This is very hard for me. I'm not exactly what you'd call "ready" for this. I don't see why I have to go through life test after life test. It's so fucked up. I've always had the personal option of "giving up" per say... that is, until now. I don't even have that. I wouldn't dare leave her by herself. I just don't have a damn thing, nor am I fit for this world. Or so I feel...
But, most of life's circumstances we bring upon ourselves, and this one is no different. I just wish the timing was a little better than this, because last year seemed to drain the life & everything else I had straight from me. I mean, 2 1/2 months down time for 1 year of hell is hardly what I consider to be "okay". Whatever.
music: Sean Jenness - Written in my Face