and my mind's made up
Tonight is the first night in a while that I'm going to sleep alone, without feeling Scott's body pressing against mine during the night, and without feeling his arm under my head and his breathing on my neck as I doze off. I keep telling myself, the weekend will be here soon. You cannot possibly miss someone this much! And I hate to think of the summer, and the fact that I will not see him for weeks.

My mother knows about Scott & me now. I'm not sure if I'd mentioned that here before. He's the first boy I ever told her about, and it feels so right and I'm not afraid or anything, to tell her that yes, I'm dating him. But oh it feels so strange! I have such issues with my mom learning personal details about my life.

Our relationship is so dysfunctional.