crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2011-07-19 22:30:00

to moon
Logan was steering clear of Joshua, as much as he could, anyway. No matter how much he'd grown to care for Moon, when it came to Joshua there was always a lingering connection that he just couldn't shake and it made him feel guilty. So in the end, it was just best to avoid him as much as possible. He kind of got the idea that Josh felt the same way, too. Out of all the wolves in the pack, Josh's was the one he could feel a connection to on a level that he knew was just different. He hated it. But now, a bigger connection was building with Moon.

The boy was doing well enough with his shifts and he was learning to control his wolf that he didn't have to be locked up anymore. He still had to stick close to the main house, though. There was just no way around that. Logan would go to Seattle on Thursdays and he'd be back every Sunday morning. It was getting harder and harder to leave Moon behind, that was for sure, but he had his job at the tattoo shop.

It was Sunday morning and he'd just pulled up. He could feel that Joshua was on a run and he frowned as he glanced towards the woods. Andrew was around somewhere, too. With a sigh, he turned and headed up the porch steps to slip inside and he went straight for the kitchen where Moon usually was by this time, helping Wendell.

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-20 03:49 pm UTC (link)

As soon as Logan walked in the door, Moon was there like a puppy that had been missing him more than anything in the world. "Wendell said that I couldn't go on a run with Joshua, even though he asked me if I wanted to come. Why? Wendell wouldn't tell me. He said it was complicated. I don't think it's complicated." Now that Moon was allowed out of his cage and to run whenever he needed it, he seemed to need it all the time. There was nothing that he liked better than changing into a wolf and bolting as far away from the house as he dared. Well, maybe he liked eating better, but that was hard to tell.

He pushed back his floppy black hair and looked up at Logan with a very determined look on his face. He was not going to get passed off by this young man, not like he'd been passed off by Wendell. Wendell was sitting at the kitchen table, looking a bit weary. Looking after Moon was a little like looking after a ping pong ball and while he could be very helpful, he could also be very unhelpful.

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crucio
2011-07-20 10:57 pm UTC (link)

Instead of answering Moon, Logan reached out to snag the boy by the hips and he tugged Moon towards him. He looped his arms around his waist and dipped his head down to brush a soft kiss to his lip before he pulled back and smiled.

"I don't even get a hello?" he teased as he gave Moon a playful squeeze. "I missed you. Did you miss me? Why does Wendell look so tired? Have you been running him around in circles, driving him mad?"

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	impotentwaffle 2011-07-21 12:28 am UTC (link)
	Wendell offered a quiet little smile. He liked Moon a great deal but his exuberance rivaled that of the little ones, though he was in a much larger package. Moon stood on his tiptoes to accept the kiss and it did shut him up for a few moments. "Of course I missed you. But you can't ask questions until mine have been answered." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2011-07-21 01:02 am UTC (link)

Logan was well aware of the fact that when he was around, it was easier on everyone because he kept Moon preoccupied. And of course he wouldn't have it any other way because Moon kept him just as preoccupied. They enjoyed one another's company.

"I'll answer your questions, but I'm starving, so I'm going to eat first," he said a she pulled away and went over to see if Wendell had made anything for breakfast. "How's everything?" he asked Wen. "How's Hunter and how are the little ones?"

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-21 02:53 am UTC (link)

Wendell wondered if Logan was putting the boy off. He did have a tendency to forget about questions that weren't answered soon enough. But Wen didn't say anything about it. "They're good. As into everything as ever. The little ones, I mean--not Hunter, of course." He'd made breakfast and most everyone had eaten already, but Wendell had been sure that there was some left over for Logan and any other stragglers. Somehow, Wendell could keep track of everyone as well as Hunter.

Moon plopped down at the table and opened a book. He was reading a lot too and sometimes that was the only thing that could keep him quiet. He was pouting, though not too badly.

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crucio
2011-07-21 02:58 am UTC (link)

Logan didn't often interact or see the little ones, mostly because they were Joshua's little brothers and anything having to do with Joshua made things complicated. For Logan, anyhow.

"Thanks for saving me some food," he told Wen as he got a plate ready, making a breakfast burrito. "I heard a rumor that you and Hunter are thinking of having some more little ones around. Something about Ever's sister?" he asked as he arched a brow and smiled a little at Wendell. "You're such a mother hen."

