evanrosier (evanrosier) wrote in mudbloods,
@ 2013-06-18 04:40:00

It was very obvious that Lucius was working later and later and more hours a week than he normally had. Evan understood that Lucius had an important job and that he was also checking in on Merlin a bit and taking him groceries. Evan was thankful for this, of course, but he missed his husband. He was spending all his time alone in a flat because Rowan had decided he'd be staying with his mother. And Evan didn't have children of his own.

He was sitting alone and sulking to himself, reading a magazine he wasn't actually interested in when Luciius came in. Evan was unsure if he should even try to touch him. The last few times he'd tried to be intimate, the other man had told him he was tired and immediately went to bed. Evan ran his eyes over him, then looked back down at his magazine, feeling like bursting.

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	luciusmal 2013-06-18 08:19 am UTC (link)
	"It's as much your home as it is mine or Narcissa's or Thor's," Lucius said, shaking his head. "You helped choose it. We bought it together to raise our children in. I should leave. I deserve to leave." He got to his feet too, hovering behind Evan. "I love Draco too," Lucius said quietly. "I love both our sons." (Reply to this)(Thread)

	evanrosier 2013-06-18 08:23 am UTC (link)
	Evan shook his head at that. "Just shut up. I'm leaving." He told him, putting a few more things into a bag before he slung it over his shoulder. He didn't want to have this argument anymore. It was over. He looked back at Lucius. "After today, I'm not sure I could say you've ever loved or cared more about someone else as much as you love and care about yourself." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-18 08:34 am UTC (link)

Lucius didn't think that was fair. He did love Evan. He loved his children. But he was in no position to argue his case with Evan. It was over. "I'm sorry," he said again. "I'm so sorry, Evan."

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Lucius didn't know what to do. It was late, but once it became obvious that Evan wasn't going to change his mind and come back to him, staying in their bedroom and become unbearable. Attempting to sleep in the guest bedroom wasn't much better. Lucius put his clothes back on and headed out. He drove around London in the middle of the night for a while, eventually finding himself at Merlin's place.

He rode the lift up to Merlin's floor, knocking on his door. Lucius should go. He'd done enough damage. What if Draco was staying over?

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-18 08:44 am UTC (link)
	Merlin was by himself. Draco was not staying over and he hadn't heard from him all day. He was glancing at his phone every so often, but nothing. He ran a hand through his hair and looked up at the door when there was a knock. Maybe it was Draco. When he opened the door and saw Lucius, he smiled. "Hey. What are you doing here?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-18 08:50 am UTC (link)

Lucius didn't smile back. He really didn't feel like smiling. "Evan knows," he said. He walked into the flat, straight towards the bar so he could pour himself a large glass of scotch. "He left me. He's not going to tell Draco, before you ask."

He sat on the couch, running a hand through his hair. How could he have let this happen? Evan had come into his life right as he was getting over the lowest point of it. He'd made everything brighter. "Fuck." Lucius closed his eyes, feeling himself start to cry. "I should have lied to him. I was too stupid to lie."

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-18 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	Merlin didn't know what to do. He'd never seen Lucius cry before. He was having a little difficulty because he didn't feel bad about what they'd done. He did feel bad about Lucius, though. He chewed at his bottom lip. "What can I do?" Merlin asked him as he sat down on the couch. "What do you want to do?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	luciusmal 2013-06-18 09:43 pm UTC (link)
	Lucius shook his head, looking up at Merlin. "There's nothing I can do," he said. "It's over. Evan's not going to forgive me for sleeping with his nephew. He says he won't tell. We just have to hope that he doesn't." He held his empty glass out to Merlin. "You could get me another scotch. I need one." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	merlinsbeard 2013-06-18 10:49 pm UTC (link)
	Merlin got up and walked over, getting some scotch for Lucius. He wasn't sure how he was supposed to act or what he was going to say. He worried his lip and then sat back beside him. "At least he's not going to tell." Merlin told him quietly. "Are you mad at me?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-18 10:56 pm UTC (link)

"Mad?" Lucius repeated, taking the glass from Merlin. "Why would I be mad at you, Merlin? None of this is your fault. It's mine." He took a sip from his glass, wrapping an arm around Merlin and pulling him closer.

