crucio (crucio) wrote in cwf,
@ 2010-02-17 23:12:00

open to joshua
The past two days Logan had been in the city, having to go back for work, but he explained he needed a few weeks off and he planned on sticking close to the haven in hopes of helping Moon adjust. The fact that Hunter hadn't just given up on the young wolf was promising, and Logan wanted to do whatever he could to help Moon out. Andrew had gone back into the city as well, for the past few days to meet with his parents who were visiting, and that left Joshua alone. Not only had Logan hurried back to see Moon, but he'd also wanted to see Joshua without Andrew hanging around. It was selfish, and pointless, but he couldn't help that he felt a very strong pull to Joshua.

It was early evening when he slipped into the house and out of his shoes and jacket, and when he headed into the living room he paused and was surprised to see Joshua dozing on the couch with not one, but two wolf pups lying right on top of him. For a moment, Logan furrowed his brow and just stared. His senses took a moment to pick up on the fact that the two pups were Julie and Miah, and when he realized it, he reached down to gently touch the top of Julie's head. The white pup looked up at him sleepily and opened his jaws to yawn loudly, and Logan arched a brow in surprise. It was a mini Joshua. It took Logan a moment to realize that Joshua's eyes were open, too, and when he did, Logan drew his hand back sheepishly.

"We're not suppose to shift this young," he said softly. "I mean, Hunter and Austin could, but they're full blooded. I didn't even think this could happen - how did it happen? Are they okay?"

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crucio
2010-02-20 06:15 am UTC (link)

There was something very satisfying to Logan about the fact that Joshua found him attractive. Running together was also a favorite of Logan's, as was waking up naked together. At Josh's question, Logan leaned in, not put off by the other wolf's dominant behavior. He laid his head down against one of Joshua's shoulders and he just looked up at Joshua's face.

"Yeah, jealous, do you get jealous of me spending time with him?" he asked with a half smile.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-20 07:36 am UTC (link)

His lips pursed tightly at the touch and the way Logan knew how to push his buttons. But he would not lie; it was a cowardly thing to lie. "I'm jealous of the way you fight for him. And the way you talk about him." He sighed and turned his head away from Logan, angling his face toward his opposite shoulder because he was feeling extremely frustrated and looking at that pretty face so close to his was not what he needed right then.

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crucio
2010-02-20 09:59 am UTC (link)

Logan could tell he was pushing the right buttons, and it tempted him into wanting to press even more. He always walked a very fine line with Josh, and it was difficult not to teeter, especially when the other wolf smelled and felt so good to be close to.

"I'm sorry," he said quietly. "He just needs someone to care, to be on his side. He has no one. You know you came first, though. You were the first wolf I felt something for."

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-20 06:25 pm UTC (link)

Joshua kept his head turned, and felt protected by the little wolves still covering his chest. But his hand dropped from the side of his body and brushed against and then rested on Logan's side. "Is your affection always so connected to pity?" The words had an edge to them that contrasted sharply with his soft touch. He knew that wasn't the case, but it felt satisfying to bite a little.

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crucio
2010-02-20 09:03 pm UTC (link)

The words stung, just like Joshua wanted them to, and Logan was never surprised at just how much the other wolf could make him feel with just words or a look. He let out a quiet sigh before he dipped his head down to press his face against Josh's shoulder, so that he could inhale his scent before he moved to get up.

"That's really not fair, Joshua," he said quietly before he turned to head into the kitchen. He felt too hot to stay inside now, though, so he slipped out onto the back porch for some air.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-20 09:33 pm UTC (link)

He took pleasure where he could and there was pleasure in making Logan hurt through the simple use of his own power over the other. But as soon as Logan left, Joshua felt guilty and he sighed, staring up at the ceiling for a long while. Finally, he shimmied out from beneath his brothers and went to go find Logan, half expecting his trail to lead downstairs where the mutt was being kept.

When he found him out on the porch, he stood in the doorway for a moment before letting the screen door shut loudly behind him. Even though he knew he hadn't snuck up on Logan (especially if the bumbling puppies had followed him) he wanted to let the door do the announcing of his presence for him. After a bit, he apologized. "I'm never fair." Well, he sort of apologized.

