southernbabe (southernbabe) wrote,
@ 2012-01-23 19:03:00

Monday, June 23, 2011:1PM
Guys suck.

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Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-23 11:21 pm UTC (link)

Yeah... Sure she would.

*Eyeroll

I'm just in a bad mood. Please don't go blabbing to everyone about how much of an emo loser I am, not that they don't already know. I mean I know how I am, and I'm ok with how I am, I guess I just hoped someone would see me for me and want to be with that. But I guess not. And frankly, I understand. I'm a loser who is focused on my work and doing my own thing. I'm boring and I make lame ass jokes and do stupid things. I'm cool with me, just have to be cool with the idea that I'm just going to be alone.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-23 11:24 pm UTC (link)
	She went on a picnic with you, didn't she? For the record, you're a great guy. Stop putting yourself down. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2012-01-23 11:33 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not putting myself down. That's how it is. I'm a super responsible dork that works too hard, thinks too much, and has stupid ideas about love and relationships that are never gonna happen. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-23 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	And still has plenty of dates! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2012-01-23 11:49 pm UTC (link)
	I do not! I went on a picnic with someone I don't really know. That's not plenty of dates. That's not even one date. And look who's talking. Look, I'm sorry I brought it up. I need to just shut up and go do something. Thanks for... listening or whatever. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-23 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	Melly... Dari... WHAT DATES HAVE I BEEN ON?! You're not getting off that easy, Josh. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-24 12:00 am UTC (link)

Yeah well you're giving me a pretty hard time, too, ok. And why? Because I thought I was dating one girl and then I wasn't and then she showed up and then I realized she wasn't what I thought she was. And I'm hurt about it. Then this bs with Leslie happens.

Going out with Dari wasn't a date. She just wanted to go do something with me. I don't even know her really!

You sort of offered to go to lunch with me, and I want to go to lunch with you, not anyone else, but you've been grounded and angry and just IDK ok. I just thought I could talk to you and you'd kind of understand.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-24 12:06 am UTC (link)
	~~Yeah. Whatever, Josh. You take a girl on a romantic picnic? It's totally a date.~~ It really looked like you wanted to go to lunch with me... you know, when you turned me down? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2012-01-24 12:11 am UTC (link)
	Yeah and you could have asked me what was wrong. And technically you didn't invite me to lunch, you said you were going to but then you weren't anymore. And you called me a typical guy. I just... I don't even know. I guess nothing is what I thought it was. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-24 12:18 am UTC (link)
	I assumed you were upset about your ~~slutty~~ sister. I didn't ask you, but you turned me down anyway. I shouldn't have called you a typical guy. That wasn't fair. I'm sorry. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-24 12:59 am UTC (link)

I have my sister making a mess. I have this thing with Melly. I have to work. I feel like I'm completely alone and no one cares about me. I feel like no one is ever going to care about me. I have you that I am like fighting with and I don't like it.

No, I am. All I want is to be with a girl like everyone else. You're right. I like to think I'm better than that but I'm not.

I'm just an emo mess. I hate when I'm like this. I should go take a benadryl or something and pass out for a while.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-24 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, Josh. I don't mean to add to it. You're not like everyone else. Wanting to be with a girl is not the same was wanting to sleep with a girl. Me, too. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-25 03:52 am UTC (link)

It's just you being mad at me hurts. I just wanted you to make me feel better like I wasn't a complete jerk. I shouldn't have said anything...

It's ok. I hope we can be ok and i didn't mess this up, too. You're like my best friend ane... Idek. I am sorry. You know I would rather spend time with you than anyone if you aren't grounded anymore and still want to soend time with me. I can even try to not be whiny or mopey.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-25 03:20 pm UTC (link)
	You're not a jerk. We're fine. Stop apologizing. I shouldn't have snapped at you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2012-01-25 03:29 pm UTC (link)
	K. (Reply to this)(Parent)

Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-24 03:37 am UTC (link)

I'm sorry for whatever I did that made you mad at me. I'm just having a really hard time. I'm sure you didn't want to hear about it, but I was just upset and you're the person I go to when I'm upset, like how I try to be there for you. I felt like she was my only option because no one else has ever acted like they were interested in me in any way. She made me feel like I mattered and then I realized I didn't, at least in my mind I didn't. I really needed someone so I came to you, but I should have realized you have your own thing going on. I would really like it if we could spend some time together, you're important to me, more so than any of this other stuff, but if you don't want to I get it.

I miss you.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-25 12:01 am UTC (link)
	It's not you. It's me. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. You're important to me, too. I'm always here for you. I shouldn't be taking my feeling out on you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Melia

jrpushing
2012-01-25 04:00 am UTC (link)

Sometimes you just gotta get it out. I understand. Just wish i would have been more sensitive to you is all. You are hurting and i was selfish. I should have been checking on you and inviting you out not sitting around waiting for someone to come to me, someone to check on me, someone to care about me. If i want something i guess i just need to go for it.

It is not just you. It was me, too. I should have been more sensitive to you knowing you have been upset not out running around. Who else is gonna bust my balls and make me realize how kuch of an emo tool i am being? Haha.

It's ok. I am here for you no matter what even if i am upset about it.

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	Josh southernbabe 2012-01-25 03:21 pm UTC (link)
	You weren't the one that needed to be more sensitive. You need someone to care about you, too. I'm sorry for snapping, Josh. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melia jrpushing 2012-01-25 03:28 pm UTC (link)
	Shrug. It's ok. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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