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	impotentwaffle 2011-07-21 04:40 pm UTC (link)
	Rumors, true or not, spread like wildfire among the pack. Wendell's mouth quirked up in a small smile as he nodded. "Yes. We're thinking of having her carry a baby for us. We were going to ask Tes, but can you imagine Tes pregnant? She'd kill us all." "And I'm such an omega. Though I suppose mother hen works too." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2011-07-23 12:34 am UTC (link)

Logan plopped down next to Wendell once he had a glass of orange juice in hand and his plate was ready, and he leaned over to give the older wolf a kiss on the cheek in thanks for the meal before he got settled.

"You're my favorite, next to Moon of course," he said as he shot Moon a half smile that was chalk full of charm. "And no - I cannot imagine Tes pregnant. That is a terrifying thought, actually. Did Lawson offer or did you two ask her?" he asked as he took a bite of his burrito.

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	impotentwaffle 2011-07-23 02:36 am UTC (link)
	Moon eyed Logan for a second and then went back to his book, which he wasn't really reading, just staring at the pages pointedly. Wendell smiled quietly and took a drink of the tea he'd made for himself. "It just sort of came about, I suppose. Right place, right time." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2011-07-23 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	Logan just offered a nod of his head before he finished his food, and once he was done he got up to rinse his plate and glass so that he could put them in the dishwasher. He went over to where Moon was sitting and held his hand out. "C'mon," he said with a little wiggle of his fingers. "Lets go sit on the porch, just you and me." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2011-07-23 10:16 pm UTC (link)

Moon especially liked it when it was just him and Logan. He could be selfish when it came to the other young man because he hadn't bonded with anyone as strongly as Logan. He was his rescuer and that meant a great deal to him.

"All right," he said as he tucked the book away and got up. He took his hand because touch was irresistable and once they were out on the porch, he sat very very close to him, nearly on his lap.

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crucio
2011-07-24 10:05 pm UTC (link)

Logan slipped out of his shoes and socks before he settled down on the porch swing, and he tugged Moon down along with him. He looped his arms around the boy's waist and brushed a kiss to the top of his head before he closed his eyes and sighed.

"You know how I found you and helped you, brought you here? I kind of did the same for Joshua in a way. So I'm the first wolf he connected with, and sometimes that makes things strained between us."

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-25 06:55 pm UTC (link)

Moon shook his head. "It's not because you were first. You connect with people because you are meant to." He'd picked up on the tension quickly enough and could easily match it with how he felt about Logan. It was there between Logan and Josh too.

He nudged even closer and sighed. "If you want to be with him; it's okay. I can share." He was jealous, but could be satisfied if he knew Logan was happy. "And if I could run with him and be his friend." Because it made sense that if Logan liked Joshua, then Moon would like him too. He was so desperate to belong that any company sounded good. "And as long as you still kiss me." He grinned and crawled onto his lap, straddling him.

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crucio
2011-07-25 11:14 pm UTC (link)

Logan wasn't sure what to say to all of that. He honestly hadn't expected Moon to be so sweet about it all, so... Understanding. It took him by surprise, but he liked it.

"I'm not sure that would work - he's got Andrew," Logan pointed out as he pressed his mouth against the hollow of Moon's throat. "And I have you - and it'd just be far too complicated. Don't you think?"

It wouldn't be fair. How Robin, Haben, Sullivan, and Austin all dealt with it - and now Noah was somewhere in there though he wasn't sure how the lion fit, it was just a feeling he got of attraction between Haben and him, really... he didn't know. Nor did he know how Ever, Vaughn, and Jacob did it - especially with Jacob having a baby, now.

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-27 02:09 am UTC (link)

"Andrew isn't a wolf," Moon pointed out plainly, having a good grasp on the idea of 'other.' He didn't dislike Andrew, hadn't spent enough time with him to dislike him, but he thought the man was terribly out of place. "It would work. It's not complicated at all. What would be complicated about it? I'm sure that Joshua would like me if he gave me a chance. That's why I wanted to go running with him."

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crucio
2011-07-27 04:18 am UTC (link)

"That doesn't mean that he and Joshua don't have their own connection, or that they don't love one another. Andrew wouldn't understand, that's the biggest issue - he's not like us and he wouldn't understand. He feels that Joshua needs to be loyal to him. You and I, we feel loyalty to each other and to the pack. Josh does too, but he's conflicted. That's why it's complicated," Logan explained as he slid his hands through Moon's hair.

