What was the last great epiphany you had?
What was the last great epiphany you had?

The last great epiphany I had was about life.  I suppose they usually are.  I just realised that I could be trying so much harder in everything I do.  I was lying in bed and I thought to myself..."I want to practice...I want to get better"  but then I realised that even though I want to, I don't.  I also thought about college.  Next year is my senior year.  The last year because I have to be independent.  How frightening.  I have to go to college and get a job.  I've never had a job before!  I don't like talking to people I don't know, and talking infront of classes practically makes my hyperventalate.  It's ridiculous, I know, maybe I'm making it seem more than what it is, but I live in a house with 4 other people, 3 cats and a dog.  I'm not used to being by myself.  My family is always homem, like, I've never had to be alone.  Yeah so...that was my epiphany...and a major part of life that's causing me stress right now.

Moving on.  Today wasn't too bad.  I have to take my ACT's tomorrow, and I have to be there before 8 am.  ew.  I didn't even study for it.  Ugh, I need to start caring more, because I'm going to fail.  obvi.  Sunday I'm going to get my dress fixed.  My grandma is pretty awesome with her sewing skills.  

In may I have to give a 5 minute speech about the Bush vs. Gore election, and I have to have a tri-fold.  I fucking hate talking in front of classes.  It's so shitty, and I'm going to suck so much.  

So Mr. Pallada said Whitney Stone will not be our instructor.  He's thinking about asking Brayton to still write our work.  That's all.  He just wants him to write, and then be done with the season.  Then he will hire someone to be our full time instructor and clean and stuff.  He's thinking about Nick Bledso.  I haven't written about him on here yet, but I've wrote about him on my old journal on GJ.  He wasn't very good with technique, and I kid you not, hes the gayest little man I've ever seen, hes funny though.  I kinda hope it is...  I dunno, I really just hope Brayton comes back.  No one else wants him back.  I would love nothing more than to have him teach me.  Because I want to be good enough to be in his independent winterguard Usurpation.  

Anyways I better go to be because I have to be up so so so early!