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kit smith ([info]notthatsmith) wrote in [info]paddedrooms,
@ 2013-01-24 15:12:00


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Kit wasn't sure this was a good idea, but he felt like it needed to happen. All his friends at school said it needed to happen. It hurt that Albus had gone home from their conversation and immediately started dating Scorpius, but they'd been together for two years and Kit missed Albus like crazy and he wanted them to be friends. It had taken him a while to get to that conclusion, but even after seeing pictures of Scorpius and Albus kissing on the internet, he wanted it. Albus was too important to be cut out of his life completely.

He'd still waited until Paris Fashion Week to show up outside Albus's door. At least he knew Scorpius would be gone. Kit took a deep breath, and then knocked.


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[info]alboos
2013-01-24 09:11 pm UTC (link)
Albus was sitting alone. Alone. Because his brand new boyfriend who loved him so much had to disappear to fashion week and couldn't really take him with him. Even if he had of gone, he'd never have seen Scorpius and he would have spent most of his time alone in the hotel anyway.

When there was a knock, he sighed to himself and hoped it wasn't some crazy religious group coming to tell him how bad homosexuals were. He pushed himself up from the couch and walked over to the door, pushing it open.

Kit was on the other side and Albus immediately felt tears stinging at his eyes. He was overcome with emotion. Emotions he didn't think he would have felt. "K-Kit?"

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-24 09:15 pm UTC (link)
Kit wasn't expecting Albus to be so emotional when he opened the door and saw him. It threw the mental reserve he'd built up right out the window and he had to dig his nails into his palms to calm himself.

"Albus," he said, voice soft. "I... I needed to see you. I didn't... I know you're with Scorpius now, but I need to talk to you."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-24 11:43 pm UTC (link)
Albus immediately grabbed Kit and pulled him close to his chest, hugging him tightly. Closely. He'd missed the other boy too. More than he should have, but Kit had been a large part of his life.

"Kit." He said softly, holding him there, not letting go just yet. "Talk. I'm not letting go yet."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 12:27 am UTC (link)
Kit hesitated for a moment, but this felt so good. So right. Being close to Albus again. He closed his eyes, leaning into the other boy's touch and wrapping his arms around him. He shouldn't have been letting it happen, because he still had all these feelings that Albus didn't, but he didn't want to fight it.

"I miss you," he whispered, turning his head into Albus's neck. "I miss... I miss everything, but most of all I miss being your friend. I miss being able to talk to you about our dreams and how we're going to fulfill them and music and just... everything."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 02:16 am UTC (link)
"I miss all of that too." Albus promised him as he looked back at him. "I miss everything. I miss not fighting with you and not feeling jealous all the time and just... having you here. All the time."

He sighed to himself and shook his head. "I'm sorry." He told him as he pulled back. "How have you been?"

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 02:19 am UTC (link)
"I... not that great," Kit said, laughing a little and running a hand through his hair. "Classes are good. I've made friends. But it's been... kind of hard, you know? I always thought we were forever."

He reached out, taking Albus's hand into his own and squeezing it gently. "How have you been, Alby? You don't sound... I mean, you seem more upset than I thought. Can I come in? Can we sit?"

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 02:35 am UTC (link)
"Yeah. You can come in. It's just me here right now." Albus shut the door after Kit walked in. He ran a hand through his hair and took a deep breath, trying to remain calm. He didn't want to completely freak out on him.

"I think I made the biggest mistake of my life." Albus told Kit quietly. "I love Scorpius. Don't get me wrong. It's just. I don't know. We fight constantly and all he wants to do is have sex, which is fine, but we like... do nothing else. I think I was so afraid of losing him as a best friend that I made a mistake letting you go and now..." He shook his head. "Now I'm a complete fuck up and I don't know what I'm doing."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 02:42 am UTC (link)
Kit stopped, staring at Albus when he said he'd made a mistake. "I... Oh," he said, sitting down on the couch and thinking about that. Did that mean Albus wanted him back? Kit couldn't let himself think about that kind of thing. If he did, he'd be selfish. He couldn't actually try and help Albus.

