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crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2010-04-26 23:53:00

open to quillan
Kellen was a fighter, but he wasn't doing well. The only thing really keeping him going was the fact that he had to see his son again, he just had to. Kieran needed him. He had no mother, and while he had the pack, Kellen knew his son well enough to know that Kieran needed him. He was all ready worried sick about his son, having felt the panic and despair from his son easily. They were connected more than an average son and father were, and Kellen knew that Kieran was special like Wendell had suggested. He just wanted to get back to his son more than anything else in the world. In between shifts, which were restless and he couldn't move, he just tried to sleep. He would ask about Kieran every day, though, obviously more worried about his son than himself.

At the moment he'd dozed off. He was grimey, dirty and disgusting, and he wanted a shower. He felt like he was sick with something because he wasn't getting enough food, and his body was literally stealing nutrients from itself. He looked haggerd, and broken as he laid on the little bed, curled up and completely silent. He was strong, and strong minded. He wouldn't speak to anyone but Quillan because Quillan was the one person he felt like he could convince to help him.

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-04 07:47 pm UTC (link)

Jack was on his way out when the phone rang. No one knew the number but pack members, and hardly anyone ever called unless it was something important. The phone ringing in the main house was almost never anything good and Jack's heart skipped a beat as he reached for it to answer. "Hello?" His young voice was full of expectation, trepidation at what was going to come from the other end.

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crucio
2010-05-05 12:58 am UTC (link)

When Kellen heard Jack's voice he swallowed hard and closed his eyes. He lifted a hand to cover his face and held back the urge to burst into tears, because it wouldn't help. Still, his eyes welled up and he wet his lips before he cleared his throat.

"Jack, it's me, Kellen," he said after a moment. "I'm all right. A hunter captured me and took me to the men who had Robin, but someone helped me get away. You need to tell Hunter that there's a hunter who's focused on our pack, he's been watching you all I think. Is Kieran all right? Do Emmy and Ever have him?"

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-05 04:38 am UTC (link)

Quillan found it hard to listen in on the conversation and so he went to the bathroom to take a quick shower. He needed to wash the day off of him.

"Oh my god, Kellen!" Jack breathed with shock and awe in his voice. "Yes, Kieran is fine. As fine as can be expected. He's safe. Oh god, Kellen." He tried to steady his voice, but it wasn't going so well. He had the phone pressed to his ear as he went upstairs to find Hunter.

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crucio
2010-05-05 04:57 am UTC (link)

Knowing for certain that Kieran was safe took such a weight off of Kellen, and he choked back a quiet sob of relief. He brought his hand up to cover his eyes as he swallowed hard, and then he wet his lips.

"I can't stay on the phone for long, this is a long distance call. I'm at a hotel in Seattle. I'll probably come to the mainhouse tomorrow, I can't make it tonight. I need to rest," he explained quickly. "Just tell Hunter what I said, all right? And tell Kieran that I'm okay and I'll see him soon, and that I love him, okay?"

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-05 07:03 pm UTC (link)

"He'll want to come after you tonight. Who are you with?" Jack knew Hunter well enough to know that the man would be anxious to get the other wolf back in his care immediately. Though he didn't realize the nuances of this situation. A hunter after them? That was preposterous. No hunter would be so stupid as to go after the Coldwater pack. "I'll tell him," he finally said, agreeing with Kellen's wishes. "And I'll tell Kieran."

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crucio
2010-05-06 02:05 am UTC (link)

"I'm fine, I'm with someone who helped me escape, and I'll be there tomorrow night I promise," Kellen said softly before he cleared his throat. "Kieran can't see me like this, I need a day to just... Recover a little bit," he added as he closed his eyes. "Thank you, Jack."

He hung-up before Jack asked any more questions and he curled up a little bit on the bed as he wiped at his eyes. At least he hadn't broken down crying. If Jack had put Kieran on the phone, it would have been the end of him.

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 03:17 am UTC (link)

Quillan felt a little better after the shower. He came back out in his boxers and went straight to the bag he'd packed. Once he'd found another pair of sweats, he put them on and went to sit on his own bed. Noticing that Kellen wasn't on the phone anymore, he looked over at him.

"Is your boy all right?" That was his main concern. He couldn't stand the thought that Kieran was in pain because of mistakes that he'd made.

