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Cael Gray ([info]winsome_wizard) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2012-01-17 01:56:00


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Entry tags:cael gray, cecilia hooke

Cecilia
1983 was supposed to be a new year – he had it set in his mind that it would be different than 1982, seeing how the tail end of that year had been far crazier than he ever could have imagined. Ever since he had come back from Sweden, his days went from being mundane and boring to slightly overwhelming; all because of a beautiful girl he had met at a bar one night, who thought he was just another jackass who was trying to get into her pants. Truthfully he had been intrigued by her since the first moment his eyes landed on her, sitting all by herself on a stool, and that interest only intensified when he finally dared to buy her a drink and start a conversation with her.

If Cael had to be honest with himself, he had never imagined being so drawn to someone like her – someone who was so completely opposite, who had such different interests and points of view. In theory, they should have been disastrous together, especially when looking at their previous relationships, but somehow they just…worked. They worked better than he could have hoped.

Only she was engaged, and her family was chock full of elitist purebloods who spat (sometimes literally) at those who with even a drop of muggle blood in their system. If her parents knew, that despite being promised to another man she was living with him, they probably would have died of a heart attack. Cae felt the weight of the decision Cecilia had to make on his own shoulders, fearing that one day she was going to walk in the front door and tell him that she had made up her mind, and that she would be leaving in the morning to stay with her fiancé.

If he told anyone that he was living with an engaged woman, they would have called him crazy – that was why he hadn’t been to see Charlie, Delilah, or any of his friends since she announced her engagement. How was he supposed to explain that he was seeing this amazing, beautiful girl, but they couldn’t meet her because she might be married to some other guy at the end of the month? Maybe he was crazy, but he didn’t want to believe it. He needed to have faith that he had done everything to prove that he was the right choice, but in the end, it would all come down to Cecilia.

Squeezing the tennis ball that he had picked up from the ground, he tossed it across his backyard so that Karma could chase after it, pouncing on the little green ball before placing it between her teeth to bring back to her owner, so he could do it again. It was getting cold, but he had been home for a while, waiting for Cecilia to return from wherever she had run off to. He didn’t ask too many questions, since most of the time he was certain he didn’t want to know where she was going, or who she was talking to. He threw the ball again, slipping his hands into his pockets once they were both empty, letting out a breath that he could see in the cold air that surrounded him.

This was always the worst part of his nights – wondering when she was going to come back, if she would at all.



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[info]cecilias
2012-01-21 06:03 am UTC (link)
She knew what he had said, and yet for some reason the words didn't really register in Cecilia's mind for the longest of moments as the stood there wrapped up in his arms. She could have said that she was too lost in thought, but it wasn't that-- she had heard what he said when he said it. It was just, for some reason, a delayed reaction on her part. In fact, it may have taken her a full half minute to realize what was going on... And suddenly, she felt her heart stop out of nowhere.

Cecilia's head shot up, the most sincere look of surprise and bewilderment painted on her face. There was no doubting that she had genuinely not been expecting that, of all things, to come out of Cael's mouth at that moment. After all, I love you was not easy to say, right? That's what she knew from all the time she'd spent fighting with a certain Evan Rosier about why he wouldn't. Of course he had finally confessed, but that had been a very long time after they had started dating, which was apparently how it was supposed to be. So... this, now? What was this?

"I--" It was a rare sight to see her so stunned and lost for words. Cecilia prided herself on her general ability to retain composure in many situations, but she felt utterly thrown through a loop here. She didn't even have time to worry about if she reciprocated the feelings -- or think about that. She hadn't even thought about it before, how was that? -- All she knew was that he had said it and there was simply no possible way...

"You-- Are you sure?" she ventured, looking straight up at him, like a child looking to her father in expectation of some new wonderful toy. She wasn't being scrutinizing... just flabbergasted. Amazed. Her heart felt like it was doing flips inside her chest. No, it wasn't a bad emotion at all, it was just that... He really was the opposite of Evan, if he truly meant that. "I mean-- really?"

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[info]winsome_wizard
2012-01-21 06:36 am UTC (link)

He would have been full of shit if he tried to say that waiting so long for a reaction from her didn’t feel like an eternity, and that his stomach hadn’t done at least a dozen nervous flips. He had never actually said those words to a woman before, since he had always been under the impression those weren’t words to say unless you actually meant them. He had thought maybe he had been there before, with other women – he thought he had been there before with Cecilia, during certain moments – but he was finally sure of himself now. He wasn’t sure what he would have done with himself if she had come back with different news, but the amount of relief he felt when she told him that she wasn’t going anywhere, despite the consequences, that was impossible to ignore.

When she pulled away to look up at him, his brows lifted slightly. Was she upset? No, she didn’t look sad, she looked…confused, and her questions only confirmed his suspicions. He stood there, watching the way a word like ‘love’ affected her. It really was amazing, how much power came from one small, monosyllabic word. He almost couldn’t help the way his lips twitched into a subtle smirk as his hand moved behind her neck, drawing her in towards him.

“C’mere…”

Instead of verbally confirming that he meant what he said, he decided it would be more effective if he kissed her in a way that would make it impossible for her to think he was just messing with her.

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[info]cecilias
2012-01-21 07:14 am UTC (link)
Oh.

Well, that was difficult to argue with.

Cecilia felt like her heart would leap out of her chest and it was the very strangest thing. It wasn't like this last time. Not just the circumstances, but the atmosphere and the emotion was wholly different from the last time a man had told her he loved her. And really, she couldn't quite get a grasp around that, because neither time did she feel anything less than elated. But with Evan, emotion was always hard-fought and painful. The end was worth the fight, but the fight was draining and had left her exhausted. With Cael, it was just... easy. It was simple, like reading off a well-established fact. 'I love you. Oh, and did you know the sky is blue?'

That was just so freeing, in so many ways. She had this room to breathe with him that she hadn't experienced before, because things were just what they were and there was no skipping around the idea until both sides were spent and had nearly given up.

It struck her just then: everything Cecilia had thought up until this point was an impregnable wall in the face of their being together was all in her imagination. She had been making this hard, when really it had been so clear-cut all along. She had turned into exactly what had caused her so much frustration in Evan, and been the one who was locking her own heart up in a glass box and refusing to realize that things could be easy if she just let them be.

Of course, her parents, her friends, the disgrace she'd caused herself-- none of that had been easy. But how much strife could she have saved them both if she had just refused her parents from the beginning? She must have known all along that she couldn't marry this other man when she felt such peace waking up next to Cael Gray every morning. What had taken her so long? How was it that she had managed to become so hopelessly scared and lost when she had such a good thing right in front of her?

Feeling altogether renewed by her realization, Cecilia reached a hand up to hold his cheek, cold from the winter air, and pushed back against him fiercely. She didn't let go for the longest time, until she was absolutely forced to come up for air-- even then she went back for one more, lingering kiss. When she finally pulled back for good, she was smiling. Really smiling, for the first time in years.

"I love you too," she breathed out at once. A second ago she hadn't known what she felt, but she said it with such a rock solid certainty now. There was no mistaking that this was what this was. "I really, really love you too."

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