are we still doing discussion posts?
i mean, it doesn't matter, i just need some advice.
what do you girls do when you are feeling insecure? i'm going to a dance at my boyfriend's church tomorrow. it's the first time he's ever really seen me dressed up, and i just want his jaw to drop. problem is, i only found out we were going a couple of days ago. so, i have to wear an old dress. i went out and got some new shoes today, which i really love, but they don't go with the dress. i was just like UHGGG i don't want to have to return them, but they just don't work. oh and they were only $15 :[.
sorry, bad picture
the shoes are KIND OF like this:
but they're a deep red/purple
they have two straps instead of one
and they are plain patent leather, no embellishment
part of me wants to go out and find a cute plain black dress or something
but the more practical side is saying to just go out and get some plain black pumps
i don't need to be spending much money, at all.
i've been getting so upset over the pettiest little things recently. i feel like my period is just around the corner, but according to mr. bc, it shouldn't be. so idk why i'm so emotional. :/
that whole rant wasn't even the main point
i'm more insecure about my body than my outfit. my skin is really broken out, even on my chest. wtf, this never happens, but of course it has to happen NOW. my dress has a really deep Vneck, obviously.
i also have some brand new scars on my leg
i would just cover this stuff up with makeup, but i'm so pale that it will just look like little orange spots
andddd, i want to curl my hair really badly, but i suck at it
i'm not even sure if my hair is capable of curling or if i will have a curling iron available
i'm sure i will get over it
but i'm stressing out over this stupid shit
i always care way too much. wtf @ me.