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crucio
2010-05-06 03:23 am UTC (link)

Kellen rolled onto his back slowly and stretched his legs out, a little wince escaping him before he sat up a little more. He nodded his head and cleared his throat as he swept a hand through his hair.

"Jack says he's as fine as he can be, he's probably upset and hasn't been eating or sleeping enough but I'll fix that when I see him tomorrow," he said quietly. "I'm hungry, where's the food? I can warm it up, just... give me a minute."

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 03:43 am UTC (link)

Quillan popped back up. "No, no. I'll warm it up for you. Don't get up." He didn't want Kellen to wear himself out. Resting was top priority.

The smell of burgers warming up made him a little hungry and he was glad that he'd bought himself one as well. There were seven burgers in all and he hoped that it was enough. Once a few were heated up, he set them on Kellen's bed. "Here, I'll warm up the rest. The microwave isn't big enough for all of them at the same time though. How do you guys buy enough food for an entire pack? It must be a full time job feeding all of you at once."

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crucio
2010-05-06 03:48 am UTC (link)

Kellen took the burgers thankfully and reached for a bottle of water Quillan must have set on the nightstand for him while he'd been sleeping. He twisted the cap off and took a few swallows before he reached for a burger to have a bite. Despite the urge to just rip into all of them, he held back and took his time. The last thing he needed was for Quillan to see him eating like a ravenous beast after he'd just saved his life and was coming to terms with that decision.

"Wendell is the one who mostly keeps up on that," he said after a moment, in between slow chews. "We all sort of pitch in sometimes, but Wendell is amazing. He goes every few days. We don't all live in the same house, so a lot of the shopping is done individually save for the main house. Wen goes in town every few days."

Though after he'd been kidnapped, it'd taken a while for him to get back on his feet so Hunter had picked up the slack in that department. Emmy had helped, too.

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 04:08 am UTC (link)

When the cooking was done, he put the rest on the bed and then sat down on his own with his single hamburger. It was almost funny, the way someone so small as Kellen was surrounded with food and Quillan was holding one. He was starving as well, but he knew that he would never know hunger like a wolf could. One of his first lessons with Rex had been to use their appetite against them and that's exactly what he'd done against Kellen when he'd had him in the cage.

"Will they kill Rex if they can?" he asked suddenly.

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crucio
2010-05-06 04:12 am UTC (link)

That was such a hard question for Kellen to answer, because he didn't want to lie to Quillan. He chewed and swallowed before he took another drink of water, and then he cleared his throat.

"Not out of cold blood, no," he said softly. "But if it comes down to us, or him... Protecting ourselves, yes. In self defense, we'll do what we have to. Just like if someone was trying to kill you, or someone you cared about, you'd do the same."

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 04:39 am UTC (link)

"I have done the same, but it was wrong." He was only half done with his sandwich, but the reminder of the things he'd done in the past was enough to destroy his appetite and he wrapped it back up and set it on the nightstand. "But I understand."

He fell silent after that, scooting back on the bed and reaching for the remote to turn on the little television. He switched to the news.

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crucio
2010-05-06 04:44 am UTC (link)

Kellen had always been understanding, and very forgiving. It was a huge part of what made him such a great father to Kieran. He could connect easily with people, and that made him very likable. He could tell Rex hadn't liked that about him, and one of the reasons why he didn't trust Kellen alone with Quillan.

"Quillan," he said softly as he put his food down and leaned against the pillows. "You've made mistakes. You're human. But you didn't really know the whole truth of why you were doing the things you were doing. You thought what you were doing was right, and why wouldn't you? The supernatural... It's hard to understand it all. You trusted Rex, and you know what? He might not even understand it all, he probably really feels that what he is doing is right."

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 05:11 am UTC (link)

"I knew it wasn't right to kill my brother and I did it anyway because I was scared. I can't blame that on Rex and I can't blame it on ignorance. I was just fucking scared." His voice raised ever so slightly, but he wasn't angry at anyone but himself.

He focused very hard on the television, wishing he hadn't had a little outburst like that. Now Kellen really knew what kind of a person he was.

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crucio
2010-05-06 05:21 am UTC (link)

Kellen was quiet for a moment before he leaned forward to take the remote so that he could switch the television off. He grabbed a hold of Quillan's hand and shifted a little so that he could try to meet Quillan's eyes, ignoring the aching in his limbs.

