ed mcmillan (likeatree) wrote,
@ 2011-08-22 22:29:00

Sunday January 21, 2011 7:35pm
~~Girlfriend? GIRLFRIEND? Why the fuck is she still dating that douche?~~

Private to Ashleigh

You're still seeing Aaron?

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	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	Then what are you saying? ~~Spell it out for me if you think I'm so dense~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	I want you... just you... for always. ~~I want you to love me the way~~ ~~I want you to love me the way I've always loved you.~~ Like... this is it... there's no turning back... just us... forever. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	I couldn't settle for anything less with you, Ash. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	Okay? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	Re: Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	Well, that's what I want. That's what I've always wanted. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	Always? Why didn't you say something? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Re: Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:18 pm UTC (link)
	You lived in Georgia. It didn't make sense. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:19 pm UTC (link)
	I haven't lived in Georgia for months, baby. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:23 pm UTC (link)
	You've had other things to deal with. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	That's not reason not to be honest with me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	I wasn't being dishonest. I just wasn't forcing you to deal with my over active hormones and emotions. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	Keeping something from me is being dishonest, regardless of your reasons. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:42 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know what you want me to say, Ed. I didn't think you would ever want me, so I didn't say anything. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	You should have told me. This isn't going to work if I can't trust you to be honest with me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 07:52 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know what you want me to say. I've lied to you very few times in my life. If you can't overlook the fact that I let my self-consciousness get the better of me... I don't know. Until recently, I had no reason to believe that you would ever want a girl like me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	You said you didn't tell me because I was dealing with a lot. Now you say it's your self-consciousness. Which one of those was a lie? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	They're both true. Originally, I didn't tell you because you lived in Georgia. You've had a lot to deal with since you moved here. I didn't want to make matters worse by throwing myself at you... especially when I didn't think you could ever want a girl like me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Re: Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 08:09 pm UTC (link)
	But that's not the whole reason you didn't tell me, so it was still a dishonest statement. You have to tell me the whole truth, Ash. How am I supposed to keep trusting you, otherwise? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Ed/Ash

girlnextdoor
2011-08-23 08:14 pm UTC (link)

Fine, Ed.

You want to hear how I've been in love with you since I developed hormones? How I never thought you could love me because I'm not pretty enough or smart enough or WHATEVER ELSE enough? You want me to tell you how my mother taunts me and tells me that you could never love me... that I'll never compare to the skanks you spend your time with? How I cried myself to sleep after I watched you press Libby against the side of her car and kiss her like... well, like you'd been ~~doing what you'd been doing~~ fucking? Want to hear about how Dari practically attacked me to show me that I'm desirable because I didn't think that YOU could ever want someone like ME?

Is that honest enough for you?

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	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	If that's the truth, then yes. ~~Are you INSANE?~~ If you'd told me you felt that way, I could have told you no one could begin to compare to you. Someone like YOU? How could I possibly love anybody ELSE? Libby.. everyone else.. was a distraction. I was using them. I didn't want to use you the same way. I didn't want to risk losing you just to get off. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Ed/Ash

girlnextdoor
2011-08-23 08:37 pm UTC (link)

It's all true.

Alright. I'll be sure to rush right out there the next time you have Libby pinned against the side of her car. I'll tell you that you might as well punch me in the stomach because that's what it feels like when I have to watch you with her or anyone else.

You didn't want to risk losing me. I didn't want to risk losing you.

And... if you had feelings for me, you should've said something.

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	Ed/Ash likeatree 2011-08-23 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	There's not going to be a next time. Not if I have you. I didn't know. Not until I kissed you. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Ed/Ash girlnextdoor 2011-08-23 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	I'm yours, Ed. I've always been yours. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)