She was getting up now, pushing herself away from Mackenzie and quickly scrambling up to her feet. She was shaking, but she tried to contain it, standing to her full height, trying to get angry again and failing. "I love her, and I told.. I t-told her she was it for me. She is the only girl I see, and now you're-- I can't do this to her. I can't rip myself in two and make you both happy! I don't know what to fucking do!"

It was all coming out now, familiar anxious word-vomit. There was no sense hiding it. Mackenzie had probably understood her reasoning the whole time. "I don't know what to fucking do to make her happy and I can't.. you can't just kiss me and fuck with my head like that! She said you liked me, she said Sera said you liked me, but I didn't believe them. I thought, like.. that's crazy, right? Why? I just can't do it. I can't be in between you guys, it's gunna kill me. I love her, I love you and you're my best friend, and I- I hate me because I can't make everyone happy."

She was making her way back to the bench now, sitting back down on it, lifting up her hands up; face pressing into her open palms as she began to cry harder, shoulders shaking with her sobs. Why did having two gorgeous girls fighting over her have to hurt so bad? It was never like this in the movies. Everything was just supposed to fall into place. Nerd gets girl, lives happily ever after. Except it could never be that easy.