"Quillan," he said softly, "You were scared. And why wouldn't you have been? Something happened to your brother that you didn't understand. Given all the things that you've heard and been told... Why wouldn't you have been scared? Does that make it all okay? No. But that doesn't make you a bad person."

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-06 04:44 pm UTC (link)

He was surprised when the TV switched off and he frowned a little. He couldn't get mad at Kellen, but he didn't want to talk about this. He was already regretful that he blurted out the information, especially to Kellen of all people.

But the comforting hand was nice, and he squeezed it with his own. "You're far too forgiving. I don't think your pack will be, or should be."

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crucio
2010-05-06 08:48 pm UTC (link)

"Some won't be," Kellen told Quillan honestly. "But they won't hurt you, either."

He had faith in that, especially given the fact that Jocelin hadn't been bothered. Hunter wasn't a cruel man, he was just protective, and he had every right to be especially considering everything that had been thrown at the pack lately.

"But I forgive you, if that means something," he offered with a tired smile.

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-07 03:14 pm UTC (link)

Quillan didn't think he'd be staying at the haven. What if he was a spy? Kellen seemed to trust him, but this very well could have been a befarious plan on Rex's part. If Hunter sent him packing far, far away, Quillan wouldn't blame him and might even thank him. He didn't want to lead danger right to Kellen's son. He couldn't forgive himself if something happened to him now.

Kellen's words wove right into him and tugged at his stomach. It made him feel strange. Guilt mixed with gratitude and relief. "It does mean something. It means a lot."

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crucio
2010-05-07 04:56 pm UTC (link)

Kellen had faith that Hunter would be able to tell if Quillan was genuine or not. He'd done so with Jocelin, hadn't he? And Quillan knew Rex better than anyone, he could be valuable.

"I'm glad," Kellen said as he laid down again, but kept a hold of Quillan's hand.

It was obvious that the hunter had earned the wolf's trust as he laid there, curled up and looking up at the other man. There was something Quillan that Kellen had connected with from the start, and now he felt it was just ... Stronger.

"Would you lay down?" he asked after a moment, "With me, I mean? I'm use to contact and... I haven't had any, I know that sounds strange."

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impotentwaffle
2010-05-07 05:14 pm UTC (link)

He looked down at their hands intertwined. He gave it another squeeze and finally offered a smile that was only a little sad. "It is a little strange--I'm not used to things like that. But I think it would have been nice to have that growing up--being close to someone."

Scrunching down on the bed, his body went all awkward as he tried to settle next to Kellen in a way that wasn't too intimate, but still comforting. He thought Kellen smelled good from the bath and just from himself. He wouldn't have minded leaning in to breathe his scent in, but he thought that might be too familiar.

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	crucio 2010-05-07 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	Kellen rolled onto his side so that he could face Quillan, and he closed his eyes as he let his body relax. He swallowed hard and just curled up a little, moving a bit closer to Quillan for comfort. He wasn't pack, but he was there, and he smelled good. And he was warm. "It was nice," he mumbled softly. "Being in a pack is like ... Having a huge family, you know?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-05-07 07:58 pm UTC (link)

Quillan knew full well he wasn't going to be able to sleep tonight. But, he thought it was nice that he was going to be able to watch over Kellen so closely. As the man's eyelids drooped closed, he examined fondly the way that his eyelashes brushed over the tops of his cheeks. He resisted the urge to brush his thumb over them.

"A family sounds nice. A big one that doesn't have anything to do with work, or some grand mission to cleanse the world of perceived evil." Because that's what Rex had been and he could see that so much more clearly now. The man hadn't raised him as a son; he'd raised him as an apprentice.

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crucio
2010-05-08 04:40 am UTC (link)

Despite Kellen's need for independence, and how proud he was of the life he'd built for himself and his son, he felt a little guilty for leaving the pack at all. Maybe if he hadn't, Rex would have never found them at all. It was a silly thought, though. It was Oliver and Harris who'd ultimately turned Rex onto their scent in the first place.

Kellen could pick up on the scent of attraction in the air, and it wasn't just his own, he could tell. He didn't want to push it, though, so he just parted his lips in a quiet sigh.

"You smell nice," he mumbled after a moment.

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	impotentwaffle 2010-05-08 04:13 pm UTC (link)
	"Do I?" he exhaled, a little surprised. It made his skin flush pink and he was suddenly very aware of his body so close to Kellen's. He chewed on his bottom lip and tried to relax. "We should get some rest. I don't think Rex will find us tonight." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

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