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The horse show last week was amazing. I know I didn't write anything or tweet very much, but that's what happens when you've got a lot of things to do haha. I definitely had an awesome time. There were a couple photographers theres, so I'll see if I can find some pics of me and I'll post them up.

So a little drama happened. My ex-boyfriend, Brian, who I kind of still like came down and surprised me. He brought flowers and horsey stuff and was there each morning and all day when I was riding, and when I wasn't we hung out. So the issue is he wants to get back together with me and I want to also, but I'm so afraid he's going to pull another I'm busy with school and exams and breakup with me again. On Friday night we had a good long talk, basically he broke up with me because he thought he wasn't giving me the amount of time and attention he thought I deserved and thought I deserved to be with someone a lot better then him. That was because he was all stressed out over his finals and exams and such...I dunno, if it was me that made him think that or something. I don't know, but I was really happy with him and I totally understood he had a lot going on, so I was trying to be as not needy and clingy as possible. I dunno, I think we both had some bad communication on both our parts. So he ended up spending the nights in my room, but I made him sleep on the floor, I didn't think we were at the sleeping in the same bed yet...if that even ever happens...I really don't know what to do...I like him a lot, I just don't like how he broke it off, without even talking to me first you know...I don't know what will happen to us...we'll see...

So I got home this morning around 10 or so...kind of just hung out for a bit. Talked with raf  and ltdan  and then I took a nap. I had a dream that I was Baird from GoW and that I had a chainsaw dual with someone who was "playing" Marcus. Weird I know...then I had a dream about me fingering myself?! Dunno where that came from, but it happened haha.

Just chatting with Chris now. I think my parents are coming over, and we're doing some BBQing in a little bit. Yum!!

One of my summer classes starts tomorrow. I'm really excited...even though it is online. I tried logging in today, but the class still isn't showing up. Hopefully it does by tomorrow. Haha. Japanese class starts in July. I'm really psyched for that one.

So, jimmy  found out that Dreamwidth is OS. So we're looking to set that up. Maybe start a new invite-only, special, elitist journaling site with that. It'll be pretty private if we do get it running...we're installing a couple servers too run it on at the moment, only testing. If we like it we'll go live with it. We're also actively working on fixing the polls in the RTE and getting rename tokens working!

I hope everyone had a wonderful past week and a lovely weekend...and have a wonderful upcoming week!!

xooxx