Current mood:

hopeful

James, a wedding and other stuff
finally got the official wedding invitation to Kyle and colleen's wedding. It made me so happy and emo all at once lol. Im so happy cuz they are getting married and it's an actual wedding and not a fucked up whoops u got pregs so now i gotta marry u type deals like so many other people. I am so happy for them and proud of them. Looks like im goin to Philly! And we are staying in NJ haha sweet. Good times, can't wait and it's 6 days after my bday so maye we can make it a week long event and party in Nj haha.

In other news, I have rediculous icons i need to put up lol i did them for fun a long time ago i hope no one gets offended, it was helping me pass the time at work a year back.

James and I were talking yesturday and he told me he is sure he wants to live in America but he's not sure how to do it. I gave him some advice and since he will be with freinds it shouldn't be hard and he wont be alone. He said he will come a month before his mates so spend time with me and see how things go with us and then he will head to NY to meet his friends and possibly start a life there.

Now im happy as fuck and excited but at the same time i see myself only setting myself up. I will end up really liking him because well i already do and then he will leave me.... thats gonna hurt and suck all at once and i dont wanna go thru that but at the same time i have been dying to see him....wtf do i do? Carole says he might like me so much he might just stay.....I hope you're right C-tot.