Okay, just talking to Andy and Jamie about all this drama, and I had another thought...

Even if there was no order, even if she could come up to me and say "hi, how are you, blah, blah, blah, more nonsense and lies," why would I WANT to talk to her??? After everything she wrote and said about me and to me before she even knew about the order, why on earth would she think I would have anything at all to say to her?!? And after the "queen of the castle of shit" comments, she actually thinks I'd want to talk to her? She is fucking crazy.

And after all she's said about how she wants me out of her life, now she wants to chit-chat? After everything she has put me through these past few months, and really ever since I met her, does she think I'd really have anything to say to her besides 'get the fuck out of my face'?

Her deranged mind used to fascinate me. Now that I realize how truly psychotic she is, it scares me. Hence, the reason for the order of protection. My horoscope said Thursday would be my lucky day. I pray to whatever gods are listening that it's true.