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She nods. "I appreciate what you're trying to say, Bucky, I really do. But its not necessary." she sits back in her wheelchair. "The war... we weren't winning. We were just buying time. There weren't enough people left to 'win'. The X-Men were an underground urban legend. The F4 live behind a force field, and there maybe, might be an underground railroad. But that was ok, we were doing the right thing. I don't know how long we could have kept it up. Or what kind of life there was. And even that seems forever away. I've been an Exile now for, what is it, three years? Three and a half? I'm not complaining... not really. I have to believe what we're doing is for the greater good. But I don't even know if there's an end to this, and if there isn't... well, one teenage girl is a pretty small sacrifice to make for all the worlds we're saving. Compared to that, it doesn't really matter. I can handle almost dying against the Hulk, or the Abomination, or Temujin, or Holocaust... we don't know what's next. Allison died serving, TJ disappeared, Spider, Morph, Grandma... who knows? Maybe they went home. I hope so. But we have enough to deal with in the right now, because I'd like to try and get the rest of you home too. And whenever that happens, be it tomorrow or fifty years, I'll think about a war we're not winning. For me, that is the long view. And you know, that's ok. I'm comfortable being Crusader, I'm comfortable being a Rogers. I'm strangely ok with the possibility of dying for the greater good on a world that doesn't know I exist as long as I'm doing the right thing. War is easy by now, it is my life by now. But when I can barely deal with telling someone I'd trust with my life that I'm gay, and it took this long to do that? I still carry around the only thing I have left of my first date, from someone I knew for one whole day? I don't even want to try and deal with eventuallys or possibles. I don't know who that Sarah is. I don't need the pep talks or assurances... in a couple weeks, we'll be getting back to work, and I'll be fine."