and like, you know how he is stuff.

From: reticently	Date: November 4th, 2011 01:06 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

You know that's not true. Don't even say that. And maybe you should stop trying to make everyone else happy. There's this fable about a dad, son, and a donkey, and every time someone makes a snooty comment they change, but at the end of the story, the dad and son are carrying the donkey. You keep trying to please everyone and you end up not doing so. You should start with yourself, Tatum. Make yourself happy and fuck everyone else.

He might be seriously pissed for a long time, but he'll come around. Everyone else will make sure of it.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 5th, 2011 01:46 pm (UTC)		(Link)
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Okay, you mostly lost me at donkey but I actually think I still get what you're saying. That's.. actually what Mack keeps telling me. Why does she have to be like this? I can't believe she did that shit in front of everything, I just..

She makes me so mad and I still don't really want her to go away. Am I crazy? I like.. I mean, I have Sam. I should just go with the flow. She's not right for me. I'm not like.. I don't know. It's hard even making me happy.

You think?

From: reticently	Date: November 7th, 2011 03:13 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

No way to make that story not sound perverted.

It's not hard to believe. I hate to say it, but you send out confusing signals and it would drive anyone crazy.

And just because she's not right for you doesn't mean she's not meant for you. Does she make you happy? And I want a serious answer.

I know so. You know we all love you and will take care of you, sis.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 7th, 2011 08:27 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

No, you're right. I know that I do but it's like, I can't tell someone how I feel cause I don't even know how I feel. Does that make sense? I just everyone reproduced by cell division or something instead of all of this stupid love stuff.

Serious answer? She's so cocky and arrogant but she's nicer to me than most guys no one else ever brought me flowers either I guess and she's really pretty and I guess she makes me happy when she's not being a horse's ass..

Yeah, she does. But it's not that simple, right?

From: reticently	Date: November 8th, 2011 02:05 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

You love all this love stuff, even if you're just confused about it right now. I think though, that you already know how you really feel, you just conflicted about it.

Sounds like she's perfect for you.

And it could be. You're just over-complicating everything. Sera's been out for how long now? And dad is none the wiser.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 8th, 2011 10:22 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

Perfect might be just a bit of a stretch. She's something, okay? I can't like, act like she doesn't get to me. I guess. I wouldn't say I love going through this though..

Yeah, none the wiser yet. What about when they graduate? How long can she live in secret, right? Is she going to hide Jenny in her closet for the rest of her life, like until dad dies? She's okay now, but when he finds out, he's going to go through the roof.

From: reticently	Date: November 9th, 2011 02:05 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

Well, maybe not love it, but I'm sure the end result will be something you enjoy. : P

He'll just need time to get over himself. I'm sure he loves all of us more than his pride or religion. I'm not saying it's going to be a cake walk, but it's possible for the two of you to come out and be unharmed in the long run.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 9th, 2011 07:36 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

Yeah, I might be having fun but the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few I think. Or that's how dad'll see it.

I just don't picture him being rational. I mean, he doesn't get worked up, but that's like.. over the line. I dunno. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad but what if it is bad? You can't just backpedal away from that, like once I say it, it's done..

From: reticently	Date: November 10th, 2011 02:30 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

But the needs of the many in this case would be the rest of us telling him to accept you.

He probably won't be completely okay with it, but you're his daughter. It's not like he's going to murder you or anything. He'll have to come to accept it.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 11th, 2011 02:21 am (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

That's one way to look at it, yeah.

I don't think he'll murder me, but he may never want to see me. I'd just be like.. he'd be disappointed forever. Plus you know he wants like, a hundred grandkids. Or that's how he talks. And I can't deal with that shit.

From: reticently	Date: November 11th, 2011 01:27 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Rath]

Okay, maybe he will be disappointed forever. But so what? Would you rather be miserable the rest of your life, lying to all the people close to you, and popping out those hundred of grandkids?

I say if dad is too much of a homophobe to accept you, it's his loss cause you're still his little girl no matter what.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 11th, 2011 01:33 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

No, I guess not.. that would suck pretty bad..

I'm just going to have to bite the bullet, aren't I?

From: reticently	Date: November 11th, 2011 03:42 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

Yes, and tbh I'd be scared of the children you'd produce.

You know I'll support you in whatever you choose to do. But I also want you to be happy. So yeah, it sort of does.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 11th, 2011 06:22 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

Oh awesome, thanks. :p I think I might actually have cute kids.. if I wanted kids. I was kinda cute when we were little.

I know. But I guess it's like.. it's not going to get easier or better, no matter when I do it. Why drag it out I guess. Right?

From: reticently	Date: November 14th, 2011 01:11 pm (UTC)		(Link)
[Private to Tatum]

You were very adorable. But I think anyone compared to me and Sera when we were little would look adorable.

There's that whole movement about things getting better you know. You just have to take the plunge.

	From: ojandtostitos	Date: November 14th, 2011 05:55 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	[Private to Rath]

You guys were definitely faces only a mother could love.

That like 'it gets better' thing Sera has the shirt for? That shit probably isn't true. But I guess it can't get worse.