crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2009-11-09 19:03:00

open to varick
It had taken a while for Shannon to get settled, and really, he still didn't feel quite right. He wasn't sure if he ever would, either, but he was willing to try. Each day got a tiny bit easier, though he knew that he wasn't ever going to be the same again. Losing Cameron had been like losing a part of himself, and there was absolutely no way that he'd ever be quite who he was before.

Garrett had given him a room to make a work space out of, and Shannon had all ready filled it with all of the things he needed to just lose himself in sewing and designing. It felt different to do it alone, without Cameron there. Sure, they sometimes worked seperately, but it was difficult realizing that this was the way it was going to be from now on. No more Cameron, just him.

While sewing, he'd caught his thumb in the machine, and he didn't even notice at first because he was so deep in thought. When he saw the blood, though, he felt the sting and winced as he lifted his thumb up to his mouth to suck on it. He shut the machine off and got up so that he could go down the hall and into the bathroom. It was late, but he couldn't sleep. He hadn't been sleeping well at all.

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	crucio 2009-11-13 12:24 am UTC (link)
	Shannon swallowed hard as he felt tears start to sting at his eyes, and he lifted a hand up to brush one away as it went cascading down his cheek. He wasn't sure what else to say. He was relieved to have finally gotten it all out, but it wasn't going to bring Cameron back. "You're not upset about it?" he asked quietly. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2009-11-13 01:08 am UTC (link)

"No," he shook his head and brought his hand up to comb through Shannon's hair. He hated to see the other man cry, though he could never deny him that release. "I'm relieved by it, I think." It didn't solve all of his feelings, but it helped him feel better about the situation.

With a sigh, he nuzzled his face down against Shannon's shoulder. "How exactly did you feel about me back then?" He wanted to hear it, and maybe it was too much to ask, but thinking about it made his heart flutter expectantly.

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crucio
2009-11-13 01:15 am UTC (link)

Hearing that Varick wasn't upset was infinitely relieving, and he closed his eyes as one of his arms slipped around the other man's waist. He pressed his hand against the center of the wolf's back. He held his breath and swallowed at the question he was being presented with.

"I... I don't know, I felt guilty about it. I just felt a connection with you, and I was attracted to you. It ne'er went away. I tried to tell myself it was because of your connection with Cameron, but I felt it before you were with him so I knew deep down that wasn't true."

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-13 02:43 am UTC (link)

Cameron had always been more vocal about his attractions and it had been so easy to become overwhelmingly in love with him. Shannon, on the other hand, had always been quieter about it--so quiet obviously that Varick hadn't had a clue. It was sweet, hearing Shannon talk about it, and it made his heart melt a little.

He kind of felt like Shannon was going to be the one who saved him, his path back toward the light. "Is your finger feeling better?" He asked, reaching down to clasp his hand and bring it up between them. Instead of actually looking at it, he pressed it to his cheek and then turned his head to kiss at Shannon's palm. "We should go to bed."

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crucio
2009-11-13 02:56 am UTC (link)

At Varick's question, Shannon nodded his head a little. The kiss to his palm was sweet, and he moved forward to wrap both of his arms around the wolf as he pressed his face against Varick's chest.

"Okay," he agreed before he brushed a kiss over Varick's heart.

It felt nice to be close to the other man with everything out in the open. He finally felt like he could breathe again.

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	impotentwaffle 2009-11-13 05:18 am UTC (link)
	"Would you sleep in my bed from now on?" He'd found the courage to just flat out ask him, extend the invitation indefinitely because he didn't see his feelings changing. He stepped back, grasping Shannon's hand and leading him to the bedroom. "I sleep better with you around. I wanted to ask you earlier but I couldn't bring myself to do it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2009-11-13 05:39 am UTC (link)

Shannon let his fingers lace up with Varick's as he followed him down the hall. He lifted their hands up to his mouth to press a kiss to the back of Varick's hand, and then he nodded his head.

"I sleep better with you, too," he said honestly.

Once they were in Varick's room he closed the door behind them, and then went to crawl into bed. It smelled like Varick, and it was a comforting smell. He rolled onto his side and looked up and over at the other man as his eyes adjusted to the darkness.

"I love you, you know," he murmured after a moment. He didn't see the need in trying to hide it anymore, and he knew that Cameron wouldn't have wanted him to.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-13 06:13 am UTC (link)

Getting under the covers, Varick took a few moments to process those words. He'd loved Shannon as a brother and it had always been a complicated sort of love, mixed in with a romantic edge that he'd never confronted before now. Saying the words were difficult though because of the hole Cameron had left.

Instead of saying anything, he tugged Shannon close to him and kissed him hard. If he could say it, he could show it.

