The one certainty in life is that nothing is certain. You never know everything, and just when you begin to think you do, something else happens that re-teaches you everything you thought you already knew.

Right now, I am taking 'BOYFRIEND 101'. Apparently, the last bazillion times, I wasn't paying close enough attention. My friend calls him 'Mr. Wonderful', and he is wonderful, but I have learned so much from him that I am more inclined to call him 'The Professor' and so I guess that will be his name, for the purpose of this journal, anyway.

So, The Professor and I were talking about relationships, what makes them go wrong or right, and how to stop it when it starts to go into the spin. We talked about how we both felt that this relationship was very different than those from our pasts. I realized that I have become so caught up in the concept of being in love that I had forgotten to actually feel it. I was too busy trying to control every aspect of it that I missed the very point of being in love, which is just to simply enjoy eachother. The Professor said something that really made me think ... he said, "it is less about how we feel about eachother, and more about how we make eachother feel." I am learning that sometimes you can see a totally different ball game from another seat in the stadium. So many people love eachother, but don't like eachother. They love someone who only provides them with more suffering and pain. They don't want to love them. They don't feel good about it, but at some point they fell, and couldn't get themselves back up again. That's not the kind of love I want.

I thought I had it all figured out ... why people hurt eachother, why we disregard eachother in so many ways. In the end, though, it begins and ends with this one thing: it isn't about finding someone who is perfect. It's about finding someone who is perfect for you. You have to find the right person from the start, because if you don't, no amount of changing and rearranging on anyone's part will make it right.