crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2011-07-19 22:30:00

to moon
Logan was steering clear of Joshua, as much as he could, anyway. No matter how much he'd grown to care for Moon, when it came to Joshua there was always a lingering connection that he just couldn't shake and it made him feel guilty. So in the end, it was just best to avoid him as much as possible. He kind of got the idea that Josh felt the same way, too. Out of all the wolves in the pack, Josh's was the one he could feel a connection to on a level that he knew was just different. He hated it. But now, a bigger connection was building with Moon.

The boy was doing well enough with his shifts and he was learning to control his wolf that he didn't have to be locked up anymore. He still had to stick close to the main house, though. There was just no way around that. Logan would go to Seattle on Thursdays and he'd be back every Sunday morning. It was getting harder and harder to leave Moon behind, that was for sure, but he had his job at the tattoo shop.

It was Sunday morning and he'd just pulled up. He could feel that Joshua was on a run and he frowned as he glanced towards the woods. Andrew was around somewhere, too. With a sigh, he turned and headed up the porch steps to slip inside and he went straight for the kitchen where Moon usually was by this time, helping Wendell.

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	crucio 2011-08-03 01:35 am UTC (link)
	"I'm not sure," Logan said as shook his head a little with a heavy sigh. "If Joshua loses him then - I don't know... I don't know what he'll do," he frowned. "He'll probably blame me and hate me forever, fuck," he muttered as he closed his eyes and swallowed hard. "And a part of him liked that you were there. You submit like - it's perfection. He liked that a lot." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 02:23 am UTC (link)
	"Que se necesitan dos," he said quietly. It takes two. "He was the one inside of you. He could have stopped. He shouldn't blame you." Moon didn't understand how good it was for Joshua to play like the top dog. He was drawn to it and Andrew couldn't give him that feeling. It wasn't fair. "Perfection?" he smiled at that, pride seeping into his expression. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2011-08-03 02:27 am UTC (link)

When moon said 'he was the one inside of you', Logan felt his body react. He shifted around a little and opened his eyes with a soft sigh.

"Yeah, I've got some dominance in me - Joshua knows that. I submitted, but it was mostly to appease him. You did it because you wanted to, because it's what you were born to do. So it's just... different," Logan tried to explain.

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	impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 02:38 am UTC (link)
	He understood a little and gave a nod before drawing his finger over the earth, doodling something inconsequential. "I don't think that anyone will lose anyone. These things happen. Andrew will forgive Joshua and Joshua will forgive you and you will forgive Joshua." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2011-08-03 02:40 am UTC (link)
	"I've all ready forgiven Joshua," Logan said very quietly as he stretched his legs out. It was early afternoon by now, and he was starting to grow hungry. "We should head back, get something for lunch in our stomachs," he suggested before he pulled away so that he could reach for Moon's clothes and hand them over. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 02:49 am UTC (link)
	Moon sighed. This was not how he'd pictured his run to go and he pushed the clothes away. "I'm not hungry yet. You go ahead. I'll catch up later, okay?" He didn't want to abandon Logan when he was feeling bad, but he needed to simmer in this for a little while. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2011-08-03 02:55 am UTC (link)
	Logan sighed softly before he got to his feet and started to trudge his way back the house. He wasn't sure what he wanted. A part of him just wanted to go back to Seattle and not come back for a while, but he couldn't just leave Moon like that. He slipped inside the house and went to rummage around the kitchen while he sulked on his own. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2011-08-03 03:43 am UTC (link)

Joshua was in the kitchen and maybe Moon had sensed that well enough to leave Logan to his own devices. Maybe the little wolf was finally learning to avoid him. But when Joshua saw Logan, he turned and left, not wanting to deal with it still. He did not like turning tail and running, but he was in a place where he didn't know what to do and running seemed his only option.

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	crucio 2011-08-03 04:01 am UTC (link)
	Logan followed after him this time, and he reached out to snag Joshua by the arm so that he couldn't just run off. "Wait," he said softly. "Don't be like this. We didn't - I didn't mean to, I'm sorry," he said with a frown. "Don't avoid me, please. Not after that." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2011-08-03 04:28 am UTC (link)

Joshua ripped his arm away so fast that he fell backwards like an oaf and just sat there on the floor growling. When he got a hold of himself and picked himself back up, he wrapped his arms around his waist. "That shouldn't have happened. The worst thing is that I did mean to. I meant to fuck you. I've wanted to for the longest time. Since I set eyes on you and smelled you and you smelled like home in a way that I know Andrew can't. I hate you for complicating things. I hate you."

It all just came spilling out of him and he felt like crying. Mostly he just hated himself for being so untrue to the person he loved and he hated life for being so unfair.

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crucio
2011-08-03 04:32 am UTC (link)

Logan couldn't help but feel wounded over Joshua's words, and it was written all over his face. He swallowed hard and he looked away from Joshua before he turned to head up the stairs so that he could go to his room. He was going to wait for Moon to come back and then he was going to head back to Seattle for the rest of the week. He couldn't handle this, he just couldn't.

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impotentwaffle
2011-08-03 04:54 am UTC (link)

For the first time since he'd come here, Joshua felt completely alone. His brothers were too young to understand and Andrew was going to hate him. He'd lost everything in the span of an afternoon and he stormed back outside, deciding to just go for a walk, a very very long walk.

Moon saw Joshua leave and he jogged back inside, taking a moment to breathe in and find the trail that Logan had left. He followed it upstairs. "That was fast," he said softly.

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	crucio 2011-08-03 04:56 am UTC (link)
	Logan was so upset that he was on the verge of tears. He was sitting on the edge of the bed with his face in his hands when Moon came in, and he just sighed quietly. "I think I need to go back to Seattle, I can't stay here - everything's a mess now," he muttered. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 05:24 am UTC (link)
	Hunter wouldn't let Moon go so far away from the pack yet and so that meant leaving him behind. Moon tried very hard not to look hurt or disappointed. "I understand," he said quietly, staring down at his feet as he stood in the doorway. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2011-08-03 05:26 am UTC (link)
	Logan could feel the disappointment coming off of Moon in waves, and finally lowered his hands to look over at him. He sighed softly and got up so that he could go to him, and he dipped his head down and brushed a kiss to his mouth. "I love you, you know," he mumbled quietly. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 05:43 am UTC (link)
	He nodded, swallowing, throat working to keep his uncertainty down. He'd been so positive that this would be easy for all of them but nothing seemed to be as simple as Moon thought it was going to be. It made him feel cut loose, floating on waves of ever changing tides. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2011-08-03 05:50 am UTC (link)
	Now that Logan was so close to Moon, had kissed him and admitted how he felt about the other, he didn't want to leave. But he didn't want to stay in the main house, either. "Maybe we can just go stay at Vaughn's, his house is empty since he's with Everett. I can ask him," he said softly as he lifted a hand up to gently touch the side of Moon's face. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Does Vaughn live with Ever now? impotentwaffle 2011-08-03 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't know if Hunter will even let me go that far." His release from the cage had been a big deal and Moon didn't know if distance made that much difference. He knew he had to stay at the Haven and he had to be with another wolf as often as possible. "Logan, I understand if you can't stay." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	not officially but he's there a lot or probably at jacob's helping with the wee jacob baby crucio 2011-08-03 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	Logan let out a soft sigh as he tightened his arms around Moon's slender frame. He pressed his face down against the top of the other boy's shoulder before he turned his head and brushed a kiss to his jaw. "I think I'll stay, see how things go," he mumbled. "For now. I don't wanna leave, I just got here and I've missed you." (Reply to this)(Parent)

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