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Hunter (Lavi: Crow) ([info]acrowlikerabbit) wrote,
@ 2011-08-20 19:56:00


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[Chase stared at the parallel bars set up in front of him, his wheelchair pointed toward one of the open ends of it. He was supposed to be waiting for a nurse or some kind of spotter before doing this but the Crow couldn't stand being in the damn wheelchair a moment longer. He hated being helpless like this and having to rely on others for so much of what he used to be able to do on his own.

A glance at the door and he put the locks on the wheels, grabbing both bars as his feet set on the ground. It felt odd, the floor under his bare feet again and Chase looked down at them only to give a rueful laugh. They looked pale and weak, but he hadn't lost much muscle mass in his legs which was something he was thankful for. His arms he needed to tone again what with not being able to lift weights because of his ribs. At least he could do that now in his wheelchair, the doctors said his ribs were as good as new again but to lay off doing any squats with them for a few more months.

But he dallied long enough, hoisting himself up onto his feet and pushed up with them as well. Immediately they started to give, knees buckling and hurting. Chase bit back a curse and pulled himself up again, arms shaking with the effort but he managed to support his weight long enough to lock his knees. Even if he was panting with the effort.]

Ha... This'll be longer than I thought...


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[info]contravene
2011-09-29 03:58 am UTC (link)
[Until Chase actually asks, and Allen tenses up, his fingers curling slightly in the Crow's sweater. Oh, god. How did Chase know? Had someone told him? Had Lavi told him? And if not... did it mean that the Fourteenth had been out again, and Allen hadn't even been aware of it..?]

...I've only told one person.. I didn't even tell Lavi. [ ... ] He only found out because he met him...

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-29 04:53 pm UTC (link)
[All the awkward, he gets it. And yeah, that's why he could never do it to Allen. He deserves better.

Slowly Chase curls his fingers between the gaps made by Allen's, holding onto his hand. But it's never anything that the vampire could easily pull away from if he wanted to.

The redhead closes his eyes, thinking back on the interaction.] It was a dream, I think. Soon after I got injured.

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[info]contravene
2011-09-29 09:22 pm UTC (link)
[Damn right he does. Allen would be so upset if Chase left.

Allen actually relaxes a little at that, though not entirely. Still tense and rigid against Chase, but he's not clutching at his sweater anymore.]

...What did he tell you?

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-29 11:10 pm UTC (link)
[Chase is quiet for a little, then the hand holding Allen's tightens and the one on his back shifts to his hip to hold just as tight. When he speaks it's as if it's the most terrible thing ever, because it is.]

That he could take you away easier than I'd like. That... [He hesitates, knowing how much Lavi means to Allen.] That Lavi is abusing your kindness... [And the hold on Allen loosens, so that he can leave if the words upset him.] Until one of you can't stand it anymore.

[Turning his head away from Allen.]

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[info]contravene
2011-09-29 11:55 pm UTC (link)
[Allen goes quiet as well, just waiting for his answers. For Chase to tell him what on earth was going on, what he should think of this... and he actually relaxes a little at the first thing, his thumb stroking over Chase's chest gently.] I'm not going to let him do something like that... [He wouldn't let the Fourteenth take him away. Not from Chase, not from Lavi-- no one, not ever.

Allen doesn't leave - but he sits up almost immediately. Not pulling away from the hands that Chase has on him, but staring down at him whether Chase is looking at him or not. His reaction is almost instantaneous, immediate.] Lavi isn't abusing anything.

[...maybe a little too quick.]

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 12:06 am UTC (link)
[Keeping his head turned away, eyes closed as he feels Allen move.] I told him that you were stronger than he thought and he just laughed at me.

[Again, that tightness, but the feeling is more of being hurt than anything else. He knew that Allen wouldn't see it that way but...] I'm just telling you what he said to me.

I told him off, that if that was the case then you'd both have someone nearby to pick up the pieces. And he kept saying that the ones closes to you couldn't seem to make themselves do a damn thing. Even after I told him that you'd always have a choice and I'd never force your hand.

