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brenda ([info]lastbeautifool) wrote,
@ 2008-07-21 02:11:00


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coming and going.
wanderings and wonderings about past characters.  feel free to disregard.

it's not like i like getting rid of characters. really. but there have been several characters that i've brought in since the beginning of pierian springs who, though i love them deeply, haven't worked out for one reason or another. among these are whitney walters (walt whitman), jeff chaucer, james barrie and now dante alighieri and angie hughes (langston hughes). they're people who, while adored, just aren't used as much as i feel like i should be using them. i want to keep them, but i feel like a negligent mommy when i do that. it's odd, because there was nothing in particular that i disliked about any of them. nothing at all, really.

it's quite sad.

i imagine that whitney is probably in new york spouting off poems at poetry slams and sleeping with rock stars and vandalizing eco-unfriendly vehicles. jeff is, i'm sure, living with lucy montgomery, if they aren't married yet. they're probably in a little apartment somewhere close to one of their parents' places, where lucy plants flower boxes and works at a bakery and jeff is taking college classes and works in a comic book shop. james is probably back in his tiny town in scotland, surrounded by nieces and nephews and going to the local pub to tell outlandish stories most every night. dante will find his way to a big city and scrounge out a living and live in a crappy apartment until he gets a break as an editorial columnist for the new yorker, butchering politicians and celebrities and world society as a whole. angie will go back to harlem, where she will raise hell like she always does.

poe is a different story. when poe was created, i was in love with him. i adored him and i wrote him whenever possible. and then i fell out of love in some ways. poe became my whipping boy. i refused to let him be happy and he was involved with too many people to drag them down with him, so he needed to go.

some characters are a bit hollow, a bit distant from us, no matter how much we love them and want them to work. other characters are too close to our hearts, too real, too fleshed-out.

strange how that goes.

either way, things come and things go. maybe someday a new version of one of those characters will come back. or maybe all of the old characters who i started this crazy ride with will be set aside and all new ones will come in. you never know.  


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[info]colourexplosion
2008-07-21 10:39 am UTC (link)
I love all your characters! Really! I just think you (and everyone else) are absolutely wonderful. Your characters always seem to have something extra special that I really admire.

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[info]ow_mybrain
2008-07-21 07:35 pm UTC (link)
Isn't it strange how that happens? When you fall in love with something and then somehow become totally disenchanted by it? Or the opposite, when you make something you're not quite crazy about but end up loving it? It's weird how our little minds work.

At least you give your characters up when you feel like you're not playing them enough. I just hold onto mine and never use them. Miller goes a loooong time between scenes sometimes. (I think he secretly hates me.)

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[info]derkins
2008-07-21 08:43 pm UTC (link)
i think it's admirable how you know when to say goodbye. like liz, i keep holding on thinking (hoping) i'm not as bad a mommy as i think i am, and Something will happen, soon.

there are a few characters i think i need to say goodbye to, but sometimes i can't determine whether it's because i really have to or i really want to. i guess both are a good enough reason to do it, but still.

lend me your courage brenda. D:

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