Hashirama Senju (devilswalknstik) wrote in itai,
@ 2009-08-22 08:24:00

At this rate, becoming a full blown alcoholic is imminent.

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	tobirama 2009-08-23 03:13 am UTC (link)
	A dog, too. No. Is that the problem? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Just rub it in. It shouldn't be. Considering that people adapt, feelings overall change. Hate can turn into friendship quickly. Just something about this which should be relatively simple, just never works out that way. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 03:25 am UTC (link)
	So you're close to someone you should hate, basically. You haven't been watching Lifetime meets Shakespeare, have you? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 03:36 am UTC (link)
	I'm old fashioned right? It makes it kind of fitting. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 03:38 am UTC (link)
	You know everyone in Shakespeare dies in the end. That's why it's tragedy. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 03:44 am UTC (link)
	So what would you suggest? Share some wisdom with me. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 03:50 am UTC (link)
	I'm going to need more details. Wisdom can't come from something so vague. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 04:10 am UTC (link)
	It's way too long winded to explain. Wouldn't want to bore you with all the details. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 04:11 am UTC (link)
	You need to get it off your chest. Let's hear it, bro. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

devilswalknstik
2009-08-23 04:46 am UTC (link)

Where to start? I don't even understand half of what is going on but somehow, this situation went from comfortable to not so quickly. I said some things, they said some things and now I can't stop thinking about them and it's driving me insane.

Then there is the point of trying to keep business and personal apart. It's down to just staying away or pretending that everything is normal and maybe it is normal and I'm the only one who is worried about this.

And that didn't exactly clarify anything for you.

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	tobirama 2009-08-23 04:50 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, wow. Somehow you've managed to say so much, yet nothing at all. Let's start slow. You like this person? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 04:57 am UTC (link)
	Sorry for being vague. It's just not an easy topic to bring up, family help or not. In a matter of speaking. Overall, yes. I do. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 04:58 am UTC (link)
	I'm not here to judge you, so you can feel safe confiding in me you know. And do they like you? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 05:21 am UTC (link)
	I know that. It is a little daunting to come out and tell your brother that you have feelings for another man. They... he, hasn't exactly came out and said it directly but I think so. I sound like a school girl. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 05:24 am UTC (link)
	... No wonder you have bad luck with women. They can sense that, you know. If you're gay or not. You're acting like one too. How old are you, Hashirama? This isn't the time to be playing "Do you like me? I like you!" You're a big kid now. It's okay to be direct with relationships. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 05:35 am UTC (link)
	But I'm not. I think. I don't look at other men at all. ... You're right. No wonder you are the more successful one. ~~Too bad you are only an NPC and not real because you would save so many hassles.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 05:38 am UTC (link)
	So what's special about this one? You know, some guys live their whole lives and realize when they hit 40 that they're gay. With families and kids and everything. It's a phenomenon. I'm always right. I've got Jeopardy on my side. ~~Shh, don't bring that up. This is totally a legit phone call.~~ (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

devilswalknstik
2009-08-23 06:02 am UTC (link)

I would say maybe its a personality attraction but we clash all the time on that. He is like a giant kid that throws tantrums and then when told off, he will sulk up to you and want forgiveness.

I'm gonna stop talking about him now.

Interesting. Some kind of repressed feelings because of society and fear of not being accepted. Having a family that would disown you if something like that came up but yet it is okay for father to...

And how do you make a living again? Yes it is. And only we know about it *whistles*

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tobirama
2009-08-23 06:09 am UTC (link)

No, I want to hear more. It's interesting.

Is it a physical attraction? If it's just that then you might be just going through a phase. If it's some sort of emotional thing, then you probably are into him. I mean, it's okay to admit a guy is attractive, but if he's always on your mind then I think you're screwed.

Wait. Is he the... prostitute?

I create, develop, and improve upon microchips and processors for several major fortune 500 companies.

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devilswalknstik
2009-08-23 06:46 am UTC (link)

He is attractive more than most people you come across, unusually pretty? He has some points about him that I like but it's not a focus of what it's about. I value his companionship more than... no wait, don't say that. It has to be a phase.

Yes. That is the one. In his defense, I think I was only the poor sucker who has paid for it, recently at least. I should not make excuses for that.

At least someone made it big. So much for the eldest being the one to take over the role of head of the family. I think I will leave that up to you.

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tobirama
2009-08-23 06:52 am UTC (link)

That doesn't sound like a phase, if you're talking about valuing his companionship. Could you see yourself with him for the rest of your life?

Essentially, you left the love of your life for him. Is that right?

Nobody talks about that head of the family junk anymore. You're your own person now. This family isn't like it used to be. You don't have to be old fashioned about everything.

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devilswalknstik
2009-08-23 07:13 am UTC (link)

When I think about it and see what we are now, we fight all the time which says instant break up material right there. But we always find a way to bounce back from it or just forget it happened. Like that there seems to be no future for it but when I sit there and actually think of what it would be like without him there and it hurts.

I could point out the facts that she technically left but essentially yes, he was the reason why it ended. I never fought for her and unknowingly just went straight to him.

It's a work in progress. I even went out on a group date so that was certainly breaking the old fashion side there.

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	tobirama 2009-08-23 07:17 am UTC (link)
	... You can't imagine life without him? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	devilswalknstik 2009-08-23 07:26 am UTC (link)
	I thought I would be able to easily but truthfully, I can't. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	tobirama 2009-08-23 07:32 am UTC (link)
	You know you feel that strongly, and you're asking for advice? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)