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I think I'm heading for a nervous breakdown. My stomach hurts all the time, along with my cramps. I'm tired and nothing seems to wake me up, no matter how much coffee I drink, I just get shaky and sick. I cry at the drop of a hat. I have no patience, bad judgement, and generally just want to be alone or with Andy & Gizmo. My sister isn't talking to me (little sister, Lynds) since the laptop fiasco. She won't answer my calls, which is nothing new. I don't approve of her supposed-to-be-but-she-won't-leave-his-ass ex-husband who beat her, so since she is still seeing him (they're separated.. yeah, right) she won't talk to me. Whatever. I've always treated my sister with respect, never told her what to do or played the 'big sister' card, until now when she might actually be in real danger. Now we don't speak. Maybe I should have smashed a glass over her head or sprained her knee and put her in the ER like he did.. that's what it takes to stay in her life now. *smashes fist into wall*

I'm trying to be zen, but this sucks. It makes me hypersensitive to the BS that I shouldn't give a second thought to. I keep having the urge to move away but my life always follows me.