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rogue_star ([info]rogue_star) wrote in [info]marvel_nextgen,
@ 2009-05-26 20:31:00


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Current mood: crushed
Entry tags:anya stark, inactive - artemis, sammy fury, sarah rogers, team - avengers, toni rhodes

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
She's been sitting quietly on her bed for three hours now, just staring at it. She turned her comm off first thing, trying to clear her thoughts.

She'd spent ages and all the goodwill she'd gotten from SHIELD trying to find her teammates, and found they weren't on this world.
She'd endured Misha's insistence she just relax, make friends and accept she had a family here now.
She'd started to believe Anya suggesting that maybe, just maybe this was her world now, and had gone through the first stages of mourning her parents and friends.

And she'd been about to ask Anya if she'd help her make plans for her 18th birthday, only a few months away. Her 'sweet 16' was spent invading a Sentinel concentration camp. Freeing all those people was a wonderful feeling, but she also knew most of them wouldn't make it, with or without help from the X-Men and the underground railroad, and they'd almost lost Firefly.
Her 17th was spent in a new world, recently bereft of all the things she'd come to know with the Exiles, along with the fleeting hope of making things ok again. And, of course, watching Anya's birthday party not long before, and feeling horribly out of place.

She'd screwed up her courage, tried to figure out who to invite, and was finally ready to go apologize to her parents at their non-graves, the Tomb of the Uknown Soldier seemed fitting, to ask them to understand that she needed to live her own life. And she'd prepared to ask Anya to help with a real birthday party - and was still debating, with a few butterflies, asking if Anya might even be her 'pretend date' if they did it somewhere private.

And then it showed up, just appearing out of nowhere on her right arm.

She's been in her room since, alternating between crying and trying to find a new reserve of willpower, like she always did. She was a Rogers, after all. This time, it just wasn't there. Only the words it kept telling her.

'Galactus' ship's temporal shields screwed things up, but we're back on track.
You still have work to do, kiddo.
Kiss dreams of a normal life goodbye and let's get back to work.'

Worst of all, she knew exactly what she had to do.



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[info]rogue_star
2009-05-27 07:42 am UTC (link)
"Right now, I'm not sure if anything will make things better. But I hope I'll come back someday. I still have a little time. If I didn't, it wouldn't have let me decide when to go. Maybe we can have a couple more good memories before I leave?" she asked, trying to find some of her old optimism and the cheery girl she was before the Storm Queen.

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[info]anyastark
2009-05-27 07:51 am UTC (link)
"I didn't say it would make it better, just that it helps a little," she said. "I hope you come back too."

"Of course. We can even go find some bad guys to beat up together if you want to do that."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-05-27 07:55 am UTC (link)
"I think I have a lot more fighting ahead of me soon. I'd really rather, I don't know, maybe go clubbing somewhere they won't mind if I dance with girls... or, uhm..." she blushes bright. "Maybe you'd dance with me? You keep saying you know a couple clubs where that'd be ok. Or maybe finally let me fly you to Europe and show me one of those spas you raved about. I could use a little luxury before I go. I don't know when I'll be able to relax again. If its quiet enough, maybe get the girls together for ice cream and movies... lots of Americone Dream... don't know if they'll have that where I go next either... So many things I wanted to do. And it'll probably get impatient with me soon... but I'm sure a couple days, maybe two or three, wouldn't be too selfish?" Yes, its a question more than statement. She's not used to thinking of herself first much.

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[info]anyastark
2009-05-27 08:36 am UTC (link)
"Whatever you want," Anya said quietly. While she didn't doubt they would have a good time, the thought of her leaving would always be present. "Let's go get those sundaes and we'll make a plan of attack." Anya hugged Sarah again. There were going to be a lot of hugs in the next few days.

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[info]rogue_star
2009-05-27 08:49 am UTC (link)
She knew the thought of leaving would never be far behind. As it is, leaving Gretchen without getting to say goodbye even still tears at her, over a year later. And this time she had enough time to fall for someone, hard, even if she's had the grace and will not to bring it up again - and she's still her best friend. And even now, she wants to tell her about her dream, and the riddle, and the rest, but she doesn't. Because what she really wants doesn't matter. There's work to do.
"Ok, sundaes and plans sound great.

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[info]anyastark
2009-05-27 08:53 am UTC (link)
"Come on then," she said as she stood up and grabbed Sarah's hand. "We have sundaes to eat and plans to make."

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[info]rogue_star
2009-05-27 08:56 am UTC (link)
Sarah wipes her face one more time, then lets Anya pull her along, as usual for these things. Sundaes really do sound good about now.

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