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	crucio 2010-02-20 09:43 pm UTC (link)
	Logan knew that Joshua was coming, and when the door slammed he didn't turn around. The apology, if it was one, was honest. Joshua wasn't often fair. Was he ever fair? After a moment, Logan turned to face him with a heavy sigh. "You really drive me crazy," he said quietly. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-20 09:51 pm UTC (link)

Joshua exhaled a short laugh that was less humored and more frustrated. His arms had been folded across his chest, but they dropped to his sides then. "Do you really like that kid downstairs? Like I mean, do you like him?" He realized how many times he'd said 'like,' and knew he was stumbling over words because he felt nervous about broaching this subject head on.

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crucio
2010-02-20 10:36 pm UTC (link)

Logan stared over at Joshua for a moment before he stepped forward and backed Joshua up against the side of the house. He put his hands against Joshua's hips and tipped his head down so that he could meet the other wolf's eyes. They were face to face, and very close. Logan hated that he liked being so close to someone he couldn't have.

"Why do you care if I do or not?" he asked quietly.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-21 09:43 am UTC (link)

A growl rose up in Joshua's throat, body tense. But the anger quickly discharged and he chewed on his bottom lip for a moment. "I just thought that wolves were only supposed to have one person, one mate. And if that's the case, then I'm messed up. Why do I feel attracted to two people? It isn't fair." He was desperately in love with Andrew, but he was drawn to Logan and it made him feel incredibly guilty.

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crucio
2010-02-21 09:48 am UTC (link)

"We're not suppose to have or do anything," Logan said quietly. "It's just that in most cases, that's how things go. But Vaughn and Everett and Jacob don't conform to that standard. Neither do Robin, Sullivan, Haben, or Austin." Though Austin wasn't entirely in on that mix of things, at least as far as Logan could tell. "I know how you feel, though. You don't like the attention I give Moon, and I don't like the attention you give Andrew."

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-21 07:25 pm UTC (link)

He put his hands on Logan's chest to push him back but he didn't get that far and just rested his palms there. "Then maybe I really do need to just move back to Seattle with Andrew." Because he was pretty sure that the sorcerer wasn't going to allow some sort of foursome arrangement, and it wouldn't feel at all fair. "If Andrew felt like this about someone else, i'd hunt ther person down and tear them in half." He spoke with the utmost honesty, leaning his head back against the house, relaxed enough to let his throat go unprotected, though it certainly wasn't an offering.

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crucio
2010-02-21 11:43 pm UTC (link)

When Joshua didn't push him away, Logan didn't move. Normally he'd respect boundaries because that was the type of person that he was, but it was too hard, and right now he was giving in. He dipped his head down and closed his eyes as his cheek pressed against the side of Joshua's, and he let his wolf rise up to the surface. His wolf was calm and had a wise feel about it, and it reached out to Joshua's, wanting to connect desperately.

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	impotentwaffle 2010-02-22 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Joshua let it happen, allowing Logan's wolf inside to come and chase his own. He sighed with it, leaning forward just a little and letting his lips part with the breath. His own wolf was full of youthful energy and an unbridled sense of power that needed something to teach it. When they connected, it was electric and Joshua couldn't find the will to pull back. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	crucio 2010-02-22 01:07 am UTC (link)
	The second their wolves were connected, Logan felt the overwhelming urge to act on his attraction to the smaller wolf. Joshua was smaller, thinner and almost delicate looking, but he was strong and full of an energy that was impossible to ignore. Logan turned his head and let out a breathy sigh against Joshua's jaw as his hands tightened on the boy's hips. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 01:38 am UTC (link)

"I can't do this to Andrew," he said with a whimper. He felt such a deep sense of loyalty and right now he was betraying everything in his brain that distinguished right from wrong. With a herculean effort, he drug back his wolf. It was a show of control that was beyond his years and it forced a cry of pain out of him to do it. "I'm just--I think we should just avoid each otherfrom now on." He hated to say it, and the moment the words left his mouth, he wanted to take them back.

