Love is such a destructive force. I really don't think it's worth it to let myself slide into that ever again. I hate myself for not being able to let this go. And there's a certain amount of hate I have for her, too.  Or maybe it's not hate. Maybe it's just resentment. Maybe it's not even that. I guess I can't really describe it. Whatever it is, it sucks and I wish it would go away. =/ But I guess it can't if she's always there. But I wouldn't have it any other way. Maybe I like this type of pain, and that's why I always subscribe to it. But I don't like it, and that's the problem.

mood: blah music: Adele - Someone Like You