[Even with all his words, Chase seems suddenly so distant.] How come you never told me about him, Allen?

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 12:19 am UTC (link)
[...Allen's expression falls, though Chase can't see it if he isn't looking. The Fourteenth was right to laugh at that, wasn't he? ...He wasn't strong. He wasn't strong at all. Back when the Fourteenth had been dragged out by that Rhode, he'd been so terrified and there had been so much in his head... he wouldn't have come back out again if Whitey hadn't brought him out.

He doesn't like the distance, though. Doesn't want it. Allen hesitates, before laying his head down on Chase's chest, fingers tangling lightly in his shirt again.]

...I found out about him just after I turned. I always knew, but... he was never real until then. [ ... ] I was afraid... I thought you wouldn't want me around you and Seren anymore.

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 12:31 am UTC (link)
[But at least Chase thinks that he's strong in some ways if not the ways he wants to be strong. And now he has reasons to fight against it, against being taken over by Fourteenth.

Chase doesn't pull away and that's probably the most important thing? Instead the hand on his hip moves up to tangle in his hair as his head moves back into alignment with the rest of his body.]

He showed me how she did it... I'm sorry, Allen. [His lips brush the vampire's forehead. But he'll be able to feel the bit of guilt, because back then that's what would have happened.] Back then...yeah, I would have asked you to stay away. Now... I'm afraid I can't let you go.

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 12:58 am UTC (link)
[He always had reasons to fight it. It's just that at the time... it was too much. All his fighting nearly drove him too far for him to come back from.

It definitely is. Allen stiffens again as Chase says that, eyes squeezing shut, but... that isn't because of Chase. It's the memory; it still gave him nightmares, still terrified him, nearly a year later. Maybe even more so now that Whitey wasn't really here anymore... couldn't pull him out again.

Even back then, he knew Chase well. Well enough to know that having a Fourteenth in his head meant he would be utterly shunned. But his eyes open again when Chase says that, and Allen turns his face slightly to hide it against his chest.] ...then what do we do?

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 01:12 am UTC (link)
[Maybe next time it'll be different.]

I'm sorry, Allen. I don't like poking around in people's heads, but it was either go in or he'd force me.

[But now... Now he had mostly gotten past his rage with Fourteenth's death, with the end of the war in his own home. Other ones didn't bother him as much now because he knew he had sanctuary in his own home when he went there. Let them do what they liked to him in the DR, it wouldn't go home with him, he'd just carry on.

Chase takes a deep breath, both hands now moving to wrap around him protectively as he lets it out.] I don't know... He doesn't come out all that often. I'll protect you as best I can, Allen. I promise.

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 01:46 am UTC (link)
[He'd rather there not be a next time. Allen shakes his head though, just a little. He doesn't mind that Chase saw... not really, at least. Not in the long run.

Allen relaxes even more until he's just... resting against Chase; and his posture speaks of just being tired. Of wanting all this shit that keeps happening to him to just... stop. But it never does.]

...Don't get yourself hurt if you do. Promise?

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 01:48 am UTC (link)
[He knows how Allen feels, everything coming at once, one after the other... It never lets you catch your breath and heal. But that's why he has Chase, a safe haven to run to and hide away for a while.]

I can't promise that. But I'll try. [Getting hurt is part of battles. Even if he has to restrain Reseteenth until Allen can take back over, he will.]

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 03:05 am UTC (link)
[It's true, as much as Allen forgets to think of it in that way. Chase is the only place he has to hide now, and even that... it's no good when he just ends up hurting Chase because of it.]

...I wish you could. [If someday, he came back from being trapped in his head only to find Chase hurt because of him... how could he live with that?]

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 03:14 am UTC (link)
[Allen would still have a place there even if they were having the fight of the century, he's told Allen it's his home and he means it. If Chase has a problem, then he'll be the one to leave and only for a few hours to let steam out in the gym.

Brushes his lips to Allen's forehead again.] 'll try a'least. [By saying he's home and hugging Chase no matter what the Crow's injuries are.]