"You can't stay with someone who doesn't make you happy," Kit said, looking up at Albus. "I'm biased, and you know that, but even if I think of you as just a friend... I don't think it's fair to either of you to stay together when one of you isn't happy. You've been friends for so long. Scorpius would forgive you."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 02:52 am UTC (link)
"He's a Malfoy. They're really petty." Albus sighed softly, shaking his head. "I don't know if he would forgive me, but I'm not sure how I feel in general. I know that I miss you a lot more than I should. I don't even know how to dress myself without you."

He laughed softly. "I haven't worn a bowtie in a month, Kit. I don't know which pants to match them to without your help over skype."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 03:42 am UTC (link)
Kit smiled at Albus. "I could help you put a few outfits together before I go back to school," he offered. "You're living with a model. You'd think he'd be able to help you dress yourself."

He looked up at Albus for a moment, then shrugged. "I don't know, Albus. Maybe I'm the wrong person to be talking about Scorpius with. I still have feelings for you so I can't give you advice and be totally selfless but... I mean, I don't think you ever talked about me like that behind my back. Calling me petty. Not thinking the best of me."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 03:59 am UTC (link)
"I never talked badly about you. Ever. The most I've ever said was that I was mad that we couldn't go to the same school." Albus shook his head and let out a soft sigh, closing his eyes. He rested his forehead against Kit's shoulder, because it felt natural.

"I love you." Albus told him quietly. "And I'm not over you. Even if I'm the one who ruined everything. I didn't expect you to ever forgive me for what I did, so when I came home... I got with Scorpius."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 04:51 am UTC (link)
Kit reached up, running his fingers through Albus's hair. He bit his lip to try and keep from crying when Albus told him he loved him still. "Albus, we were together for two years. Even though you hurt me a lot, all that wasn't going to go away because of one night when you were sad and lonely and drunk."

He turned his head, kissing the top of Albus's head. "I think you were scared. I think you were scared and maybe Scorpius told you about his feelings and then you were scared of losing him too so you just... did what felt right."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 05:27 am UTC (link)
"Maybe I don't deserve anyone. Maybe I'm supposed to be alone." Albus told him with a sigh, then gave Kit a pathetic look. He touched the other boy's cheek and did his best not to cry.

"I have been so lonely." Albus told him quietly. "Scorpius keeps running off doing things for his work. He's always on some diet where he barely eats anything. I get your career being important to you, but if you love someone, you shouldn't let it drag you away all the time. Right now he's at fashion week. Even if I'd gone with him, I wouldn't see him."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 05:38 am UTC (link)
"Have you tried to make any friends at school?" Kit asked, taking Albus's hand into his. "You can't let your world revolve around Scorpius, Alby. When we were together we were interested in the same things so it was easier for us to spend time together. And we always had our movie nights and everything planned out. It makes sense. You feeling like some of that is missing."

He rubbed his thumb over the back of Albus's hand. "I was going to stay with my parents, but I could stay here. If you want. I can sleep on the couch, but I'll be here to keep you company and you won't be so lonely for a little while. While he's gone."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 05:46 am UTC (link)
Albus looked at Kit and squeezed his hand in his own. Everything had always felt so right with Kit. So easy and fun and exciting. And while Scorpius was exciting and he loved him, he did miss things the way they had been with Kit.

"You still move me, Kit." Albus told him through a teary smile. "I don't know how you do it."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 05:56 am UTC (link)
Kit couldn't take it anymore. It was wrong and he should keep his hands off things that didn't belong to him anymore, but he leaned forward and pressed his lips to Albus's anyway, closing his eyes as he pulled away. He loved him. Still, and so much that it hurt.

"Sorry," he said, smiling a little. "I just... had to. You're my best friend, Albus. I don't want us to go this long without speaking again. No matter what happens. We are too good together to stop being friends."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 06:11 am UTC (link)
Albus had liked the kiss, even if he was telling himself he couldn't. He looked back at Kit and then kissed him softly again, not deepening it or pushing it. It was just a soft kiss that felt entirely too good.

