♥; melanieeee (melanie) wrote,
@ 2008-02-01 04:54:00

friday, october 24th, 1997
[ HEXED PRIVATE TO SELF ]
I don't really know why I'm writing this, but I need to get this off my chest and there's no one to talk to! I can't talk to Stewart because he's very happy right now and I don't want to ruin his mood and Laura's been kind of preocupied lately and I definitely CAN'T talk to Justin or Charlie about it or write a letter to mum because the moment I mention Charlie, I'm sure she'll stop reading and then I'll receive a letter full of questions about him. I can so picture it already, 'OH, Charles! Such a nice boy. And so polite, too!" and she'd go on and on and on, because she never stops. Don't get me wrong, I love mum to DEATH, but she can never figure out when enough's enough!

Wait, what was I talking about again? Oh, right. Getting things off my chest. That's what journals are made for anyway, right? And I've heard writing things down is sort of ~~therapue~~ therapeutic, so maybe I'll feel better afterwards? Ugh. This is what insanity must feel like. I'm talking to MYSELF and I don't even know what I'm talking about, except well, I kind of do? I'm very, very mad at life right now. VERY mad. Because I'm a nice person, right? I'd like to think I'm a nice person, so I don't understand how I always end up dealing with so. many. problems! And I don't know where they come from, but it's one after the other and my mum's always talking about karma so now I'm wondering whatever did I do wrong to deserve this? I try to be friendly to everyone and help people and I don't steal and I don't kill anyone and I can't even remember the last time I lied! Wait, no. That was two weeks ago when I told Stewart I hated him, but I apologised afterwards! And I gave him a hug and told him I loved being his friend and that should count for something, right?

Ugh, why is life SO. COMPLICATED!? Seriously. I feel so terrible, because I don't want Justin to hate me but I don't want to stop talking to Charlie either and I don't know, does that make me selfish? That I want them both to still be my friend? I'm not even saying they have to get along and well, that'd be great if they did but I understand some things are just impossible, ~~but don't I deserve them at least trying not to involve me?~~ Wait no, scratch that because it makes me sound horribly conceited. I just HATE being in the middle of it! And I realise I basically brought this upon myself, but I didn't know I was going to fall in love with Charlie! Well, no. I kind of did know that. But I didn't know he fancied me, so it's not ENTIRELY my fault, is it?

Maybe I should talk to Justin again? I don't want him to be upset with me anymore and talking about things helps, like writing things down help because, seriously, I feel much better already! Not great, but better and that's good, right?

Right, I'm crazy!
- Melanie Roberts.
[ /PRIVATE ]

[ HEXED PRIVATE TO JUSTIN ]
Hi, Justin.
[ /PRIVATE ]

So I sent that letter to my mum asking for costume suggestions and it seems that she stopped reading after the third sentence because I didn't get any suggestions, but I did get brand new dress robes! They look so great, but I don't think I will wearing them because I really, really want to dress up and I came up with an awesome costume idea! Well, I didn't, someone else did, but that doesn't stop it from being awesome! I'm so excited about the Ball, I can't wait until the 31st!!

By the way, I have to write this essay for Muggle Studies and I need someone to help me? It's about muggle sports and I have to choose one and explain everything about it but I don't know anything about sports! Well, except for football, because my dad really loves watching football matches during the weekend and sometimes Matthew joins in, but yeah, okay they gave us some suggestions and I was thinking of maybe talking about paintball? Because shooting people with paint balls sounds kind of wicked! But I really, really need someone to help me ~~and I can't ask Justin, because he's m~~ and I don't know who to ask without being a bother! So if anyone could help me, I'd love you forever and give you a chocolate frog or ten! ♥

Not today, though. I want to enjoy my third free day of the week!