"I should have known better. You're young and you're new to being gay. I'm old enough to be your father." Lucius looked Merlin over. "There's just... something about you. Something about the way we are together."

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-18 11:21 pm UTC (link)
	Merlin nodded at that. He felt kind of nervous. He didn't want things with Lucius to end. He played with a bit of Lucius's hair and shrugged, trying to not look so upset. "I just... I don't know." Merlin told him. "I love being with you. I would stay with you if you'd have me." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	luciusmal 2013-06-18 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	Lucius looked down at Merlin, a bit surprised. "Would you?" he asked. "You're so young, Merlin. You should explore your sexuality." He leaned in and kissed Merlin softly. "I don't approve of you with Draco," Lucius confessed. "It made me jealous, walking in on the two of you together. He won't take care of you like I do." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	merlinsbeard 2013-06-19 12:35 am UTC (link)
	"You're sending me very mixed messages." Merlin admitted as he looked at Lucius. "Saying that you think I should explore my sexuality and in the same breath, telling me you were jealous of Draco and I." He touched Lucius's cheek and kissed him softly. "But, yes. I don't make a habit of saying things I don't mean." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	luciusmal 2013-06-19 12:44 am UTC (link)
	"I'm feeling very mixed up right now," Lucius told Merlin, giving him a rueful smile. "Being around you makes me want to both own you and help you make a space for yourself in the world." He brushed his fingers through Merlin's hair. "Let me stay there tonight? I can sleep on the couch if you don't want me in your bed." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	merlinsbeard 2013-06-19 12:54 am UTC (link)
	"You can sleep in my bed." Merlin told Lucius, kissing him softly. "I like when you're sleeping there with me. You don't hog the blankets and make yourself a blanket taco." He laughed softly against Lucius's lips, kissing him again. "Stay in my bed. Please." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-19 01:02 am UTC (link)

"If you insist," Lucius said, laughing softly. He finished off his glass of scotch and then picked Merlin up, carrying him into the bedroom. "I don't think I can fuck you tonight."

He put Merlin down, brushing a bit of hair out of his face. "But I do want to keep you company. Let's not talk about my son's sleeping habits while I'm here. He rolled himself up in his blankets when he was little too."

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-19 01:23 am UTC (link)
	"Okay. We won't talk about Draco." Merlin promised, then pressed their lips together. He looked up at Lucius, brushing a bit of his hair back, then kissed at his jaw. He just wanted to comfort him. "I'll understand if you don't want to be with me." Merlin told him. "But, I would be with you. I'd choose you." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-19 01:30 am UTC (link)

Lucius smiled at Merlin. It was nice to know he was wanted. He combed his fingers through Merlin's hair, kissing him again. "I don't deserve your affection, but I'll take it."

He pressed Merlin close to his chest, kissing him again. He ran his hands slowly up and down the boy's back. "I do want you, Merlin, but nineteen years is a long time to be with someone and have it end."

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-19 01:36 am UTC (link)
	"I know." Merlin told him quietly. "But, there was obviously unhappiness there if you wanted to be with me in the first place. You must have needed something different." He leaned in and kissed him again. "Do you still want to be with Evan?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-19 01:41 am UTC (link)

Lucius sighed when Merlin asked that question. "We hadn't been intimate for a while before I started sleeping with you," he told him. "I love Evan. I hate that I lost him and that I broke him the way I did. But I don't know what I want anymore."

He rolled onto his back, pulling Merlin onto his chest. "I think it might be you. I haven't been able to stay away for more than a day or so. I liked taking you out for lunch."

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	merlinsbeard 2013-06-19 01:54 am UTC (link)
	Merlin liked that Lucius had taken him for lunch. He nodded. "I liked going out to lunch with you as well. It was nice." He told him. "Even if you wouldn't let me pay." He brushed his lips against Lucius's chest. "Let's get you out of your clothes and into some pajamas. You had some clothes left over here." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

luciusmal
2013-06-19 02:00 am UTC (link)

"Of course I wouldn't let you pay. I make more money than you do. You'll be able to buy me lunch one day, but for now it's my treat," Lucius said, shaking his head and smiling at Merlin. "Your stubbornness is endearing."

He sat up, stripping off his shirt. "Get me whatever sleep clothes I left here. You probably have plans for tomorrow and I'm keeping you up. Only a couple more days before school starts."

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