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crucio
2009-11-13 06:23 am UTC (link)

Shannon kissed him back just a hard, moving so that he could press his body flush against Varick's. He parted his lips and let his fingers curl around the front of the wolf's shirt, feeling like he needed something to hold onto. He didn't need to hear the words said back, that wasn't why he'd said them. The kiss was the perfect response and Shannon made a soft noise of enjoyment.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-13 06:46 am UTC (link)

Varick would get there eventually, he knew it. But for now, he was thankful that Shannon responded to his kiss like he did. He pressed forward, rolling Shannon more onto his back so that he could bear down on top of him, liking the control that granted.

His teeth bit down lightly on Shannon's bottom lip, tugging on it before he let his tongue dart into Shannon's mouth.

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crucio
2009-11-13 07:07 am UTC (link)

Shannon let his body follow the lead that Varick's was giving, and he rolled onto his back easily when Varick coaxed him to. He slid his free hand up along the other man's back, nails digging in against the material of Varick's shirt as a soft whimper gave way from his throat. He needed this, he needed to feel something other than empty and Varick seemed to be the only answer.

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	impotentwaffle 2009-11-13 07:40 am UTC (link)
	With the slightest of possessive growls, he moved his mouth down to Shannon's neck. It was his favorite part of him, that vulnerable, soft skin covering his pulse. His inner wolf shuddered with anticipation against the quieter energy of Shannon's fox. His hands drifted down to clutch at Shannon's hips, thumbs pressing firmly against the jut of his hipbones. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

crucio
2009-11-13 01:16 pm UTC (link)

When Varick's mouth went to his throat, Shannon drew in a soft little gasp. His heart jumped with a mixture of fear and enjoyment. He trusted Varick, but he was no fool to the fact that Varick's wolf was in control over his fox and was stronger. He swallowed and turned his head to the side in an offer of submission and trust.

"Varick..." he whimpered softly.

Unlike Cameron, Shannon was reserved and shy, which everyone knew. The twins seemed to come from different worlds in the aspects of communication an openness. Cameron was outgoing and went for things he wanted while Shannon observed and had the tendency to wait for things. He was in his twenties, and he hadn't even slept with anyone before when Cameron had lost his virginity at age sixteen to some human they went to high school with. The kid hadn't even meant anything to Cameron, Cameron had just been attracted to the boy and wanted the experience. Shannon always envied Cameron's free spirit.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-13 08:09 pm UTC (link)

Varick was not expecting Shannon's first time. He may have been different, less starving and rushed. He didn't even know if that's where this was going, but his body certainly wanted it. The differences between them came out even more solidly while Varick's mouth was exploring Shannon's skin. One hand came up, tugging down the stretchy collar of Shannon's shirt so that his tongue could graze over his clavicle and then dip into the hollow of his throat.

"You taste the same, did you know that?" His voice went a little sad, stumbling over the admission. But I know it's you, Shannon. I want you," he said, voice more firm now.

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crucio
2009-11-13 11:02 pm UTC (link)

Shannon realized that Varick probably didn't realize that he was a virgin. Varick just wasn't the type to assume things like that, and Shannon wasn't entirely sure how to bring it up. Hearing Varick say that he and Cameron tasted the same made him a little sad too, but at the same time it was sort of comforting.

"I haven't really... Done things like this with anyone before," he finally said softly. It felt like the right time to put that bit of information out there. "What if I'm not any good at it?"

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-14 12:26 am UTC (link)

His movements came to a halt as he pulled back just a little bit so he could look down at Shannon. Examining the other man's face, he scanned for humor. "You haven't?" He didn't want to make him feel bad, but it did surprise him. It didn't change the desire for him, but it definitely changed the way he was going to go about it.

"Is that why you've waited? Because you're afraid you won't be good at it?" He didn't want to be didactic about this, but he wasn't going to mind at all taking the lead. "It's impossible that you won't be perfect, though now I'm a little worried you're not going to like it."

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	crucio 2009-11-14 12:36 am UTC (link)
	Shannon held his breath as he swallowed hard. He lifted a hand up to gently touch the side of Varick's face and his fingertips brushed against the wolf's lips. "No," Shannon murmured and shook his head. "I just wanted to wait for someone I trusted. And I trust you," he added quietly. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2009-11-14 10:58 am UTC (link)

The sentiment was unendingly sweet, and Varick smiled a little, lowering his cheek to rest against Shannon's shoulder. "Then we'll go slow." Because there was no sense in rushing this. Even though he now believed that every moment of time was precious, he knew that savoring this would be better than ravenously pursuing it. The impatient desire for Shannon was still there, but now he had his head wrapped around this idea of inexperience and he desperately wanted to be worthy of Shannon's trust.