"I should have gone to your school." Albus told him, shaking his head. "Then I wouldn't have messed everything up."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 06:24 am UTC (link)
"No, you shouldn't have. You got into the school we both wanted, Alby. I would have hated myself for making you give it up." Kit gave him a sad smile. "I got a second shot, you know. I have an audition for second semester. I just got the letter this week. I figure... I mean, with all the stuff I'm learning right now, I'll be better this time around. I have a shot."

He squeezed Albus's hand again. "I miss you. I miss us. But I don't think you should have given up your future for me."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 06:30 am UTC (link)
"My future is-" Albus looked at Kit and cleared his throat. "Was nothing without you. We had it all figured out and I thought that it would be prefect if we were in the same school."

But, he smiled at him and shook his head. "I want you to be at my school. I need you there."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 06:38 am UTC (link)
"Plans change sometimes," Kit said, shrugging. "I liked what we had figured out for ourselves before, but now we just have... new challenges ahead for us to rise to. And I know if anyone can do it, it's us. We're phenomenal."

He hesitated for a moment, touching Albus's cheek. "And... if you plans change again... I'm here. Even if I'm away at school when they change, I'll always be a skype call or a phone call or a text away."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 06:54 am UTC (link)
Albus smiled to himself and nodded. He knew that they were phenomenal. They'd always been so great with one another. And he didn't know why he hadn't remembered that.

He pulled Kit closer and kissed him again. "I don't like challenges. Why can't things be easy like they were?"

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 07:02 am UTC (link)
Kit wasn't sure what the kissing meant anymore, but he liked it. Being with Albus again, being this close to him, felt like being home again. He brushed his fingers through Albus's curls, tugging on them gently, mostly because he knew how much Albus liked it.

"If we never had challenges, then we're never get stronger. Sometimes even the best things, the things that feel the strongest, need to be tested. So you know how hard you're willing to fight for them." Kit brushed their lips together. "I'm willing to fight for you, Albus."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 07:14 am UTC (link)
Albus smiled a bit at that. Kit was willing to fight for him. It made him feel good to hear that from Kit. It made him feel less lonely and more wanted.

He kissed Kit again before he slowly pushed him back against the arm of the couch, holding him close. "You are perfect." He whispered.

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 07:20 am UTC (link)
"So are you," Kit whispered, biting at Albus's bottom lip gently. "The most perfect man I've even met." He deepened the kiss and closed his eyes, leaning into Albus's touch. It felt so good to be with him again. To be this close to him.

He kissed Albus's forehead, petting at his hair and tangling his legs with the other boy's. "I love you, Alby."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 07:26 am UTC (link)
"I love you too, Kit." Albus promised him as he kissed him again, settling down beside him. He smiled and pet at the other boy, just laying on the couch together, feeling so content and comfortable.

"I want you to stay here." Albus told him quietly. "At least until you have to go back."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 07:29 am UTC (link)
"I'd like that," Kit agreed, petting at Albus in return and leaning into his touch. The familiarity of this made him feel like melting right into the mattress. He and Albus were good together. Really good.

"I have a few days before I have to go back. I did all my work ahead of time. I wasn't sure how this would go, you know?" Kit smiled. "It went better than I expected. I thought I'd leave crying."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 07:31 am UTC (link)
"I don't want to make you cry, Kit. I don't mean to make you cry." Albus kissed him again, his fingertips slipping beneath Kit's shirt, touching his skin. Why couldn't it feel like this with Scorpius?

He gave him a weak smile. "I could help you practice for your audition." His voice was quiet. "If you want."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 08:02 am UTC (link)
"I know you don't," Kit said, giving Albus a soft smile. "You're a good person, Albus. You always have been." He kissed Albus's forehead again, then his nose and then his lips. "And I've always been proud of you for being so good."

