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halloweentown!!! ([info]halloweenish) wrote in [info]politico,
@ 2009-12-14 22:32:00


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Entry tags:adam, reagan

adam, reagan
As much as Reagan wanted to fall apart, he wasn't allowing himself to. Eventually, he'd managed to fall asleep, and when he wokeup the basement was completely quiet. Everyone seemed to have fallen asleep judging by the steady breathing he heard from each little cell. He got up and went over to the suitcase that Adam had packed, and he sat down on the ground to sift through his belongings. Halfway through, he found a shirt that was Liam's. It was a dress shirt, white, simple. Reagan had ones just like this, but he knew the difference between his and Liam's shirts, and he felt tears sting his eyes as he brought it up to his face to inhale the familiar scent. He wanted to curl up with the piece of clothing and just break down, but he had to keep his head clear, so he swallowed down the urge and folded up the shirt carefully to tuck it back inside the suitcase. There was a dresser, but the idea of putting things away made him feel sick to his stomach.

After a moment, he pulled out a simple thin white t-shirt and a pair of black slacks, along with some argyle socks and a pair of boxer briefs. He got up and slipped into the teeny bathroom to take a long shower, and it was then that he finally cried, though he did so quietly. After he'd brushed his teeth, he came back out into his cell and went to sit down on the bed, his hair still damp and curling at the ends a bit. He twirled his wedding ring back and forth around his finger before he took it off and slipped it into his pocket. He didn't want to risk Adam seeing it and taking it away.



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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-22 02:42 am UTC (link)
"Nobody forced Callaway to wait for you," Reagan said as he put the cap back on his bottle of water. "He chose to wait for you." Reagan thought it was sad, but terribly sweet and romantic. It was loyalty beyond what most human beings were capable of, especially in this day and age. "And you're right, you do still have him. You do still have something out there that's yours."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-22 04:47 am UTC (link)
"I'm not glad you're here, but I'm kind of glad you're here." He didn't know if his words would come across right, but he said them anyway. "It seems like he's choosing stronger ones now. Maybe that'll catch up with him." Didn't the bad guy always slip up sometimes? Maybe the authorities would finally catch the mistakes now.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-22 04:57 am UTC (link)
Reagan understood what Parker meant, and honestly, if him being taken helped point Liam's team in the right direction it was almost worth what he was enduring. All of these men could go home, Parker could go back to Callaway, Elijah and Shay could be together, and Murphy could go back to his family or whoever else was waiting for him out there.

"I wish I could better explain the things that Liam and his team do," Reagan said as he rubbed at his arm idly. It was sore from where Adam had grabbed it, and from where he'd injected the sedative into him. "He works hard, and he's very good at it. They all are. Adam's right, Liam does love his job, but I love that about him. And I don't think he loves it more than he loves me, but that doesn't matter. I love him for who he is, and his job is a huge part of who he is. When I married him, I knew how demanding his work could be, but I promised myself that I would always be supportive of it. How could I not be supportive of something that helps people find loved ones, or have closure, or put people who hurt others behind bars where they belong?"

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-22 05:42 am UTC (link)
"You're a lot more understanding than i'd probably be." Parker ued to get jealous of Callaway's writing time when it grew to be what he deemed excessive. But he understood the creative process, he just didn't like sharing. It sounded like Reagan nobly shared Liam with a wide array of people, all in need.

"I have a little ice gel pack in my freezer. He gave it to me when I asked for it for my headaches. You could use it on your arm." He went to grab it and started rolling it up so it would slip through the holes in the chainlink.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-22 06:06 am UTC (link)
"It's not always easy," Reagan admitted. "Sometimes I miss him terribly, but it always makes it so that when I see him it's even better, you know?"

When Parker got up to retrieve the icepack, Reagan put his plate and water aside so that he could scoot to the edge of the bed. He bit back a wince and reached out to grab a hold of the little icepack as Parker pushed it through the fence, and once he had a hol dof it he unrolled it to press it against his arm.

"Thanks," he said as he looked down at the bruise. He could hear Shay and Elijah whispering, and he smiled faintly. "Those two are pretty close, aren't they?"

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-22 05:47 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah," he nodded. "It kind of freaks me out that people could get close in a place like this. I mean, if we ever get out of here are they really going to want to be reminded of it all the time?" It made him shudder to think. But he also felt close to the people here, so maybe he'd miss them if they weren't in his life. Great, now he was thinking about being free again like it was a possibility. He sighed and opened his notebook back up again.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-22 10:21 pm UTC (link)
"I don't know, I think it proves that no matter what, love is possible," Reagan said softly with a shrug of his shoulders as he looked down at the icepack pressed against his arm. "Maybe I'm a bit of a romantic," he added with a sad sort of laugh. He lifted the icepack up to the front of is neck and stared down at his wedding band. He couldn't help but wonder if Liam was doing the same thing at that exact same moment, and the thought made him smile in faint amusement.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-23 06:19 pm UTC (link)
"That's sweet." Usually when he said something like that he was being sarcastic, but he really meant it this time. He jotted a few things down in his book before glancing back up. "I write about Adam, his routines, what he says. I hide it in the mattress. If something happens to me, that's where it is. It might be important to someone--I don't know."

