"I didn't think you'd care! It wasn't about that, I knew you'd be.. you know, you're you. You've always loved me no matter what, it was just.."

Jenny trailed off again, glancing over her shoulder, before returning her attention to Ella. "It's kind of weird, don't you think? I didn't know how to say it. How do you just tell someone that you think you might be-- you know? I never even knew gay people until we came to school. Does that make sense? Sort of?"

She sighed a little, rubbing her hands briefly over her face and sighing. "I'm really sorry, El.. seriously, I didn't know how to say it, that's all. If it makes you feel any better, I didn't tell anybody before I told you? I told I told her nobody could know until you knew. I hated not telling you the truth.. it's just still weirding me out. It's nothing something that you can just.. read a book about and be good at."