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 03:31 am UTC (link)
[Chase really is too good to him. Allen doesn't really know what to do with it most of the time...]

I know. [They'd be very careful hugs. :c And Chase would probably need to half lay on Allen for awhile. Allen hesitates for a moment, just staying quiet, before he half sits up. And he leans down to catch the Crow in a very brief little kiss - though he lingers in it, even if otherwise it's an entirely innocent sort of kiss. Then he brushes his fingers over Chase's cheek, just looking down at him quietly.]

...thank you.

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 03:21 pm UTC (link)
[Because he doesn't know how to hold back... Aiden got everything he could give and it hurt when he lost that. But now he's not afraid to give the same to Allen because he knows it'll be better this time.

He might. But he only would if Allen's ribs were fixed. Chase opens his eyes this time when Allen pulls away, slipping closed again at the kiss, hand coming up to cup his cheek. They open again after the kiss, a kiss that he manages to keep from chasing just barely.

Thumb lightly rubbing Allen's cheek as well.] I [love you] care 'bout ya a lot, Allen. 's no' gonna change tha' easily.

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[info]contravene
2011-09-30 07:08 pm UTC (link)
[He's doing a decent job of holding back right now, if that counts for anything. Always resisting, always holding back, always keeping himself relatively in check. It's a hell of a lot better than Allen's doing.

The ribs are only on one side, you know. He has a whole other side, free for the abusing. But after the kiss Allen leans their foreheads together, letting out a light little hum. A small, small little smile tugging at his lips. He doesn't hear the unspoken words - not in Chase's tone, at least. But he can hear it in the way his body shifts, in the way he feels about it. The little noises that tell him... that Chase loves him.]

I know... [He leans down for another kiss, a quicker one this time.] ...It won't change that easily for me, either. [Not in a way that Chase wouldn't want it to, anyway.]

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-09-30 07:19 pm UTC (link)
[That holding back is different. That's physical but his emotions are free to love Allen as much as he possibly could. Physical just...has to wait until they date a few more times.

Are they now? Chase still might recommend sometime soon that he get them rebroken while he's a vampire. Damn you, body. Always a tattletale, but in this case Chase doesn't mind it too much. Like Allen he's not quite ready again to say those words aloud, right now isn't the right time to confess again. And he'd like to confess properly...perhaps after a fifth date after they finish the first one.

Chasing after that one briefly, at least wanting to make it longer. He hums and smiles, stroking Allen's hair.] You should go find something to eat soon, I mean it Allen. [You worry him when you don't eat properly. Even if Chase doesn't quite want him to leave just yet. Never minding he doesn't want Allen to leave at all.]

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[info]contravene
2011-10-02 03:05 am UTC (link)
[Allen isn't always sure he knows the difference anymore. Sometimes he thinks he does, and other times.... it all gets mixed up and warped with this vampirism thing.

They are~ just one side of mucked-up ribs, and it's only a few of them. It isn't like his entire rib-cage is damaged. He might... it's hard to say how he'll react to potentially being in a hospital like that right now. After a fifth one... that doesn't sound too bad, though.

And he'll let Chase do exactly that, though Allen never moves to deepen it. That seems too far out of the boundaries that they've set up, to him.] I'll find something when I leave... [But he didn't need to now. Nor did he particularly want to. He'd rather stick around - though he can't stay, because Lavi will worry if he does.]

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[info]acrowlikerabbit
2011-10-02 03:13 am UTC (link)
[At least Allen has a reasonable explanation for it and not to mention he's a baby in the eyes of vampires. His restraint isn't supposed to be all that good in those areas.

Then he might lay down on the other side. If it at all becomes necessary. But as for staying in the hospital, they'd only stay long enough for the breaks to be set and the cast put on before Chase would end up wheeling him out to take care of him. ♥ Confession will do. By now he also has his tattoos and can walk normally, if still slowly.

Chase rubs his thumb against Allen's cheek and nods.] Alright then... [Though he's not sure what Allen wants to do until it's time for him to leave.]

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