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-27 04:38 am UTC (link)

The hand in his hair was distracting and comforting. He shut his eyes and sighed. He'd lived so long just trying to survive from day to day, not knowing what was wrong with him, that he had a good filter for things that didn't seem to matter.

But he also understood the feeling of jealousy. "Los seros humanos son complicados." It was almost as if he didn't feel human himself anymore. Sure, he was human-shaped, but his life had changed completely.

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	crucio 2011-07-27 04:51 am UTC (link)
	Moon's little remark caused Logan to arch a brow and he tipped his head to the side curiously. "And what does that mean? I got human and complicated, the rest is lost on me," he said with a faint smile. He had to admit that now he was debating shifting with Moon and running off into the woods to find Joshua. He wasn't sure what the hell would happen, though. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2011-07-27 05:20 am UTC (link)

"Just that they are." Meaning that humans were complicated. Even if Andrew was a mage, he was still more human than they were. Maybe it was a way of dealing with his kidnapping and what had happened to him. It was comforting to divide himself from the human race. He needed the distance from it.

"Wendell and Hunter would never share." The thought just occurred to him. In the short time that he'd known the two of them, it was easy to see that no one would ever be able to get in between that pair. "But they've been together forever, right?" Not true. Wendell had been gone from the pack for 8 years and while there had always been a spark there, Wen was much younger than Hunter and had only just acted on it when he'd returned after so long.

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crucio
2011-07-27 05:24 am UTC (link)

"No, Hunter and Wendell would never share," Logan agreed softly. "And no, they haven't been together forever. Wen went away for a long while, and then he came back. That's when things started. And he only came back a few years ago," he added as he closed his eyes. "Some of us can share, but most of the time it's a one on one thing. Like Pirate and Vance - they'll never share. Neither will Emmy or Basil. And I'm sure if anyone even looked at Casey, Sigmund would shift and eat them for dinner. I guess it just depends on the wolves and what connections they make, and how they choose to deal with those connections."

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	impotentwaffle 2011-07-27 05:35 am UTC (link)
	"So if Andrew wasn't around, you'd take both me and Joshua? We'd be yours?" It was like his own pretend family in the midst of his larger family. He needed a sense of belonging and he was already scheming ways to maybe break Joshua and Andrew up. Little did he know that actions like that would make Joshua dislike him even more. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2011-07-27 05:42 am UTC (link)

"No, that's not - Joshua is actually very dominant. He has a dominate side and it's hard for him to push that down for Andrew because Andrew has a dominant side, too. I couldn't just take Joshua. He'd have to want it, he'd have to want both of us," Logan explained.

In all honesty, he felt that the dominant issue was going to eventually create a huge rift between Andrew and Joshua if they didn't deal with it soon.

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-28 01:41 am UTC (link)

Hunter had explained a little about dominant and submissive types. Moon had naturally been afraid of the alpha, but once he got to know him, he'd felt an unending loyalty to him. Every part of his body and instincts knew that he was the leader. His boss and protector.

But the finer nuances of it escaped him and he wrinkled his nose. "I'm not dominant," he thought out loud. He needed to work things out vocally. "It feels like you are when we kiss. Like maybe I want you to push me down on the ground and be on top of me." Joshua just felt threatening but alluring. It was because he hadn't learned to control his alpha qualities.

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crucio
2011-07-28 02:45 am UTC (link)

Logan was the type of wolf who could be both dominant and submissive, it all really just depended on his mood and the other wolf he was with. He wanted to dominate Moon because that was just the connection they had, but with Joshua he wanted to submit. It was strange and sometimes unendingly frustrating. He had a feeling that Joshua could sense that in him, and that the idea that he could get Logan to submit if he wanted was dangerous because he'd like it far too much. It was one of the reasons why they just kept their distance, at least Logan figured.

"Sometimes I do push you to the ground," Logan laughed. "Joshua is more dominant than I am. Do you really think you'd be able to handle that from both of us?"

This talk was going to get him into trouble if he wasn't careful. It was all ready making him want things he knew he shouldn't want.

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impotentwaffle
2011-07-28 05:06 am UTC (link)

Moon popped up onto his feet. "You don't think I could handle the both of you? Wendell has been teaching me a few things. He says that the strongest branches yield. Do you know what that means? It means that my power is the way I can let others have the control they need." Wendell had easily seen the tendency in him and so was trying to help him find his place in the pack.

He held out his arms and spun around, looking up at the sky until he got dizzy and fell on purpose. "Take me for a run?" He begged.