Anya Antonovna Romanova Stark (anyastark) wrote in marvel_nextgen,
@ 2012-02-05 20:18:00

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In The Wee Small Hours Of the Morning - Angst 5 (Kelly)
Anya stumbled into the kitchen of the Thunderbolts headquarters and silently prayed there was some coffee made. It was early or late depending on how one looked at it, but she hadn't slept yet tonight. Sleep was a rare commodity lately. Nightmares kept her awake at night, but on the plus side she was getting some work done.

She stared at the coffee maker as if willing the thing to work were possible. Blinking a few times she kicked on the autopilot and started prepping the machine to make a fresh pot.

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	goesbothways 2012-02-08 02:27 am UTC (link)
	"Wish I'd have known. I have a surplus of bullets, and my former colleagues have a few too many internal organs. If you ever need a substitute someone to tie up, or, tie you up if that's your thing, all you need to do is put on the repulsors and ask nicely." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-08 02:30 am UTC (link)
	Anya blinked and managed a smile. "I'll keep that in mind. The whole thing just started another batch of nightmares. The shit with Temujin, the Hand, and now this...gives a girl some sleepless nights." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-08 02:40 am UTC (link)
	To her immense credit, Kelly flops down in another chair, instead of Anya's lap, while the coffee-and-sugar-flavored tar is brewing. "Yeah, that would do it. Weapon X has some pretty twisted stuff in those labs." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-08 02:58 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah," she said and rubbed her face. "How did you get through it? Don't you have nightmares?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

goesbothways
2012-02-08 03:13 am UTC (link)

"All the time." she agrees. "I sleep with a gun under my pillow, another sewn into it, one under the mattress... and not just because they're sexy." She shrugs. "Weapon X made me. I never had any happy memories or family or days in the park. I read my own psych reports, I know how normal I'm not. But the truth is, I'll never totally escape it, and I know it. So I do my best to just look forward, take elephant tranqs that'll help me get towards sleep before the healing factor kills it on the bad nights, and remind myself in the mornings that I'm not in their control anymore."

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	anyastark 2012-02-08 03:40 am UTC (link)
	"I'm sorry," Anya said. "Sorry that...." Just what did one say in response to that. "Sorry that you got dealt that hand and glad you got away from it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

goesbothways
2012-02-08 03:55 am UTC (link)

Kelly grins, reaching out to give Anya's hand a squeeze. "No, no. Not fishing for sorries or pity. It is what it is. And I don't know how to be anyone else. Just the long version of 'yeah, I understand nightmares'. I definitely like this place better, regardless... so looking forward is working so far. Afraid I can't tell you much about getting over those dreams though. But I'm here, for what that's worth... even if my room might inspire some new nightmares."

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	anyastark 2012-02-08 04:21 am UTC (link)
	"I know you weren't fishing for pity," Anya said. "I get so lost in my own troubles that I forget that others could have it worse." Anya smiled. "Thanks. I appreciate it. It helps having someone who understands." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-08 04:52 am UTC (link)
	"I don't have it worse. I just have it different. Being kidnapped all those times sucks. I can't even imagine the whole Lady Mandarin thing. Even when I was totally brainwashed, I knew who I was." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-08 05:03 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, that part did suck. A lot. What sucked this time, outside of the whole being grabbed, they deactivated my nanites and left me helpless. I couldn't move to even try to get out of there." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-08 05:21 am UTC (link)
	"Smart of them... that's the way I'd do it." Kelly admits. She is who and what she is. "But yeah, that kind of imprisonment is the worst. And has to make sleeping extra difficult - not wanting to even briefly go still, or get tangled up in heavy blankets, having to move just to make sure you still can... right?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-08 05:51 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah," she said. "Sometimes I feel like it's been that way since the accident that caused the injury. That one time I'm going to go back to not being able to move and I won't be able to move again." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

goesbothways
2012-02-08 06:19 am UTC (link)

"For what its worth, I know that one. Though for me, its all about the mental, not the physical, being stuck in a brain that's not entirely mine, not the body. But from what I understand, part of the key is finding a security blanket - something to physically remind you you're not back there. Because you don't have a healing factor... keep staying up like this, it'll get worse eventually. Western and eastern Medicine says so."

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	anyastark 2012-02-08 01:31 pm UTC (link)
	Anya shrugged a bit. "What does medicine know? Thankfully I've never needed much sleep. My parents say I never slept much as a baby or kid. They genetically cursed me to not need much sleep and then add in being a workaholic." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-08 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	"Key word there is 'much' sleep. How much have you gotten in the last 72 hours?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-08 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	"The past three days?" Anya shrugged. "I dunno. Six or seven hours maybe?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-09 06:47 am UTC (link)
	"I know you don't need much sleep - but speaking as someone trained in torture-level sleep deprivation techniques, its showing." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-09 10:42 pm UTC (link)
	"Yes, /Mom/. I'll eventually sleep. Except right now I want some high octane can crawl away on its own coffee." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

goesbothways
2012-02-11 03:09 pm UTC (link)

Kelly grins. "Wow, no one ever accused me of being the voice of responsibility before. As for the octane, don't worry... you'll be bouncing off the walls in no time."
She gets up to gather the coffee, by now, all brewed, and dangerously close to giving up on being classifiable as a liquid.
"If this doesn't get your pulse rate going, you're officially dead. It shouldn't need anything."

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	anyastark 2012-02-11 05:29 pm UTC (link)
	Anya accepted the coffee and took a hesitant sip. It was...interesting. She took a drik and gulped some down. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-16 02:39 am UTC (link)
	Kelly digs into her own coffee, clearly enjoying the jet fuel. "You want something to eat too?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-16 02:54 am UTC (link)
	"Depends on what's on the menu," Anya said as she took a long drink of coffee. This was like rocket fuel. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-16 02:57 am UTC (link)
	Kelly takes few things seriously. Her coffee is one of those things. "Well, there's a wide selection of blatant sexual innuendoes that follow that comment naturally, or... well, anything in the fridge in any combination, if food sounds better than sex. Or they can go together, like peanut butter, chocolate and handcuffs. What sounds good?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	anyastark 2012-02-16 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Anya blinked and when her tired mind caught up she chuckled a bit. "Food. Anything. I'm not picky when it comes to eating." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	goesbothways 2012-02-16 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Kelly mock-pouts. "Alright, food it shall be. Seriously though, someone is offering to cook for you. You have to be feeling like something? If you're still not sure like what, I could feel you to try and be helpful, of course. Or you can figure it out and order something." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)