Varick opened his mouth just a little wider to pull one of Shannon's fingers into its warmth. His teeth grazed down to the base of it before he pulled off with the slightest of smiles.

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crucio
2009-11-14 11:06 am UTC (link)

Shannon felt his muscles relax, and all apprehensions of being judged melted away. It wasn't that he felt as if Varick would write him off because of his inexperience, but it was still unnerving to admit.

Shannon parted his lips a little and drew in a surprised breath as Varick drew his finger in his mouth. The wet warmth was intoxicating and arousing, and Shannon's heart rate picked up a bit.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-14 11:29 am UTC (link)

"I do so love that sound," he murmured, mouth against the man's wrist now, kissing the pulse-point. That little gasp had gone straight through him, making him shudder with anticipation. There needed to be many more of those. Varick wanted Shannon aching for touch, so he planned to build up slowly. Dragging the tip of his tongue from the other's wrist to the crook of his arm, he left a warm explorative trail, the heat of his breath grazing over the skin as he ended the path with a nip of his teeth.

Next, his hands worked up the hem of Shannon's shirt, lifting it up, up, up until he could hook it around behind the young man's neck. It created an elastic sort of hold that forced Shannon's arms up above his head, tangling them there, leaving him awkwardly helpless in that respect as Varick's tongue drew down the center of his chest.

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crucio
2009-11-14 11:50 am UTC (link)

Shannon had absolutely no idea what he was getting into or what to expect. His heart raced with a mixture of nerves and desire, and he held his breath as he listened to Varick's words. His eyes stayed locked upon the other man as the feel of Varick's tongue traveled up along his arm. He honestly had to wonder if Varick realized just how much sex appeal he was capable of oozing in that moment, because Shannon felt down right overwhelmed.

His breathing hitched and when his shirt was pushed up, and his arms tangled above his head in te material, his pulse quickened.

"Varick..." he managed to get out breathily as he felt the other man's tongue trail down his chest. His hips lifted up involuntarily and a soft needy whimper escaped his mouth.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-14 12:14 pm UTC (link)

Teeth swept into the mix, brushing along Shannon's skin as well, too light to cause any marks, but the possibility was there. He wanted to play with the potential to hurt, devour. It was part of the predator in him and the best way to keep it safe was to indulge the darker urges to avoid losing himself to them. Opening his mouth against Shannon's ribcage, he nipped more firmly this time, pinching skin and tugging before running his tongue over the spot almost apologetically.

He went on like that, exploring the expanse of Shannon's chest and stomach before getting up off the bed to stand at the end of it. He plucked up Shannon's bare foot and kneaded his thumb up the arch firmly before grazing his thumbnail back down. He was going to touch every single part of him before he touched the obvious part.

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crucio
2009-11-14 11:09 pm UTC (link)

With each little touch and graze of Varick's lips or teeth, Shannon's senses were quickly getting worked up into overdrive. His breaths were far from even, and his hips were moving desperately to make some sort of contact. He made a half hearted attempt to get his arms free, but couldn't really concentrate long enough to get the task done. That, and he kind of liked being unable to have his hands free.

The moment that Varick got off the bed to grab a hold of his foot to touch it, a soft giggle escaped his lips. He was obviously a little more ticklish than Cameron had been.

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impotentwaffle
2009-11-15 12:01 am UTC (link)

The laugh made Varick break into a whole hearted smile, forgetful for a blissful moment of the bad things going on in his life at the moment. He seemed incredibly satisfied by the fact that Shannon was at his mercy, especially with such sensitive skin. His big hand slipped down around the other's heel, smoothing up his Achilles' tendon and wedging warmly between the fabric of his pants and his calf. Finally, grabbing the hems of both legs, he tugged Shannon's pants down, the waistband grazing wickedly across the front and back of the fox as Varick pulled. It almost jerked him off of the bed, but he managed to lift up instead near the end and shuck the pants of entirely, letting them drop carelessly to the floor.

"You look perfect like this." Somewhat helpless, still tangled in his shirt, underwear tugged down slightly from the removal of his pants.

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crucio
2009-11-15 12:11 am UTC (link)

Feeling his pants graze over his erection as Varick tugged his pants off, and a soft groan parted his lips in a gasp. His boxer brief's were barely hanging on to the juts of his hips once the pants were off, and he finally managed to get his shirt off so that he could toss it at Varick playfully.

He rose up on to his knees and slipped his hands beneath Varick's shirt so that he could push it up the man's chest and over his head so that he could toss it aside. Shannon felt his heart leap in his throat at the sight of Varick's bare skin. Sure, he'd seen it before, but this time he didn't have to hide his attraction. He let his hands slip down the wolf's sides as he dipped his head down and brushed open mouthed kisses against Varick's chest.

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