He nodded. "I'd love your help. You're there already. You know what they're looking for." Kit tugged Albus's curlys gently. "And I can help you decide on ourfits."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-25 08:11 am UTC (link)
Albus was having a hard time concentrating with the way that Kit kept playing with his curls. He made a soft noise and smiled softly at him, then kissed him again, tugging him closer.

"I think it sounds perfect." Albus told him. "I need your help with clothes. We could go shopping or something." He grinned. "What song are you auditioning with?"

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-25 08:17 am UTC (link)
"I'd love to go shopping," Kit said. The closeness felt a little like it had crossed from cuddling into something more now. They were so close and they kept kissing and touching. It was getting hard to think straight.

"I'm not sure yet, about the song. Phantom didn't go over so well last time, but I feel like I should still do Broadway, you know?" Kit thought for a moment. "If I -- Maybe if I did Wicked. I love The Wizard and I. I could just... sing boy instead of girl. Should I sing a male song?" He frowned. "I over think this every time."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-26 12:22 am UTC (link)
"I'm not sure you should do Wicked or not. I don't want you to sing Defying Gravity because you use your falsetto. Your voice is much better when it's just... I don't know. Smooth and not girly."

But, he shook his head and kissed Kit's nose. "Sing something with heart. That's what they're looking for."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-26 03:02 am UTC (link)
Kit nodded, looking down at Albus and smiling a little. "No falsetto," he agreed. "I'll sing whatever I end up singing straight. No tricks. No pageantry. Just heart. I can try and do that, but you know I love a good pageant."

He laughed, stealing another kiss from him. "Which reminds me. We're three weeks behind on Toddlers and Tiaras now. How are we ever going to know if we're good parents or not if we don't meet America's craziest mothers and secretly gay dads?"

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[info]alboos
2013-01-26 03:25 am UTC (link)
Albus laughed at that and shook his head. "I don't know. But, I have every single one of the eps on DVR." He told him with a grin, leaning over to get the remote from the table.

He kissed Kit's neck. "Turn around so you can watch. We have to keep up on the fashion so we know what to dress our kids in."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-26 03:34 am UTC (link)
"But I'm having fun watching you." Kit smiled at Albus, touching his hair and then turning over on the couch with some trouble, trying not to fall off. He took Albus's arm and wrapped it around himself, settling down with him to watch the show, his hands touching whatever parts of Albus he could reach.

"Personally, I think we'll be able to do a little bit better than some of them when it comes to the fashions. I know a whole lot about sewing and what looks good. And you know we're both going to be able to give any kid a killer routine up there," Kit said, lacing his fingers with Albus's. "Our kids would know how to put on a show face in front of the cameras too."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-26 03:42 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, but our kids would have an advantage of having our genes." Blaine pointed out with a grin. "Which is why the surrogate should be amazing at dancing or something too. That way they have a real shot."

He laughed to himself. "The'll tap dance out of the womb. We'll get it on film."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-26 03:48 am UTC (link)
"We'll have to have auditions," Kit said, laughing. "Beautiful, talented surrogate wanted. Must be proficient in tap and ballet. Leading lady material only. It'll be easier to find them once we've made more connections in the business."

He looked back at Albus. "Have you tried to find any auditions yet? You're in London. There are all sorts of shows. If you even got an understudy role this early in your career it would be huge for you."

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[info]alboos
2013-01-26 03:55 am UTC (link)
"No. I haven't auditioned yet, but there are a few coming up in the next week. One is Link in Hairspray." He told him, snuggling against Kit as the show began to play.

"I've mostly been focusing on my homework." He admitted. "I don't find time to do anything else."

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[info]notthatsmith
2013-01-26 04:01 am UTC (link)
"You'd be an amazing Link," Kit said, smiling at Albus. "I mean, you'd be amazing for most roles, but I think Link would be really good for you. And Tony in West Side Story. If there's ever a Tony audition, go for it right away."

He kissed the palm of Albus's hand. "You need to join some clubs so you can make some school friends," Kit said, looking up at the telly. "Everyone will love you. And hate you because you're more talented than they are."

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