Dr. Valini Morse (valini_morse) wrote in marvel_nextgen,
@ 2013-10-12 21:36:00

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Therapy with guerrilla tactics
Val walked through the hallway with the white "Thank You! Have a Nice Day!" bag swinging by her side, savory and tempting smells trailing behind it. She didn't mind fighting dirty when she needed to get her way, she had to crack a very tough shell before even getting to the hard part. Reaching the door marked "Hoskins, J", she settled herself and knocked on the door. Everyone knew where he was, seeing as he refused to go to anywhere else since the service.

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	battle_shield 2013-10-16 12:41 am UTC (link)
	"No, just choosing to be more insular in my work." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-16 12:45 am UTC (link)
	Not just a river in Egypt. "Thank you for being so devoted to your work but I am concerned about you and the way that this will spiral to something dangerous." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-16 12:49 am UTC (link)
	Josh sat back, though he was clearly not getting comfy. "And just what kind of spiral are you talking about?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-16 12:55 am UTC (link)
	"The kind that makes you a unhinged vigilante, sworn to avenge the impossible, or a brittle and paranoid agent who can't trust his skills or himself in fear of loss. Both tend to become withdrawn shells of their former selves." She paused for a moment. "I'd rather you talk it out instead of letting it fester and I'd hope you would too." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-16 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Josh took a pen in hand and idly twirled around his fingers. "What's the point of SHIELD?" he asked with deadpanned calm. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-16 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	Alright, she'd go along, hope it was useful. "That's a very complicated question but I suppose in the most general sense, SHIELD tries to keep us as a planet from exterminating ourselves in new and terrible ways." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-16 11:40 pm UTC (link)
	"Uh huh, would you say we have some of the best tech and best trained people on the planet?" He continued to speak in that cold tone. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-17 12:25 am UTC (link)
	"All the best tech in the world and best trained people can't help if they aren't allowed to do so," she replied lightly. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-17 12:28 am UTC (link)
	"Right, right. SO since we have all this tech, all this training, all this ability..why can some random assholes knock us out of the fucking sky!?" Josh snapped. "Why is it that in the end we still have to rely on the capes to save our asses!? We can't even look after our damned selves!" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

valini_morse
2013-10-17 12:41 am UTC (link)

She let the words come rushing out, let him start to vent. That was the point. "It wasn't random. It was a group of people who were focused specifically on attacking us. We have enemies, means we stand up for something and piss the bad guys off. And we look after ourselves day in and day out. Sometimes, as with the rest of life, shit hits us harder than we can handle for a moment."

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battle_shield
2013-10-17 12:50 am UTC (link)

"When I say 'random assholes' I mean whatever group at there that has the means can just plan something like this! Hell, we're not hard to find. It's not like our headquarters is secret. We're up in the damn sky!" Josh's hands grip his desk. "And people, good people, die all the time because because SHIELD keeps doing the same old shit! I..I don't remember how long I was down there..lifting debris, checking pulses..praying the next person I find isn't dead..." His grip loosened on the table, where he had inadvertently dug his fingers in enough to leave marks.

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valini_morse
2013-10-17 01:12 am UTC (link)

She tilted her head to the side, sympathetic and sad. "It's painful when compassion is used against you, it cuts worse than some blades and heals so much slower." With a breath, she paused. "You've brought up a lot of frustrations. We do a lot of 'the same old shit' because we are held responsible and accountable to the public. We hang out in the sky so the bad guys shoot at us because we are better targets than say, the crowds of civilians. Shields are meant to be battered but never fail."

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	battle_shield 2013-10-17 01:18 am UTC (link)
	Josh sighs, hand on his head, nodding in agreement, though he doesn't say anything. "I couldn't find her..no matter how long I looked. ..I should have been able to find her." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-17 01:31 am UTC (link)
	She nodded as he collapsed in his seat. "You tried, through. You put everything you had into looking for her. But, trying to find one in that mess?" She shook her head at trying to find one alive in a wreckage that size and how reasonable it really was. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-17 01:35 am UTC (link)
	"I couldn't even look Phil Coulson in the eye." He laughs bitterly. "You know it was Nikki he told me to confess to Lena?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-17 06:00 pm UTC (link)
	"No one could. I think Thor would have stuttered speaking to him." Ah, right the Lena kerfluffle. "She must have gotten tired of watching the water treading, and wanted the best for you." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-17 06:27 pm UTC (link)
	Josh didn't bring up how inconclusive that went. "She tried to be there for me..I couldn't do the same." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-18 12:08 am UTC (link)
	"She was there for you. And she knew how dangerous this job was, just as you do." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-18 12:24 am UTC (link)
	"I know that..realistically..but it doesn't stop me from thinking I could have done more. Looked harder, searched longer..I don't know." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-18 01:25 am UTC (link)
	She smiled at him softly. "If it were up to willpower alone, you would have sorted through that wreck and freed everyone in minutes. You did everything you could reasonably do and that's hard to accept." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-18 08:40 am UTC (link)
	"..Yes it is," he conceded after a moment. "but I'll try." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

valini_morse
2013-10-18 02:52 pm UTC (link)

"It will never go away. I'm sorry to say, though maybe not. " She shrugged her shoulder to dismiss her words. "If you feel like a leave would give you time to sort through yourself, it can be arranged." He seemed the kind who'd rather have his eyelashes waxed than take a leave. "I would recommend coming to terms with your emotions instead of burying them in work. How is up to you and it won't be overnight."

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	battle_shield 2013-10-18 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	Josh listened to all this though he honestly didn't know how. "..Do you have a recommendation?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-18 11:33 pm UTC (link)
	"You don't look like the bonsai-growing type." She tilted her head and considered for a moment. "Sometimes, a new hobby, a new outlet for focus works? A hike, out in the Nevadas or the Rockies, for a week to be cut off from distractions. Or do-" She paused and nodded. "Do something that reminds you of Nikki, in a positive light." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-19 12:14 am UTC (link)
	"I'll think on what you've said." He pauses. "Thanks, Val." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	valini_morse 2013-10-19 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	"Like I said, this isn't easy or over quick. But you know where I am and can always talk to me." She smiled sympathetically. "And thanks for taking that burger off my hands." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	battle_shield 2013-10-19 09:34 pm UTC (link)
	That actually got a laugh out of him. "Happy to be of service." (Reply to this)(Parent)

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