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-24 04:29 am UTC (link)
"All right," Reagan said softly. He couldn't help but feel a little special. Something told him that he wouldn't just offer that information up to just anybody. "Would you want to see him again?" he asked after a moment. "Callaway, I mean." He furrowed his brow at the question and lowered his gaze. "You don't have to answer that if you don't want to. I'm not trying to be nosey, I'm just... If I'm quiet for too long, then I'll think about things and I don't think I want to do that right now." He wasn't ready for it.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-24 04:58 am UTC (link)
Parker could understand that, recalling how much worse it had felt in the beginning knowing he was coming down to an empty basement. Even if Parker didn't always talk to the other boys it felt better knowing they were there. He thought about the question about Callaway. "Yes, I can't repay his loyalty with rejection." And he desperately wanted to see him again.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-24 05:07 am UTC (link)
"What's he like?" Reagan asked as he scooted the edge of the bed again and reached for his suitcase. He pulled it towards him by leaning forward, and he fished out a pair of striped socks to slip them on. He sat back up and wiggled his toes as a quiet sigh escaped him. All he could think about was home. Dinner with Liam, always late, but he never minded.

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-24 05:27 am UTC (link)
Parker swallowed and offered a shrug. "He's very talented, a writer. Patient, calm. Sometimes he was so calm all I wanted to do was rile him up, get him angry. Most of the time I didn't know what I wanted but he always waited, handled me perfectly. Tall, wirey but strong. He held me more tightly than anyone in my life and I used to wish he would just crush my bones with the force of it." A little morbid, but that's often the way Parker thought.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-24 05:34 am UTC (link)
It may have been a little bit morbid sounding, but the artist in Reagan understood Parker perfectly, and he smiled a little sadly before he scooted back up onto the bed so that he could lay down. He stared up at the ceiling, and for a moment, he tried to picture what Liam was doing right then. It was nice to imagine him enjoying something, but Reagan knew better. Liam was probably stressed beyond belief at the moment, maybe even more than Reagan was.

"That reminds me of this painting I did, I named it I'd Let Them Make Buttons Out of My Bones For You," he said after a moment. "You know, like for a sweater, or a coat, to keep him warm." Him being Liam. He'd painted it for Liam. "That sounds ridiculous, doesn't it?"

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-24 06:17 am UTC (link)
"That doesn't sound ridiculous at all. I like that very much. What do you paint? Is it abstract? I'd like to see your work sometime." The pure work, not what he might paint in here because it would be tainted with Adam. He could imagine someone making a pretty coat out of his remains for Callaway. It was a strangely comforting.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-24 06:24 am UTC (link)
"Yes, it's mostly abstract," Reagan answered as he closed his eyes with a quiet sigh. "But there are some pieces I do that are more cohesive, I guess it just depends on my mood. Liam turned the basement into a studio for me, so I could work from home. Like I did when I lived in New York." He paused, remembering something Parker first said when they'd spoken. "You said Adam's been talking about a painter for a while, more than a year. Has he been watching me for that long?"

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-24 06:46 am UTC (link)
That made Parker recollect the fact that Callaway had said they weren't ready to live together. It still felt a little like rejection, but it hardly mattered anymore, it was so far away.

"Yes. He used to talk about going to shows and how amazing you are. It's twisted, but I think I've become almost an accomplice to him. He tells me things, like he knows I don't have it in me to do anything about it."

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-24 06:50 am UTC (link)
"Parker, you're not an accomplice," Reagan said softly as he opened his eyes again. "He trusts you, and that's not a bad thing. You've done what you've had to in order to survive, and that makes you human. At least you still want to survive after all this time, maybe you've been holding on for a reason, even if you never realized it."

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[info]impotentwaffle
2009-12-24 07:35 pm UTC (link)
That had never occured to him. Parker had been suicudal at times in his life, but he'd stopped with that when he'd met Callaway. The man had given him some stability and certainly something tangible to live for. Reagan saying it made it more real though. "I guess so," he conceeded though he did still feel a little guilty, but Reagan was helping with that.

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[info]halloweenish
2009-12-25 02:52 am UTC (link)
Reagan rubbed at his eyes before he slipped beneath the covers and curled up. He couldn't help but wonder just how much longer they would all have to endure this, and he knew that it was a bit selfish to compare himself to the others - especially Parker. But he wanted to go home. While his faith in Liam was strong, there was a part of him that was afraid that maybe he'd never see his husband again, and that terrified him. He closed his eyes and let out a soft sigh, exhausted from stress. It wasn't long before he fell asleep.

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