Ginny (theweasleygirl) wrote,
@ 2008-02-01 21:55:00

Have you sometimes ever felt that...no matter what you say or how well you say it, nothing you say is heard?

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	theweasleygirl 2008-02-02 04:15 am UTC (link)
	Oh, just a bit contemplative. Private to Neville Just...frustrated. But I feel hamstrung: I don't want to gossip or talk out of turn. Oi, Neville. Why can't we just magically fix things in our lives and not just reparo to broken eyeglasses and teacups? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	lonqbottom 2008-02-02 04:18 am UTC (link)
	I reckon that's both good and bad. Private to Ginny If only it were that easy, yeah? But I suppose we wouldn't...learn anything, or whatever that saying is. Does someone make you feel like you're talking out of turn? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 04:29 am UTC (link)

Yeah. It's good to plumb the depths now and again, but what you find sometimes...

Private to Neville
I said something like that to...one of these people. It's just--why do the people I love most in this world seem--

Well. Except you, hon. And one or two others of my dearests. But just...I worry. I think I'm saying the right things to help...I don't know, it never seems to improve. What more can you do?

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	lonqbottom 2008-02-02 04:33 am UTC (link)
	Sometimes you wonder if you're going mental when you find something wonky. Private to Ginny There's only so much you can do, Gin. Sometimes just words are all that can you can give, and sometimes there's more you can...though I reckon the former is most common. And finish what you were going to say...why do the people you love most...? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

Neville

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 04:52 am UTC (link)

You bloody know it.

I just feel helpless more days than not. How powerful can mere words be when you're too scared to hear what someone is telling you? I suppose. Maybe I'm reaching too far to make a point. I might be out of my depth here, I'm not Hermione, wise and wonderful, or so good with matter of the heart like you are. Oi, Nev, I wish I had the way you relate to people. Maybe then I could...

...fix Harry. And others. I don't know. Oi! Maybe I should go bang a quaffle for a while. Those don't talk back, yeah?

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Ginny

lonqbottom
2008-02-02 05:01 am UTC (link)

You are wise, Ginny. That's what makes you who you are, and that's what makes us all adore you the way we do. You're brilliant, you have to believe that. ~~You're making be blush~~ I'm no good with words, you know that, and you know that you're the one who's helped cheer me up loads of time.

I don't think any of us can fix Harry. He needs to fix himself. But what you're doing and giving him, what he really needs, is exactly what's going to help him completely fix himself. He loves you, you know.

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Neville

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 05:12 am UTC (link)

I love you, Nev. Up and down and diagonal. You are too sweet and generous for someone as profane as I can be. Big hugs. Big biggest.

Harry, I love him ways that haven't been named yet. Ways and shapes...bloody Merlin and his five cats, that boy has stolen my damn heart. Maybe this is just what being in love is? This constant ache I have, wanting to take all of his pain for him? I don't know. I certainly can't ask any of my sodding brothers. Percy would send me seven scrolls of research...Fred and George would be quite disappointed in me for going soft.

I know he loves me. It's the best feeling in the world. ~~Do you feel that way for Linda?~~

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Ginny

lonqbottom
2008-02-02 05:20 am UTC (link)

Did I do something good? I suppose I was just being honest, though I certainly can't complain with the love that comes from being honest. More people would benefit from knowing this. And you know I love you, of course, ~~even if it's still hard to say things like that~~ ever since before I can remember!

I don't know much, but I know that that makes a lot of sense, Ginny. It really does. It's like...I love my mum and dad too, yeah, and I wish I could take away their pain and problems and make them my own so they could know what it's like to be together again, you know? I reckon...that is what love is. But you're helping him more than you know. And there's nothing wrong with going soft, either.

Is it, really?

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Neville

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 05:30 am UTC (link)

Your honesty is just such a gift. It really is. Especially since it's always so sincere.

I know that you...don't fall in love with your parents, so maybe this isn't apt exactly, but...my mum always said: they call it falling in love for a reason, because love is painful, too. There's so much vulnerability attached to offering your heart to someone else. Broken hearts and all. I think selflessness is one of the most precious parts to being in love--it's why the girl that is blessed to have you love her will be so lucky, since you are one of the most selfless people I know.

It is. It is.

When Harry is near me, I feel like I can fly, without my broom. Everything is a bit brighter because I love him. It's magic without the wand. It's bigger than anything I can say or know.

And that's not just soft. That's me being a bloody prat girl about it! Oi, not typical Ginny there at all.

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Ginny

lonqbottom
2008-02-02 05:41 am UTC (link)

It's hard to lie. I always feel funny when I have to lie.

Your mum is such a fantastic woman, and I believe everything she says. I believe that, even if I don't fully understand it. Perhaps one day I will understand every last word of it like you do. Now you're really making me blush, Gin, I'm surprised I haven't knocked my bottle of ink over yet. ~~Do you think Linda~~

Wow. That's just...I dunno, brilliant, Ginny. ~~I want that~~

I like all forms of Ginny, personally.

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Neville

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 05:54 am UTC (link)

I don't...understand it all, I wish I did. Maybe if I did, I wouldn't...be fighting my better angels and wicked sides of me all the time when it comes to what I do with Harry when he's struggling like this. Or what to do with what I feel...what I want...it pushes me in some directions I'm not sure I'm ready for...or that I can't wait for...oh it's all just such a rush and it comes out in a jumble.

Anyway. You...cannot knock over your ink! It will happen...maybe it...is?

And I like all forms of Neville, too.

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Ginny

lonqbottom
2008-02-02 06:00 am UTC (link)

But then if there was nothing to fight, then life would be boring. No learning makes for a possibly boring life, yeah? ~~Are you talking about~~ I always believed if that if you're not completely sure of something, then you shouldn't do it. But Harry probably wants...that, too. Impatience is a terrible little bugger, now isn't it?

It's a habit! But I...dunno.

Then it's a good thing we have each other. Forever?

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Neville

theweasleygirl
2008-02-02 06:28 am UTC (link)

And you know me: always spoiling for a fight.

I guess the hard thing for me...deciding: am I waiting because I should or because I feel like I ought to? I'm not sure at all. And I hate burdening Harry...oi, it's just a cycle of me wanting to protect him again, until he's...okay. Because I love him. Maddening!

Well...if you ever want to...discuss the not knowing...you know I'll talk about it for hours.

For hours and forever. We have forever, you and me, Nev. ~~You are absolutely one of my best mates. Period.~~

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