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	rclawish 2008-02-01 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	I think I will ask anyone but my mum about costume suggestions, because then I know she will just go over the top, and let me tell you you don't want that. But I think you will look good whatever you chose to wear, Melanie. And my dad is a muggle and a big sport fan, if you want I can help you out some. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-01 08:18 pm UTC (link)
	My mum's the opposite, she has the best ideas ever and she can make some pretty wicked costumes too! But I reckon she doesn't want me to dress up this year? Merlin knows why! And thank you, Anthony! That's very nice of you. Are you going to the Ball, by the way? Are you dressing up? Thanks for the offer, also! I'll keep that in mind when I start working on it. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	huntington 2008-02-01 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	I'd offer to help you but I'm not the best with sports! Though you could do a sport like gymnastics! (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-01 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	Ooh, I like that idea! Thanks! What are you going to write about, Booth? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	huntington 2008-02-01 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	You're welcome! I was thinking about writing about basketball. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	gotabonetopick 2008-02-01 09:28 pm UTC (link)
	Oh I know costume ideas are so hard to think of. I am struggling with the very idea. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-02 12:47 am UTC (link)
	Oh, if you need any help, let me know!! I'd be glad to help! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	gotabonetopick 2008-02-02 12:49 am UTC (link)
	Thanks Melanie. I will come to for advice if I need it. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-02 12:49 am UTC (link)
	You're welcome! (Reply to this)(Parent)

	deathily 2008-02-02 12:40 am UTC (link)
	Is it really all that difficult to think about a costume? No, I don't reckon it is, so it's surprising that you got your idea from someone else. Muggle Studies isn't difficult, either. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-02 12:49 am UTC (link)
	It isn't, but I liked that idea better? And it kind of is when you have no idea what you're supposed to write about. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	lonqbottom 2008-02-02 01:15 am UTC (link)
	It's so very exciting, I must agree! The days are moving slowly, however. I don't like that. Er, ten chocolate frogs? That's a lot! (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-02 02:01 am UTC (link)
	Me neither!! But there's only a week left now, Neville! I know! But I got a lot of them today, so I thought... why not share? Do you want some? (Reply to this)(Parent)

	cornerfied 2008-02-02 02:05 am UTC (link)
	Muggle sports! What a lovely, lovely, lovely, thing. (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-02 02:15 am UTC (link)
	You sound like my brother! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	cornerfied 2008-02-02 02:19 am UTC (link)
	It would be distracting if I were your brother. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	theweasleygirl 2008-02-02 03:21 am UTC (link)
	Oh! I'll have Harry write you, he's always nattering on about this Muggle team or that Muggle team. Something called "cricket?" That isn't the insect? I don't know. And I'll take the chocolate frog, wink wink! (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-04 09:25 am UTC (link)
	Oh, thank you Ginny! I'd really appreciate that. (Reply to this)(Parent)

	vaisey 2008-02-03 09:45 am UTC (link)
	If you still need help, I attempt. I might not know the subject, but I'm a decent writer, I could possibly proofread it? [PRIVATE TO MELANIE] The Ball is still a bit off, but I have a lot of things happening this week. Do you think we could meet up sometime? I still owe you a dance lesson, and I'd ~~love~~like to see you. [/PRIVATE] (Reply to this)(Thread)

	melanie 2008-02-04 09:35 am UTC (link)
	That'd be great, thank you! [ PRIVATE TO CHARLIE ] Sure! Of course, yes. I kind of also need to talk to you? Um, yeah. Just let me know when we can meet up and I'll be there! I have Wednesdays and Thrusdays off, so yeah! (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Melanie vaisey 2008-02-04 09:49 am UTC (link)
	~~Need to talk—~~ Wednesday during lunch or after study hall? I'm done with everything after study hall. ~~My birthday's that day.~~ Do you want to practise anywhere in particular or do you just want to meet in the empty classroom ~~that I told you in~~ that we were in last time? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	Charlie melanie 2008-02-04 09:58 am UTC (link)
	Okay! Wednesday after Study Hall would be great! And uh that classroom would be okay, too. (Reply to this)(Parent)

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