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	crucio 2010-02-22 02:15 am UTC (link)
	The moment Logan felt Joshua pull back, he let out a soft noise of pained disappointment. He swallowed hard and let Joshua draw his wolf away, and he did the same. He let his hands loosen against the younger boy's hips before he pulled back and just let go of him. "Fine," he said quietly. "If that's what you want." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 03:33 am UTC (link)

Joshua knew himself well enough to anticipate a fight with Andrew, not necessarily because Andrew would be angry, but because Joshua was upset with himself and would start one just to punish himself. Joshua pushed away from the wall and turned his back on Logan as he headed inside. He was ashamed of how cowardly that was, but he couldn't face Logan as he spoke. "Yeah, that's what I want."

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	crucio 2010-02-22 04:12 am UTC (link)
	Logan turned and watched him go as he swallowed hard. He felt angry and lost, and he wasn't use to such negative feelings. He slipped into the kitchen after Joshua, but instead of following him he went down to the basement to see Moon. There were only two wolves he felt an intense connection and attraction to, and Moon was the other. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 04:43 am UTC (link)

Seeing as how Moon was going to be down there for awhile, Wendell had fixed up the cage as nice as he could. He'd enlisted Jack and Felix to help him drag a better mattress down to rest on the cot, and he'd put up a little privacy curtain around the bed too. At the moment, Moon was looking at a comic book Jack had given to him. The curtain was closed around his bed but when he heard someone come downstairs, he peeked his head out. His skin actually tingled when he saw that it was Logan. "I could smell you," he said, voice still full of surprise at the things his body could do.

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crucio
2010-02-22 04:48 am UTC (link)

Instead of replying, Logan went and fetched the key so that he could unlock the cage. He went and put the key back in its place before he slipped into the little cell and closed the door behind him. He wasn't too worried, he didn't think that Moon would try to run, and if the boy shifted he wouldn't be able to open the door to the cage anyway. Logan just needed to be closer to him, and the bars between them wouldn't do.

He slipped out of his shoes and went over to crawl up onto the bed with the other wolf, and he plucked the comic book away so that he could lay a kiss on Moon's lips.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 06:21 pm UTC (link)

Moon let out a squeak of surprise at the kiss. But he went from perfectly relaxed to alarmingly turned on in a matter of seconds. He didn't have any time to prepare himself so it was a raw reaction. He'd felt a primitive connection to Logan, and now that he was in a place where his head was clear and he was well-fed, the feeling had grown to a full on crush. Awkwardly, he kissed him back, unable to keep his wolf from clamoring to the surface, shimmering, heated beneath the surface of his skin.

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crucio
2010-02-22 09:21 pm UTC (link)

Logan let out a soft groan and let his own wolf push back, partly because he wanted to connect with Moon desperately and partly because he knew that Joshua would feel it upstairs. It wasn't fair, but Logan couldn't help himself. He was hurt and angry at Joshua, and he wanted Joshua to feel it. But soon enough all thoughts of Joshua melted away as the connection with Moon grew, and after a moment Logan broke the kiss and pressed his face against Moon's shoulder.

"Sorry," he breathed softly.

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impotentwaffle
2010-02-22 10:10 pm UTC (link)

Even through two floors, Joshua could feel the familiar rush of energy over his limbs and he knew immediately what was happening. Instead of sticking around for it, he got a bag together and took off out of the house, slamming the door so hard that it nearly broke off the hinges.

Moon was remarkably unaware of Logan's motives and he shook his head. "Don't be," sorry, he meant. He caught his breath and leaned forward to nuzzle against Logan's chest. He was terribly needy when it came to touch, isolated for so long. His fingers kneaded against the small of Logan's back and he sighed. "Hunter scares the crap out of me, but I want to snuggle with him. Is that normal?" He'd been too embarrassed to ask the man directly about it.

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crucio
2010-02-22 10:29 pm UTC (link)

Logan heard the door slam, and he felt momentarily satisfied before the guilt set in. He swallowed hard and lifted a hand and swept his fingers through Moon's hair, enjoying the softness of the boy's unruly locks. It felt good to be close to him, and even better that Moon wanted to be close to him in return.

"Yeah," he answered with a faint smile in response to Moon's question. "He scares you and makes you feel safe all at once sometimes."