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rogue_star ([info]rogue_star) wrote in [info]marvel_nextgen,
@ 2009-05-26 20:31:00


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Current mood: crushed
Entry tags:anya stark, inactive - artemis, sammy fury, sarah rogers, team - avengers, toni rhodes

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
She's been sitting quietly on her bed for three hours now, just staring at it. She turned her comm off first thing, trying to clear her thoughts.

She'd spent ages and all the goodwill she'd gotten from SHIELD trying to find her teammates, and found they weren't on this world.
She'd endured Misha's insistence she just relax, make friends and accept she had a family here now.
She'd started to believe Anya suggesting that maybe, just maybe this was her world now, and had gone through the first stages of mourning her parents and friends.

And she'd been about to ask Anya if she'd help her make plans for her 18th birthday, only a few months away. Her 'sweet 16' was spent invading a Sentinel concentration camp. Freeing all those people was a wonderful feeling, but she also knew most of them wouldn't make it, with or without help from the X-Men and the underground railroad, and they'd almost lost Firefly.
Her 17th was spent in a new world, recently bereft of all the things she'd come to know with the Exiles, along with the fleeting hope of making things ok again. And, of course, watching Anya's birthday party not long before, and feeling horribly out of place.

She'd screwed up her courage, tried to figure out who to invite, and was finally ready to go apologize to her parents at their non-graves, the Tomb of the Uknown Soldier seemed fitting, to ask them to understand that she needed to live her own life. And she'd prepared to ask Anya to help with a real birthday party - and was still debating, with a few butterflies, asking if Anya might even be her 'pretend date' if they did it somewhere private.

And then it showed up, just appearing out of nowhere on her right arm.

She's been in her room since, alternating between crying and trying to find a new reserve of willpower, like she always did. She was a Rogers, after all. This time, it just wasn't there. Only the words it kept telling her.

'Galactus' ship's temporal shields screwed things up, but we're back on track.
You still have work to do, kiddo.
Kiss dreams of a normal life goodbye and let's get back to work.'

Worst of all, she knew exactly what she had to do.



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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 03:48 am UTC (link)
"You asleep?" Anya asked without looking over.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 03:56 am UTC (link)
"No. Can't sleep. Just as well. I don't want to waste any time while I'm here."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 04:05 am UTC (link)
Anya rolled over onto her stomach and propped herself up on her elbows. "I know."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 04:23 am UTC (link)
Sarah sits up, then moves over to the other bed, laying down with her head in Anya's lap. "I'm going to miss you. I know this has to be done, but that doesn't make it any easier."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 04:29 am UTC (link)
Anya sat up a little and played with strands of Sarah's hair. "I'm going to miss you too. I know it has to be done." Anya looked away for a moment. "I owe you so much. I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for you."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 04:31 am UTC (link)
"I couldn't just let you die." she wants to, even almost starts to say she loves her, but then that's not good form, especially now. She catches herself, and amends to "You're my best friend."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 04:40 am UTC (link)
Sarah doesn't have to say it. Anya knows. "I know," Anya said and continued to play with Sarah's hair. "You're mine."

Anya sighed. "I have to hold onto hope that you'll be back some day."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 04:43 am UTC (link)
She hugs her as best she can from the awkward angle, enjoying the playing with her hair. "You know I'll do my best to be."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 04:47 am UTC (link)
Anya put her arms around Sarah and held her tightly. "I know."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 04:50 am UTC (link)
She wants to say something comforting. She's a Rogers, after all. Right now there's nothing though, just snuggling with her deepest crush to date, and much more importantly, her best friend, for possibly the last time.

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 05:02 am UTC (link)
Anya just held Sarah. Words were difficult without getting overly emotional.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 05:03 am UTC (link)
Sarah seems to be in largely the same state, just wishing the minutes to keep stretching on.

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 05:09 am UTC (link)
"When you come back we'll have a lot of stories to tell each other," Anya said quietly. The possibility of Sarah not coming back was one she didn't want to face.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 05:13 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, you're going to do great with the Avengers here. You have a great team together. And I'm sure you're going to take college by storm."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 05:17 am UTC (link)
"And you're going to have many stories about other universes and how they're so different." Anya started playing with Sarah's hair again.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 05:20 am UTC (link)
"Yeah." she grumbles. "I bet they all have the Hulk in them. At least I didn't need to fight him here. I'll just settle for no more vampires though."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 05:43 am UTC (link)
"Knowing our luck, we'll have to fight him after you're gone." Anya held her tight. "This sucks."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 05:55 am UTC (link)
She sits up enough to rest her head on Anya's shoulder, the better to be hugged. "Sucks doesn't begin to describe it. I guess... at least it means there's still a chance for all the people in my home universe. That's a small price to pay to have a chance to save trillions, right?" Despite the scope, for once, she's trying to convince herself.

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 05:59 am UTC (link)
"Yes," Anya said. "I know how much it means to you to fix your home." Anya did hug her. She didn't want to let go.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 06:05 am UTC (link)
She buries her face in Anya's shoulder for several minutes, not wanting to let go either.
Finally, she lifts her head to look her best friend in the face. "Anya... this is just going to get harder the longer this goes. I... should go, before I can't. The Tallus keeps talking to me, urging me to go. And reminding me about the dream." Which she hasn't spoken of, beyond stating what the Tallus told her.

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 06:27 am UTC (link)
"What dream?" Anya asked. Details did not get by her.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 06:44 am UTC (link)
She sighs. "A few days ago, maybe it was something with the Talus trying to find me, or something... but I had a lucid dream. I usually don't. But I dreamed that, uhm..." she blushes, looking away. "I dreamed that we were married, about ten years from now. You were in charge of Stark, and a workaholic like always. But it was... really nice. But... that's why the Talus told me to kiss my dreams of a normal life goodbye."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 06:49 am UTC (link)
"Oh." A pause. "OH!" Now Anya was blushing.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-06-05 06:54 am UTC (link)
Sarah blushes too, bright red, trying to match Anya and then some. "Yeah. I... know you aren't... uhm, yeah... Just... I don't know. I don't normally remember my dreams, but I remembered that one, all of it. It just seemed... I don't know, somehow possible. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."

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[info]anyastark
2009-06-05 06:57 am UTC (link)
"You didn't make me uncomfortable, Sarah." Anya hugged her. "We don't know what would have happened. When you come back, maybe we'll find out."

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